Class Reunion

He did not recognize her

It broke her heart

He was all she had thought about for years

She apparently wasn’t even a distant memory

She was lost in his rugged features again

When he suddenly caught her eyes

Was there a small spark of memory

Did he maybe know who she was

She started to panic as he walked her way

She had dreamed of this moment

Now there was no turning back

Fate would now set her dreams into motion

Happy and Grateful – Day 35

This is February and I am well on my way to attaining a goal I set for myself.  I am trying to post every day with happiness and gratitude that I have encountered that day.  There is always something no matter how small it may seem that we can be grateful for and even just a shared smile can make you happy if only for a moment.  Please try to find those moments for yourself too…  if you’re up to it I would love if you would share them too in the comments or your own blog.  Being aware can really turn a day around!

My ears are ringing, my voice is fading fast from screaming and my hands are hurting from clapping so much.  My niece, my daughter, her friend and I all went to an amazing concert tonight.  Not the condition one would expect to be in after attending an orchestra performance.  This was not a regular show though.  This was “Video Games Live” – an amazing concert of all video game music, no EPIC video game music.  The music was outstanding, the choir that was there to accompany them was superb… I want to go back to experience this again.

As a mature adult I remember the rise of the video game in the 80’s, to the games my daughter plays today… and you heard everything from new to old tonight.  Entertaining video clips in between some of the songs played, but the big screens were mainly to show off the graphics of the games the music accompanied.  And they were magnificent sights to see.  From a trip down memory lane with some of the earliest games, to today’s completely realistic graphics it was a visual feast as well as musical.

The show tours around the world and works with the local orchestras to put on each show.  I strongly recommend the show.  It was an event I wont soon forget.  I was happy to see a piece of my childhood today.  And grateful that the girls asked me to travel along on this magically musical journey.

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Happy and Grateful – Day 34

This is February and I am well on my way to attaining a goal I set for myself.  I am trying to post every day with happiness and gratitude that I have encountered that day.  There is always something no matter how small it may seem that we can be grateful for and even just a shared smile can make you happy if only for a moment.  Please try to find those moments for yourself too…  if you’re up to it I would love if you would share them too in the comments or your own blog.  Being aware can really turn a day around!

I am writing early… in a way ahead of the happiness.  But then again I do have a peace about me that is happy like.  I am hours away from taking a short trip with my niece, my daughter and her friend.  They have tickets for an event tomorrow night that we are all going to and we thought we would make a weekend out of it.  So we leave in about 3 hours and I am nervous but excited.

I will have two days where I don’t have to worry about running errands.  I am not driving so I don’t have to deal with traffic anxiety.  I get to spend time with my daughter.  It will be fun and I am happy about that.  I am grateful that my sister can help my Dad out while I am gone.  I should be packing now, but wanted to sneak in a couple of posts.  I will try to get my Day 35 out as soon as I can when we get back… I am sure I will need a little recovery time though.  I hope everyone has a super weekend… (((HUGS)))!

Happy and Grateful – Day 33

This is February and I am well on my way to attaining a goal I set for myself.  I am trying to post every day with happiness and gratitude that I have encountered that day.  There is always something no matter how small it may seem that we can be grateful for and even just a shared smile can make you happy if only for a moment.  Please try to find those moments for yourself too…  if you’re up to it I would love if you would share them too in the comments or your own blog.  Being aware can really turn a day around!

I started back on a course of healing today.  My therapist had recommended a book to me a few years ago and while I started it I never finished it.  It is called A Gentle Path through the Twelve Steps and it is a workbook dealing with recovery for addicts and those affected by them… the later would be me. I was married to an alcoholic for many years and still deal with the occasional traumas that came with it.

I started out great with the step work of Al-Anon and thought I had things pretty well under control… but that was a mistake I made.  I dropped the meetings, my sponsor developed health problems and could no longer help me and I put the book on a shelf and forgot it.

Now with my boyfriend drinking again (he drank heavily before we started dating but stopped about the time we started going out) I need the steps and the program again.  Problem is my life with fibromyalgia.  I am usually so tired after day-to-day things I don’t have the energy to drive across town (15 to 20 min drive) to get to a meeting at the end of the day.  So I am pulling the book back out and starting over with it along with the help of my doctor.

I have reviewed steps one and two now and have been given the assignment of pages to read and work to do before my next week’s appointment.  I feel good about this.  I am happy I can work on this at my own pace at home.  I am grateful my doctor is giving it another shot with me.  Addiction affects so many people besides the addict… I heard it described once as a wet dog coming out of a pond and the water he shakes off is his addiction – everyone he shakes that water onto is touched by what he does.  It is time for me to grab a towel.

An Intimate Moment

He stands with a towel around his waist

The clean smell of soap in the air

He is in front of the sink with his razor

His hair still wet from the shower

It is such a simple time

But he never looked better to me

Then when he shaves

My heart yearns to see that moment

And the concentration on his face

Such a personal private time

And he shares it with me

I couldn’t love him more

Happy and Grateful – Day 32

This is February and I am well on my way to attaining a goal I set for myself.  I am trying to post every day with happiness and gratitude that I have encountered that day.  There is always something no matter how small it may seem that we can be grateful for and even just a shared smile can make you happy if only for a moment.  Please try to find those moments for yourself too…  if you’re up to it I would love if you would share them too in the comments or your own blog.  Being aware can really turn a day around!

Today was a pretty constant on the go day.  My daughter called with a last-minute request to go out for lunch together so I threw myself together and picked her up at her apartment so we could head to Perkins.  It is always such a joy for me to see her, and an unexpected chance to visit is always nice.  But we could not relax too long as I had to take my Dad to an appointment.  Then off to the pharmacy to pick up some meds.  Home for about an hour and a half.  Back to my Dad’s to fix him dinner.  Back to the store for cold medicine as my boyfriend came home not feeling well.  And finally home for the night.  Phew!

I am hoping all that running will help me sleep good tonight.  But right now I am still kind of wired from the on the go day.  But I am happy I was able to squeeze in time with my daughter.  And once again I find myself grateful to be able to help my Dad out after all he has done for me growing up.  I feel pretty lucky to have him as a Dad and feel no shame in saying I love him every day.  He may be my hero but he is not immortal and I treasure every day I can have with him still.

Just Kidding

Resist my feelings

Like I have some control

Blocking the emotions

Is the ultimate goal.

 

I shouldn’t love you

Or even just care

It’s impossible to ignore though

The way you look over there.

 

My desire to touch you

And make you mine

Drives me to insanity

But I can’t cross that line.

 

So I just close my mouth

And try to block out your sight

But who am I kidding

For your love I would fight.

Happy and Grateful – Day 31

I have undertaken a challenge this year.  I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel.  No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment.  Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day.  Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog.  Let’s find some fun!

One month done… it seems to me like it went by pretty fast.  Maybe it was because the weather was a little nicer for January than usual.  Don’t get me wrong, we had ice, snow and bitter cold some days but overall I think the month was warmer than usual.

The nice thing about January being over is that February is a short month and in March a few things may start to grow… I am ready for spring.  I know there are seeds in the ground waiting to sprout forth and bring us new life in the spring.  I am tired of bare trees and brown grass poking through the snow.  I like the color green.

I guess the one good thing is I have my pictures to prove to myself that there will be regrowth.  I can go through my spring and summer photos and find that renewed life.  I am happy I have a nice collection of pictures to remind me of spring.  I am grateful for all the posts I see here where people share their nature photos and give me a little more hope for spring and flowers to return.

…only 49 days until March 20th, the official return of spring!

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