Monochrome Monday – Tree Shadow

This week I feature one of my favorite way to take a picture of myself… my shadow actually.  It is me, just not in detail.  I don’t have to worry about what to wear, how my hair looks, if I blink at the wrong time.  Shadows can create quite a mood too.  I hope you enjoy today’s post…

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Happy and Grateful – Day 211

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning.  It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life.  It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night.  I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day.  Join along in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always good in every day.

It was another fairly nice day.  Once again though the fatigue kept me indoors much of the day.  I napped twice and still felt so worn out.  After a cup of coffee I did get a little energy in me and made it to the store for what I forgot last night.  Now after dinner and a little dessert I am once again without much energy.

Today did take me to a good place down memory lane.  I found an old movie on TV that I had not seen in years.  It was Some Kind Of Wonderful and while it was no Academy Award winner, it was a good “first love” story from the 80’s.  It brought back some good memories of watching the movie with my ex-husband.  I am grateful for those early days we had that were good… very good.

I would have to dig a little for my happy today.  When I get stuck in these days of fatigue or depression too, it is harder to see the good.  It was a simple thing again today.  My cat being kind to me and laying with me a good portion of the afternoon.  Sometimes I do think she can sense my tough days and knows when to be closer to me.

Things ran late tonight (we didn’t even eat dinner until almost 11) because of my boyfriend laying down and napping with a horrible headache.  It is past my bedtime and I still want to read a couple of posts before I try to close my eyes.  I hope as the new work week begins everyone can find their happiness in the week ahead.  Good night!

 

Watching Him

He sit across the room

Unaware…

 

My eyes take him in

All of him

His broad shoulders

His defined chest

With just a little hair

Peeking out of his shirt

His strong legs

The memory of the way

His jeans define his ass

His arms that could encircle me

His hands that could caress me

I could get lost in his eyes

The way they seem to

Look straight into my soul

His lips have just a little pout

I would love to take a nibble of

And when he licks his lips

A part of me shivers

 

Yes, he is unaware of how

I lust for him when

All he does

Is just sit there

And he temps me

Happy and Grateful – Day 210

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning.  It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life.  It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night.  I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day.  Join along in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always good in every day.

Fought the battle against the fatigue hard today… succumbed to two naps.  Fatigue 2 me 0.  Oh well, at least it keeps me out of trouble.  And it was a pretty nice day to get in trouble.  Temps were again in the mid 80’s.  A little more humidity today, but I wasn’t going anywhere except the grocery store and my dad’s.

Today was an on and off battle.  My daughter found two new things on Facebook messenger where we can play mini golf and pool.  So we have been playing each other most of the day.  It has been pretty close, she will win one, then I win two, and she wins two.  It has been fun, keeps me closer to happy.

And I am grateful for the fact I didn’t have to deal with my boyfriend’s ex-wife a second day in a row.  She borrowed money from us last night (we use debt cards for everything and only had a whopping $3 on hand) and stopped back by to pay us back today.  But my boyfriend was outside having a cigarette so I did not have to deal with her.  She is not my favorite person, but I still try to be civil.

I am still feeling the fatigue so that is all for tonight.  I’m going to listen to some meditation music and try to drift off to sleep.  Remember to find your happiness daily!

Pest Control

Like a fly that wont leave you alone

She hovers around him

Circling and coming back around

Talking fast as a drone

Her ideas are flighty

She is the pest this summer

Trying to get into our house

Forever annoying him

But there is no spray

Or fly swatter to use

Drawn to him with their history

It’s like she is on the attack

But he just calmly walks away

Implying she should buzz off.

Happy and Grateful – Day 209

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning.  It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life.  It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night.  I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day.  Join along in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always good in every day.

I am doing this early tonight so that the fatigue doesn’t get me again.  It has been a pretty quiet day.  My boyfriend stayed home from work so we both slept in today.  The only trip out of the house was to the apartment offices to sign paperwork on our lease.

I have been writing a little beyond my posts here today.  I have been getting some emotions out onto paper.  I feel if I hadn’t I would have been fighting the tears today.  I hate having days when all around me is normal and fine, but I feel like things are caving in on me.  Those are some of the days I need the writing the most.  Depression can be so frustrating when your brain knows there is no “reason” to be down, but you just are.  So I write and I am grateful I can.

My happy moment was a simple pleasure.  A treat for my taste buds.  My boyfriend did a peach crisp dump cake today and it was delicious.  I know emotional eating is not great but some days comfort food is just what you need and some warm peach crisp was it for me today.

I think it is time to take my bedtime meds and hope for a peaceful nights sleep.  I hope everyone has a happy and grateful weekend!

The Trails

The shallow water rolls by

Gracefully cascading over rocks

flowing over the bed of sand

And wetting the edge of plants

I take a deep breath and sigh

Dreaming of days we walked in the water

Days when you were by my side

The trees and I miss you

The skies are as blue as my heart

But I still put one foot in front of another

And walk the trails without you