Happy and Grateful – Day 211

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning.  It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life.  It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night.  I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day.  Join along in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always good in every day.

It was another fairly nice day.  Once again though the fatigue kept me indoors much of the day.  I napped twice and still felt so worn out.  After a cup of coffee I did get a little energy in me and made it to the store for what I forgot last night.  Now after dinner and a little dessert I am once again without much energy.

Today did take me to a good place down memory lane.  I found an old movie on TV that I had not seen in years.  It was Some Kind Of Wonderful and while it was no Academy Award winner, it was a good “first love” story from the 80’s.  It brought back some good memories of watching the movie with my ex-husband.  I am grateful for those early days we had that were good… very good.

I would have to dig a little for my happy today.  When I get stuck in these days of fatigue or depression too, it is harder to see the good.  It was a simple thing again today.  My cat being kind to me and laying with me a good portion of the afternoon.  Sometimes I do think she can sense my tough days and knows when to be closer to me.

Things ran late tonight (we didn’t even eat dinner until almost 11) because of my boyfriend laying down and napping with a horrible headache.  It is past my bedtime and I still want to read a couple of posts before I try to close my eyes.  I hope as the new work week begins everyone can find their happiness in the week ahead.  Good night!

 

Watching Him

He sit across the room

Unaware…

 

My eyes take him in

All of him

His broad shoulders

His defined chest

With just a little hair

Peeking out of his shirt

His strong legs

The memory of the way

His jeans define his ass

His arms that could encircle me

His hands that could caress me

I could get lost in his eyes

The way they seem to

Look straight into my soul

His lips have just a little pout

I would love to take a nibble of

And when he licks his lips

A part of me shivers

 

Yes, he is unaware of how

I lust for him when

All he does

Is just sit there

And he temps me

Happy and Grateful – Day 210

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning.  It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life.  It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night.  I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day.  Join along in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always good in every day.

Fought the battle against the fatigue hard today… succumbed to two naps.  Fatigue 2 me 0.  Oh well, at least it keeps me out of trouble.  And it was a pretty nice day to get in trouble.  Temps were again in the mid 80’s.  A little more humidity today, but I wasn’t going anywhere except the grocery store and my dad’s.

Today was an on and off battle.  My daughter found two new things on Facebook messenger where we can play mini golf and pool.  So we have been playing each other most of the day.  It has been pretty close, she will win one, then I win two, and she wins two.  It has been fun, keeps me closer to happy.

And I am grateful for the fact I didn’t have to deal with my boyfriend’s ex-wife a second day in a row.  She borrowed money from us last night (we use debt cards for everything and only had a whopping $3 on hand) and stopped back by to pay us back today.  But my boyfriend was outside having a cigarette so I did not have to deal with her.  She is not my favorite person, but I still try to be civil.

I am still feeling the fatigue so that is all for tonight.  I’m going to listen to some meditation music and try to drift off to sleep.  Remember to find your happiness daily!

Pest Control

Like a fly that wont leave you alone

She hovers around him

Circling and coming back around

Talking fast as a drone

Her ideas are flighty

She is the pest this summer

Trying to get into our house

Forever annoying him

But there is no spray

Or fly swatter to use

Drawn to him with their history

It’s like she is on the attack

But he just calmly walks away

Implying she should buzz off.

Happy and Grateful – Day 209

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning.  It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life.  It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night.  I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day.  Join along in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always good in every day.

I am doing this early tonight so that the fatigue doesn’t get me again.  It has been a pretty quiet day.  My boyfriend stayed home from work so we both slept in today.  The only trip out of the house was to the apartment offices to sign paperwork on our lease.

I have been writing a little beyond my posts here today.  I have been getting some emotions out onto paper.  I feel if I hadn’t I would have been fighting the tears today.  I hate having days when all around me is normal and fine, but I feel like things are caving in on me.  Those are some of the days I need the writing the most.  Depression can be so frustrating when your brain knows there is no “reason” to be down, but you just are.  So I write and I am grateful I can.

