We have reached the month of April and I am still on course to post daily with my happiness and gratitude I have found. Please join in if you feel like doing this too by sharing in the comments or on your own blog. There is so much to be happy and grateful for.
Not one of my better days. Feeling the pull of the black hole to drag me in, but I am resisting as much as I can. I retreated to the computer to concentrate on some puzzles for a while – Sudoku, and crossword. Keeping my mind on something other than the dark thoughts helps usually.
I am still dealing with what is like the loss of a friend and anything I can think of doing to stop it just sounds clingy and needy… but maybe I am a little needy. Things are not perfect and I’m kind of caught in a corner and feel pretty alone. But I am not going to beg to be friends. I went through that with another friend and got my heart ripped apart.
Anyway… this is supposed to be happiness and gratitude! I am happy I do have some things I can do to distract me for short periods of time. I am grateful for a short Messenger talk with my daughter this afternoon. Now to take my anxiety meds so I can hopefully sleep without too many nightmares. (Sorry this is a pretty negative post… just not feeling it today much.)