Happy and Grateful – Day 180

June brings warmer weather and the start of summer. Hopefully it brings many ideas from my muse too. I continue to write for my challenge to find the things that make me happy and grateful each day this year. Please feel free to join me in this challenge with comments about your happiness and gratitude or start your own blog. There is always something good to find in each day.

Today has been just kind of going through the motions.  I am fatigued beyond belief, but can’t sleep for any length of time.  I feel my muse is slipping away, my last couple of poems have been ok, but I feel they are lacking that creative spark.  I am on edge with all the fireworks going off.  Just getting by as best as I can.

It was a fairly nice day that ended with some rain again.  I really wish I had the time and energy to get to a park and recharge myself a little.  I did see my therapist today which meant a short walk to the clinic… it was better than no walk at all and the fresh air felt good, I am grateful for that.

My daughter and I had a little Facebook chat and she said something that did bring a smile to my face, that made me happy.  Now I think I will have a late night snack (so I can feel bad about my weight) and try to sleep soon.  Really just want to crawl in a hole… maybe this new dosage on my anti-depressant will help me out of this funk.  I can hope, at least I still have some hope.

Attract And Repel

I was attracted to you
Like magnetic opposites
I believed nothing would keep us apart
We just seemed to fit together perfectly
But suddenly you disappeared
Without a warning or word
Now I sit and wonder
What I did wrong
The silence leaves me without answers
And a heart that’s broken in a million pieces

For the word prompt magnet

Happy and Grateful – Day 179

June brings warmer weather and the start of summer. Hopefully it brings many ideas from my muse too. I continue to write for my challenge to find the things that make me happy and grateful each day this year. Please feel free to join me in this challenge with comments about your happiness and gratitude or start your own blog. There is always something good to find in each day.

I’m exhausted!  The day has been filled with much too much on very little sleep.  So I will probably keep this short and sweet so I can close my eyes…let’s just hope they don’t close before I post this.

I had shopping to do for my Dad today, taking and picking up my boyfriend from work, coffee group for my Dad, and dinner for my Dad… phew!  I got through it all, but it was kind of staggered throughout the day so it wasn’t all at once.  And I did take a short nap in there too.  I am grateful I had the energy to get it all done.

We had some thunderstorms roll though this afternoon… I am also grateful we did not have any tornadoes as there were some sighted in the state with this system.  I just hope the rain knocked some of the humidity out of the air for tomorrow, but I doubt it.

Today I got an email from a very close friend.  She was like a big sister when I was growing up.  She had to move back home to California and I have missed her ever since.  She has been having some health issues and I sent her a letter last week and she replied with an email I was so happy to get.

Ok, the Sandman is here with a BIG bag of sand threatening to knock me out so I should go.  Hope everyone had a good day!

Abducted By Aliens?

On a day so bright and sunny
I went to meet my honey
But when I got there
To the special place we share
He was already gone
I ran out to the lawn
I looked left and right
He was nowhere in sight
As the sun beat down
I was wearing a frown
Then I turned to see
Him smiling at me
He was still in his car
Not very far
My imagination had run away
On that beautiful sunny day

Happy and Grateful – Day 178

June brings warmer weather and the start of summer. Hopefully it brings many ideas from my muse too. I continue to write for my challenge to find the things that make me happy and grateful each day this year. Please feel free to join me in this challenge with comments about your happiness and gratitude or start your own blog. There is always something good to find in each day.

Not too bad today… a little warmer, but there was a nice breeze.  I think now we head into a period of rain possible every evening again as the heat of the day cooks up some storms.  But that is summertime in Iowa.

I feel like I have to stretch today to make my happy and grateful work.  I just have not had one of my better days today.  Tired, irritable, headache, backache, and a boyfriend who had too much to drink make for a rough end to a long day.  I did however hear from a friend from Nebraska who will be here in the area this weekend and hopefully we can connect at some time and maybe have dinner.  Haven’t seen her in over a year so it would be really good to see her.  I was happy to get that little bit of hope.

