I have undertaken a challenge this year. I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel. No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment. Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day. Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog. Let’s find some fun!
Trying new things is something that I need to do more of. Anxiety often keeps me from branching out to do this. Of all things to be anxious about tonight it was walking into an unfamiliar place. A new restaurant opened close by about a month ago and my boyfriend wanted to try it out tonight. Sometimes I have enough social anxiety a crowded restaurant is hard to walk into… make it one I am new to and it is worse. I did some coping mechanisms – deep breathing, concentrating really hard on just our table, not the whole place, and reminding myself I was safe and close to home if there was a big problem.
I made it through dinner ok. It got better after a lot of the dinner rush was over and the place emptied out a bit. The food was really good and reasonably priced. The restaurant had a nice sports bar type atmosphere and was playing some college basketball while we were there.
I don’t understand how I can get so worked up about something so simple as a dinner out, but I do sometimes. The thing to remember is I made it through ok in the past and I WILL do so again in the future no matter how much anxiety I have. I am happy we tried something new tonight, I am grateful I was able to get through it without an anxiety attack that only would have made things worse.