This day… it holds mixed emotions for me. Growing up my Mom always made a very big deal about birthdays. I still miss her on my birthday. Plus her birthday is just less than 2 weeks away… hard to believe she has been gone for 6 years. Hard to believe I made it to today.
I was told 13 years ago I had breast cancer. So in light of having what is too often a death sentence I survived. And am glad to say I am another year older. I just am not too sure about this year. I have no problems saying I just turned 50, I have problems being 50 with very little to show for it in the midst of my battle for disability. I never thought I would be here so soon.
But today is about happiness. That extra year I have survived. The wonderful memories of birthdays of the past. And making memories of new. Today was a nice day… had dinner with my boyfriend and daughter at a local Mexican restaurant – the fried ice cream for dessert is sinful! Then we came home and played a card game. It is moments together with family that give me the most happiness. And lucky me I get to do it all over again next week when the rest of the family can get together with me and wish me a happy (this is from my older sister) half a century.
The candles have been blown out and the games put away. I may not have the youth I wished to hang on to, but I have the greatest gifts – life, love and family. (((HUGS)))