I have to say tonight I am grateful for my laptop.  I can connect to WordPress, email friends and even keep in touch with my doctor through it.  It is my connection to a world that is sometimes frightening and out of reach in a lot of ways.  If I hadn’t needed to run to my Dad’s tonight to get him dinner I would have stayed locked up here all day… on a day like today that is not all bad.  I am not to the point I never want to leave, but that thought does scare me sometimes.

I am going to read a few more posts and try to get some rest.  Maybe I will wake up better tomorrow… maybe not.  Remember to be grateful for the little things!

Not Even A Wishing Well

The wheel of fortune,
A four leaf clover,
And the first wish on a star –
I think they are all against me.
My dream of you just died
When you said goodbye to me
And “hello love” to another…

Happy and Grateful – Day 177

June brings warmer weather and the start of summer. Hopefully it brings many ideas from my muse too. I continue to write for my challenge to find the things that make me happy and grateful each day this year. Please feel free to join me in this challenge with comments about your happiness and gratitude or start your own blog. There is always something good to find in each day.

Not a great start to the week… I was supposed to be at my Dad’s today to get him at noon.  I woke up at about ten after.  Oops!  Luckily it was only for blood work and there is no set time for that.  I forgot my library DVD to take back – at least it is not due until tomorrow.  And my boyfriend made zero progress on fixing his car so there is another week I have to drive him to and from work.

I won’t let a bad start to the day get me down, or at least try not to.  It was beautiful windows open wide weather again, so the birds singing helped a little.  And it was an afternoon in the kitchen putting together a spaghetti sauce to simmer for dinner.  I do still like to cook when I have the energy … I am happy it was there today.  Although to be honest I did nap today for about 45 minutes.

Not a lot going on today though.  I did get some time to work on my pictures.  I did a little editing and deleting to get some more room on my SD card.  I am grateful I had some quiet time to work on my photography.  Now if I could just get the time and energy to get to the park before it gets too hot again… maybe tomorrow.

The night is getting away from me and 6am comes early to have to take my boyfriend to work.  Stay happy and grateful!

Without You

I took you to
The local favorites
Just to share
My town with you
Now that you’re gone
Those places haunt me
Without you, without you

I shared my
Heart with you
Because you moved me
Stirring emotions in me
Now that you’re gone
It barely beats
Without you, without you

I did my best
To make you family
Including you when I could
In all I did
Now that you’re gone
My family feels fractured
Without you, without you

Without you
I cant breathe
Without you
My soul cries
Without you
I feel lost
Without you, without you

Lost without you…

 

Monochrome Monday – Taking A Break

This is not one of my better shots since it is a little grainy, but I had butterflies on my mind today.  It is hard to get something good close up with my little Sears special camera.  My phone actually takes better close-ups, but I didn’t have it then.  There is a special delicate beauty about butterflies… I will have to make it back to the butterfly house with a better picture in mind.  Hope you enjoy, have a good week!

Happy And Grateful – Day 176

June brings warmer weather and the start of summer. Hopefully it brings many ideas from my muse too. I continue to write for my challenge to find the things that make me happy and grateful each day this year. Please feel free to join me in this challenge with comments about your happiness and gratitude or start your own blog. There is always something good to find in each day.

Another absolutely beautiful day of cooler temperatures.  I decided to risk it and take a short walk with my boyfriend, but boy did I feel the pain by the time we got back home.  We just walked over to the new fireworks tent set up by the grocery store.  The state of Iowa just made purchasing fireworks legal this year.  The problem is many cities have ordinances that make the act of setting them off illegal.  It is about a $250 fine if you get caught… in the capital city it is over $600.  Not sure I understand how they can be half legal and half not.  BUT I told my boyfriend I would have no part of them in town anywhere.  His sister has a farm though out of city limits… as long as the kids were not around that would be ok.  They just make me nervous.

Other than our outing to the tent, followed by a stop in the store for a few things… it was a day of recovery.  Thursdays drive, Fridays rehearsal dinner, and then the wedding yesterday.  I have been stressed and on my feet too much lately.  I was grateful for the nice weather to walk in, but happy to sit in my recliner with my feet up and just catch up on some WordPress and email.

I hope everyone had a wonderful and grateful weekend!