Happy and Grateful – Day 109

We have reached the month of April and I am still on course to post daily with my happiness and gratitude I have found.  Please join in if you feel like doing this too by sharing in the comments or on your own blog.  There is so much to be happy and grateful for.

It was a LATE night last night – my daughter stopped after work and by the time she headed home it was well after 2 AM and I was wiped out.  So lets just pretend it is still last night and I am REALLY doing this on time.  LOL

It was a back and forth day…. cloudy cool morning, sun and a little heat in the afternoon to evening, then the night brought the return of clouds and some thunderstorms.  I had planned to take my Dad to his usual Wednesday coffee with his friends, but he was feeling a little under the weather so I instead took advantage of the extra time I had and went to the park for about 45 min.  It was too cloudy then to take pictures but the birds were still singing and the squirrels were scurrying around.

I got home from my errands then and had a surprise visitor. A friend, I have known since I was a little girl, called and wanted to visit.  She was having some relationship troubles and wanted to talk it out with someone.  So we talked and had a nice time, she even stayed for dinner.

Then after dinner was done she went home and I went to get dinner for my Dad.  Then my daughter stopped after work and created the late night I mentioned earlier.  It was a long day but a nice one.  It always makes me happy to talk to old friends.  I am grateful I had enough energy to stay awake through it all.  …now onto the day of recovery from it!

Happy and Grateful – Day 108

We have reached the month of April and I am still on course to post daily with my happiness and gratitude I have found.  Please join in if you feel like doing this too by sharing in the comments or on your own blog.  There is so much to be happy and grateful for.

Not one of my better days.  Feeling the pull of the black hole to drag me in, but I am resisting as much as I can.  I retreated to the computer to concentrate on some puzzles for a while – Sudoku, and crossword.  Keeping my mind on something other than the dark thoughts helps usually.

I am still dealing with what is like the loss of a friend and anything I can think of doing to stop it just sounds clingy and needy… but maybe I am a little needy.  Things are not perfect and I’m kind of caught in a corner and feel pretty alone.  But I am not going to beg to be friends.  I went through that with another friend and got my heart ripped apart.

Anyway… this is supposed to be happiness and gratitude!  I am happy I do have some things I can do to distract me for short periods of time.  I am grateful for a short Messenger talk with my daughter this afternoon.  Now to take my anxiety meds so I can hopefully sleep without too many nightmares.  (Sorry this is a pretty negative post… just not feeling it today much.)

Happy and Grateful – Day 107

We have reached the month of April and I am still on course to post daily with my happiness and gratitude I have found.  Please join in if you feel like doing this too by sharing in the comments or on your own blog.  There is so much to be happy and grateful for.

I have spent the day playing catch up.  The most strenuous thing I have done is two loads of laundry, otherwise I have been on my computer reading emails and posts from WordPress.  I also had a sunburn from yesterday “catching up” with the heat and itching on my face and arms.

It was good to not have a long list of things to do today.  I  think I regained some of the energy I lost over the last couple of days and I am grateful for that.  I am also happy I was able to just kind of take it easy today.  Holidays are nice but they can be a lot of work sometimes.

Daydreamer

His voice was loud and sudden

It caused me to jolt back to reality

I was daydreaming again

Wishing for things like

Tenderness, romance and touch

Sincerity, kindness and maturity

Sobriety, awareness and presence of mind

But these days my dreams seem impossible

As he drifts further away

 

He is asking about dinner

And I sigh and answer him

Back to my reality

Where I feel so forgotten…

Happy and Grateful – Day 106

We have reached the month of April and I am still on course to post daily with my happiness and gratitude I have found.  Please join in if you feel like doing this too by sharing in the comments or on your own blog.  There is so much to be happy and grateful for.

As yesterday was Easter I ran out of time and energy to post last night so forgive me for being late please.  It was a beautiful day… sunny and warm, not a cloud in sight.  We spent the afternoon with my boyfriend’s family watching the young nieces and nephew hunting eggs and getting a sugar rush.  The adults got to visit and have a good meal.

Then in the evening we had my daughter over for dinner and a nice visit.  The bunny left us a few chocolate treats and yet another frog for my daughter’s collection.  It was a lovely evening.

Then sitting down to rest after my daughter went home and I had delivered dinner to my Dad… I fell victim to the fatigue from all the activity of the weekend.  But what a weekend it was.  It is always good to gather with family and it makes me happy.  I am grateful that my anxiety did not flare during all the activity.

Uphill

It is an uphill climb

The daily struggle called life

You have to keep moving forward

Or you will lose your momentum

Rocks and bushes will try to slow you down

But obstacles are no match

For sheer determination and survival instincts

The ultimate view from the top

Will be worth the journey of strife

So whatever you do

Just keep climbing

Happy and Grateful – Day 105

We have reached the month of April and I am still on course to post daily with my happiness and gratitude I have found.  Please join in if you feel like doing this too by sharing in the comments or on your own blog.  There is so much to be happy and grateful for.

Let’s hope I can stay awake long enough to finish this post… i am wiped out.  It was a busy day and I will probably pay for it tomorrow.  I baked a cake, made two batches of Jello jiggler cream eggs, did a load of laundry, got dinner for my Dad and made a trip to the grocery store… I am out of spoons*.

But I was happy to get things accomplished,  The cake was for my boyfriend who loves chocolate, but has been feeling under the weather.  The Jello eggs are for both my daughter and I.  They used to be an Easter staple but it has been several years since I made them… they are so yummy!  I am grateful I had just enough energy to get through all of that before my back screamed STOP!

I wish everyone a very happy Easter!

 

*The spoon theory helps to explain life with chronic pain and fatigue