My happy moment was a simple pleasure.  A treat for my taste buds.  My boyfriend did a peach crisp dump cake today and it was delicious.  I know emotional eating is not great but some days comfort food is just what you need and some warm peach crisp was it for me today.

I think it is time to take my bedtime meds and hope for a peaceful nights sleep.  I hope everyone has a happy and grateful weekend!

The Trails

The shallow water rolls by

Gracefully cascading over rocks

flowing over the bed of sand

And wetting the edge of plants

I take a deep breath and sigh

Dreaming of days we walked in the water

Days when you were by my side

The trees and I miss you

The skies are as blue as my heart

But I still put one foot in front of another

And walk the trails without you

Happy and Grateful – Day 208

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning.  It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life.  It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night.  I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day.  Join along in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always good in every day.

“I’m late, I’m late, for a very important date…”  Over 12 hours later I am finally posting, will you forgive me?  I had been going on only 4 hours of sleep and a 45 minute nap… that caught up with me and I went out in full light, TV on and still in my jeans and t-shirt.  So the fatigue captured me last night and I am still trying to catch up today.  Oops!

Yesterday was a beautiful day as is today.  There is still some humidity in the air, but the temperatures are much more manageable.  Now if we could just get some rain…

This post is all about kids.  Yesterday was Miracle Treat Day at many Dairy Queen’s across the country.  It was a day when all Blizzard Treats purchased would provide a dollar donation to The Children’s Miracle Network.  CMN is a network of hospitals that works with children and families of children facing disease and injury.

I took a tour of our CMN hospital here in Iowa once and got to see some of the benefits the funds had created for kids and families… things like specialized surgical equipment for smaller bodies, recreation equipment that is inclusive for those in wheelchairs, programs that focus on the well-being of the kids during treatments, and many more services.

As you know I have a daughter who I love with all my heart, she is healthy.  When she was little, a boy almost her same age was diagnosed with a rare bone cancer and not expected to live past the age of 12.  His mother worked with me.  I was so grateful that my daughter was healthy.  Incidentally that little boy is now a young man working in the nursing field… still monitoring his cancer, but doing well in remission.  He was helped by some of the things CMN donations provided.

Yearly Miracle Treat Day happens and I love ice cream.  So yearly my daughter and I buy Blizzards to support CMN in a small way.  I am still so grateful that I didn’t have to face the fear of a short life expectancy for her.  I am happy beyond words to help a cause I believe in every year in this way and other fund-raising events that take place.  And honestly the ice cream is so yummy! 🙂

Do you have a charity that is close to your heart, that makes you grateful, that you are happy to help on a regular basis?  Cherish those in your life who are well and be aware of how lucky they are.  Find your happiness every day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 207

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning.  It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life.  It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night.  I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day.  Join along in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always good in every day.

We finally got a little more rain today.  Sadly a lot of it came in a downpour.  We really just need a nice all day slow soaker rain to bring some green back to the grass.  Even the weeds are starting to turn brown now.  But this morning they said after the rain we would stay in the 80’s for a while… I sure hope so.

It was a busy day with a lot of running, but after I picked up my boyfriend from work we went to Best Buy and got our phones upgraded finally.  We had some old Galaxy S4 phones for a few years now and there was no room on them and they were not holding a charge as well anymore.  So we decided it was time to move up in our plan.  Now if I can just figure out how to make a call on this new phone… LOL!  I am happy with the new phones so far.  Am anxious to try out the new camera and all its features.  It took quite a while though to get the upgrade done and I was glad when we finally got home, and could walk through the door and smell dinner cooking already.

I am not sure how long ago it happened, but the invention of the crock pot is such a blessing!  I threw in pork chops and cream of mushroom soup before I took Dad to his Wednesday coffee (maybe, a 5 minute prep time at most) and when we made our way home, dinner was ready for us.  All we had to do was heat up some cauliflower and we were set.  I am so grateful for my crock pot, it is a real time saver.

I am definitely ready for some sleep tonight.  I bid you all a good night/day.  Don’t forget to be grateful!