Happy and Grateful – Day 53

This is February and I am well on my way to attaining a goal I set for myself.  I am trying to post every day with happiness and gratitude that I have encountered that day.  There is always something no matter how small it may seem that we can be grateful for and even just a shared smile can make you happy if only for a moment.  Please try to find those moments for yourself too…  if you’re up to it I would love if you would share them too in the comments or your own blog.  Being aware can really turn a day around!

Please forgive me being late on posting this… long busy day yesterday just wiped me out.  BUT… I was determined to make it to the park to take a short walk and maybe find some of nature’s beauty.

I did squeeze in about a 15 to 20 minute walk.  Sadly I didn’t find much that was showing signs of spring, but since snow is in the forecast tomorrow that is probably a good thing.  I did find a couple of trees that were starting to bud…

Digimax A50 / KENOX Q2

Mainly what was around me was all the remnants of last year’s blooms…

Digimax A50 / KENOX Q2

But it was all wonderful 70°F weather and nature surrounding me.  It was enough fresh air to make me happy for the rest of the day even if I was exhausted.  I am grateful I had that small window of time I could take advantage of.  And who knows, even though snow is coming tomorrow… it can still provide a different kind of beauty in nature.

 

Happy and Grateful – Day 52

This is February and I am well on my way to attaining a goal I set for myself.  I am trying to post every day with happiness and gratitude that I have encountered that day.  There is always something no matter how small it may seem that we can be grateful for and even just a shared smile can make you happy if only for a moment.  Please try to find those moments for yourself too…  if you’re up to it I would love if you would share them too in the comments or your own blog.  Being aware can really turn a day around!

It looks like we have one nice day coming tomorrow and we are done with our warm spell.  I should have known snow would return soon.  In Iowa when the high school teams gather for the state basketball championships we almost always seem to get snow some where during the tournaments and the boys started playing this week I think.  SO I need to pull up some energy and get to a park tomorrow because I just didn’t have the energy today.

It has been a tough day.  Took Dad to the doctor and once again hit a brick wall on why he keeps getting dizzy.  So there are two more tests to take next week.  Does not seem to end.  And he is so frustrated with the doctors turning him in circles and passing the blame back and forth to different specialist… it gets old fast.  Add that frustration with another flare of my fibro and I was glad to see the sunset.

The nice thing about a bad day is that it will end… even many in a row will eventually end.  For that fact I am happy.  I am always grateful to work through the pain of the day, fight the fatigue,  and trudge through the fibro fog.  The term they use on some of the websites it a fibro warrior, some days it does feel like a battle.  But minute by minute I will win. Now on to that warm day tomorrow!

Mom Is Gone

If I were ten years old

I would run to my secret hideout

And just wait…

 

Wait until I stopped wanting to cry

Wait until my heart didn’t feel trampled inside

Wait until  a new day started

Because you said sunlight is always kinder

Wait until my head didn’t spin

Wait for another chance to read your notes

Wait for a new game of Parcheesi to start

Wait for the chocolate to melt on our tongues

But mostly I would wait forever

Just to hear you call my name

One more time…

 

It has been 6 1/2 years since my mom died in her sleep… I still miss her today like it was yesterday and ache for her friendship.

Happy and Grateful – Day 51

This is February and I am well on my way to attaining a goal I set for myself.  I am trying to post every day with happiness and gratitude that I have encountered that day.  There is always something no matter how small it may seem that we can be grateful for and even just a shared smile can make you happy if only for a moment.  Please try to find those moments for yourself too…  if you’re up to it I would love if you would share them too in the comments or your own blog.  Being aware can really turn a day around!

The weather today was still Spring like, only a rainy Spring day.  That is ok though, it has been a pretty dry winter around here so we will take it.  And I would much rather have a little rain than a lot of snow.

We had indoor plans for the day anyway.  My car was once again making a loud ticking noise and we had an appointment at the auto garage to have it fixed.  It was like the same sound it had made in the fall when I took it in and it was a part that they had to remove part of the dash to get to … nearly a $400 bill but covered under the extended warranty so it was free.  My warranty is now expired but the bill was less as it was an easier to fix part this time.

So I am happy to have my car back and to have it quiet again.  I am grateful the bill was almost $100 less than I expected too.  It is amazing how much we rely on our cars to get us from point a to point b.  We really learn how much we usually use them when they are not around to be used.

 

Glitter

If glitter was like fairy dust

I could grant a million wishes

Just pop in to my local craft store

And gather dreams by the arm load

You wouldn’t struggle anymore

And maybe I could dance again

The world would be safe and sparkly

But glitter gets lost in the wind

And hopes are dashed by reality

If only glitter was like fairy dust

Your pixie I would be…

Monochrome Monday – Rustic Brdge

I am starting something new.  I have seen several posts listed with the title Monochrome Monday and since I love black and white photography I thought I would jump on the band wagon.  I am not sure if there is an actual page that posts a MM challenge – if you know of one please link it in the comments.  I am just kind of going on my own at this point in time but would love to see what some of you have for black and white photos as well.  I can’t guarantee a post every Monday, but I will try.

I am starting out with one of my favorite subject matters, old bridges.  This is a foot bridge at a local park.

Digimax A50 / KENOX Q2

rustic bridge spans creek

crossing to another path

where new dreams must dwell

Happy and Grateful – Day 50

This is February and I am well on my way to attaining a goal I set for myself.  I am trying to post every day with happiness and gratitude that I have encountered that day.  There is always something no matter how small it may seem that we can be grateful for and even just a shared smile can make you happy if only for a moment.  Please try to find those moments for yourself too…  if you’re up to it I would love if you would share them too in the comments or your own blog.  Being aware can really turn a day around!

My boyfriend and I decided to take advantage of the nice weather and take a short drive tonight.  We drove about 20 miles south to find the closest town that had an Outback Steakhouse.  We had received a gift card for Christmas but had yet to use it since it is not in town.  So we drove south and had a wonderful filling meal.  The nice thing too is that it is the same town where my daughter works at the coffee shop so we stopped after dinner to see her and get a drink for the trip back.

I was happy we could make the trip without worrying about the weather this time of year.  And grateful for my boyfriend’s mom who gave us the gift card to use in the first place.  It was good food and good company and a special treat afterwards.  Do you have a restaurant you will go out of your way for on occasion for a special treat?

Dreams Blur Into Nightmares

My dreams begin to blur

With every drink you take

I have been here before

And it was ugly then

I don’t want to relieve that nightmare

I don’t want to see someone else

Waste away to nothing

Ravaged from the disease

I don’t want to live my nights in fear

Or what might be with every new bottle

I know you are not him

I know this could be different

But to me it is terrifyingly familiar