I survived… didn’t think I would a couple of times, but I held it together enough I had no major problems today at the wedding. Against my cravings I stayed away from coffee this morning to try to keep my nerves a little more calm. I took the back roads out-of-town… 55 mph instead of 70 mph and far less traffic. The best thing though is the chance to relax some of the stress away… I took a lorazapam to calm my anxiety. It worked in about 20 to 30 minutes and had me feeling mellow but not too tired. I still was nervous, but so much better than I was before my meds.
Then the best part of the day… the kids. There were three youngsters under 4 at the wedding. I am a sucker for a babies smile – it can melt away all stress I happen to have. Especially the flower girl who was 1 or 2 at most. She looked like a little princess. She had a little stuffed doll she was carrying and she would stop and hug it. A boy maybe 5 or 6 who tried a wedding mint for the first time and did not like it – the face he made was priceless. Seeing innocent moments like that made the day beyond easy to happy at times.