Happy and Grateful – Day 30

I have undertaken a challenge this year.  I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel.  No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment.  Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day.  Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog.  Let’s find some fun!

One thing I have always liked to do is read.  I find trouble finding time to read now when I am not too fatigued and I also have to watch for days when the fibro fog is bad because I have to read sections over again.  Recently I have been doing some books on CD to listen to and find I can still get lost in a good book that way.  I was able to find almost a full hour today that I was alert and clear-headed enough to listen to my lasted audio book, Joe Hill’s NOS4A2.

Reading can take you to another world, a beautiful escape from the stress of reality at times.  I am happy I can still indulge in that illusion from time to time.  I am grateful for a local library that is well stocked in all books including audio books.  And they say reading is good for the mind… sometimes I feel like my mind needs all the help it can get.

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Happy and Grateful – Day 29

I have undertaken a challenge this year.  I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel.  No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment.  Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day.  Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog.  Let’s find some fun!

I was feeling a bit better today so I decided to go out and about.  I met my favorite person – my daughter – and had some spiced chai latte at a local coffee shop.  We chatted for a bit and then went to the library to browse.  I am in the middle of a Joe Hill book right now so I didn’t find anything just yet.  My daughter however came up with about 4 books to take home.

It was nice to see my daughter, that always makes me happy.  I still had enough energy to pick up a handful of things at the grocery store for my Dad and dropped them off when I made him dinner.  I am grateful I got those things done.  I may have more back and hip pain again tonight, but I do feel like it was a good day.

Happy and Grateful – Day 28

I have undertaken a challenge this year.  I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel.  No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment.  Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day.  Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog.  Let’s find some fun!

I woke up today in a full fibromyalgia flare.  I was just out of 7 hours of sleep and I felt like I had been awake for three days straight.  Add in the head to toe pain and body aches… it was not looking to be a great day.

I did what I had to do to take care of me.  I took a couple of naps today and dug out my pain pills… I hate to take them very often because I don’t want them to lose their effectiveness.  I used my heating pad and put off the laundry one day.  I am hoping to get to sleep earlier tonight and with any luck the fatigue wont be as bad tomorrow.  It doesn’t always work that way though.  If it is still bad I will nap some more and adjust what I need to.

I am happy I have some things that can help ease the pain when I am hurting, I have the freedom to nap when the fatigue is bad and chance to rearrange things I don’t have the energy to do.  I am grateful there is always a chance tomorrow will be better… that is a hope I have to hang onto.

Automatically In The Past

It’s an automatic response;

I hear the slurred words,

I smell the alcohol on your breath

And I instantly tense.

 

I remember those nights;

He stumbled down the stairs,

Breaking the window

And I am instantly afraid.

 

I know you’re not him;

He drank more,

He lost control

And I should not compare you to him.

 

But it’s an automatic response;

You drink,

I remember

And the hurt begins again.

Happy and Grateful – Day 27

I have undertaken a challenge this year.  I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel.  No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment.  Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day.  Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog.  Let’s find some fun!

As I sip my Lemon Zinger herbal tea I try to unwind.  It wasn’t a great day, but it ended on a pretty good note.  My daughter stopped by after work to watch a little of the soap opera with me.  We discussed how work has been going for her.  She cooed over the cat – the cat is really hers, but she can’t have pets at her apartment so I keep her here.  And she raided the refrigerator.  She left with my sweatshirt on convinced we had the furnace set too low.

It always does me good to get a chance to see her again.  I really miss her every day.  I was happy to spend a couple of hours with her and grateful she is still a part of my life.  Don’t know what I would do if she wasn’t.  I love her to the moon and back!