Yes, that monster fatigue caught me off guard again last night (and today as I will explain later) so another double post. Please forgive me…
Day 81 – I had just enough energy to make it to one store to look for two more Christmas gifts for my daughter and niece. To my surprise, they had the popular one I thought they would be out of (an expansion pack for the game Cards Against Humanity… can be quite a fun game, but you have to watch who you play it with as it is not a game that suits everyone) and I got the next to last copy of the game (The Game Of Phones) I wanted. It is always a guessing game what they will run out of, but this was a good shopping trip with no out of stocks! Hooray… I am two gifts closer to being done with my Christmas shopping!
Day 82 – Today has been a day to take care of myself and take it easy. I realized I have had something going on every day this week even if it was only a trip to the doctor that day. I have been on the go every day. So today was my day to relax. My boyfriend and I started watching Quantico on Netflix. And I even managed to put my fatigue at rest with two short naps today. One this afternoon I kind of planned. Tonight however, it just kind of happened. But that is ok. It is my body’s way of saying I needed some rest and I got it. I was happy to have a day to recharge a bit!
I am trying something new. One of the wonderful writers I follow has a writing prompt I am giving a try. It is a ten word challenge and I think I accomplished something reasonably coherent from the blend of all the words. Not quite my usual style, but it is a challenge after all. Let me know what you think and join in the challenge if you would like.
This is the word list…
And this is the original post – Sumyanna Writes
I manage a shy smile…
Inside I am giddy with excitement
But I am too scared to let it show
My heart is about to pop out of my chest
There is no doubt I am in awe of him
But I punish myself with words of failure
Sure he can only see the bad in me
And there is no hope for a future
In addition to my internal fears
There is a steady supply of women
Willing to trot in front of him and bat their eyes
Why would he want someone plain like me
I look away from his chiseled features
And that five o’clock shadow he never shaves
Sure he is way out of my league
I suddenly see a shadow cross the base of my table
I look up into heaven as he smiles down at me…
The friendship I held sacred
You quietly brushed away
Like an annoying gnat
And I am left believing
Nobody ever likes gnats…
I know I mentioned before that my boyfriend had to work on Thanksgiving. We adapted our dinner to a different day and really didn’t mind too much as we still had a time for family to be together. The really nice thing though is that because he worked that day he earned a special discount shopping night where instead of saving 10% on purchases he saved 25%. So we had a long shopping trip tonight stocking up the pantry and buying a few Christmas gifts. We kept it within our budget and found some good deals. Shopping is always more fun when you can do it with bargains. And I am now a few gifts closer to being done with Christmas shopping too.
How do you find the time
To construct so many lies?
How do you find the ways
To make me feel insane?
How do you keep a straight face
When you insult and degrade me?
How do you still find ways
To make me forgive you?
How do you still have a hold on me
After all that you have done?
Today was my weekly doctor visit.. I was tired and I hurt but I forced myself to walk the block to the clinic. It was still nearly 40°F out today and with this being the first of December I know we are not going to have temps above freezing much longer. So I made myself walk today and I was happy I did it. I still hurt worse when it was done, I felt exhausted when I got there but it was something good for me accomplished for the day.
I think today made me want to get back to the warm water therapy I did for a while. It was an exercise I could do that did not cause near as much pain due to the low impact, but it was still a workout. If I had the money that is what I would do at least 2 to 3 times a week, but pool time costs and that is not a luxury I can have right now. So I stick with the short walks when I can get them as long as the weather holds out.
Take my truthful words
Throw them right back at my heart
Twisted around lies
For the daily prompt echo
After seeing Rent and fixing Thanksgiving dinner, my body revolted and I have been fighting some major fatigue. Forgive me for another late double day post.
Day 77 – Wow… today was a case of sticker shock. I took my car into the repair shop after the woman backed into me in the clinic parking lot. I was prepared for the estimate I thought, wrong. He got to the bottom line number to only have a door repaired and after he said, “One thousand…” I kind of blanked out before he added six hundred and sixteen. From that moment on I spent the rest of the day so happy I had car insurance to cover it!
Day 78 – This was a tough day. With the change in temperature outside and the level of activity recently I am fighting the pain today. But better than a heating pad is a cat that likes to cuddle and today my cat was feeling friendly. I think maybe she was feeling the increased cold in the air too. No matter why she was on my lap doesn’t matter, her warmth and love made me feel happy.