As March begins I continue with my goal to find happiness and gratitude every day. There is at least some small thing that can bring a smile and give you a moment to be grateful for. Please join me in looking for the good moments of the day … it would be great if you would share them in the comments or on your own blog. Be aware of the little wonders of the day!
As I sit here tonight thinking back over the day and sipping my lemon ginger tea, I realize I don’t know what to put for my post today. I did a couple of things that made me feel good… was my weekly appointment with my doctor and my boyfriend and I splurged with a dinner out. I have used my doctor and comfort food both many times. Was there any other happy moments to the day?
I have been struggling in and out of my depression this week and feeling rather alone. I find tonight another struggle with the hauntings in the darkness. I feel a little less alone talking to you, but am down enough I wonder how many of you are actually reading my posts. I will admit some days I will skip some posts but I always try to get back to them the next day. And there are times I read “too fast” and maybe don’t get the full meaning out of the post. Forgive me.
But back onto the topic of happiness… at this time of night when everyone is asleep it is hard to shake the loneliness. I can send emails, write letters, even get a message saved in a draft to review in the morning… just to feel closer to another human. Tonight I escaped into my past a little. Due to a change in our phone system for messages I was given the opportunity to have my saved messages put on a flash drive. It is probably less than 4 minutes of messages, but it connects me with a time and person I care about. A friends excitement, a visiting family member, a frustrated but funny friend who couldn’t reach me, my daughter, my boyfriend and a funny story from a friend… all things that in some way make me happy. And I am grateful that I had to option to have them saved to listen to whenever I need a boost.
To anyone who has made it to the end of this rambling post… thank you truly for sticking with me. I am sorry but some days the babbling fingertips I have, take on a life all their own! I hope you have a good night or morning depending on where you are. Now I must try to get some rest.
Leigha Robbins 