Happy and Grateful – Day 237

Seven months are gone now and surprisingly I am still plugging along with this challenge to post about my happiness and gratitude every day this year.  August brings the state fair here in Iowa and lots of heat and humidity.  It is the time to see the back to school shopping start with kids dreading it and parents loving it.  As I continue my challenge I hope you will take a minute to reflect on your day too.  You can even share your happiness and gratitude here in the comments or on your own blog.  There is good in every day!

I hurt today … but I think some of that is cause from stress.  I just wish the loan issues were settled and my boyfriend had his new used car… this is turning into such a headache and I can’t see it over any sooner than the first week of September… if I survive that long.  I haven’t felt this kind of stress, loneliness and pain in a while.  But I keep trying to move forward with some little sense of happiness.

Today I put my heart out there and reached for a friend to try to give me a little help… and got nothing in return.  Not an “I’m sorry you’re feeling rough”, not a “can I help in any way”, only a standard reply of I love you.  Which in itself is a good thing… it is nice to know I am cared about but not what I was looking for and that should have been obvious.  Here I go again… off the topic of happiness and rambling about why I hurt.  Sorry!

A friend of mine has set a date for her wedding.  She made a Facebook page for it today.  I am really happy she found a great guy to settle down with.  She has had a string of fellows who have turned out to be unworthy of her… seems she has a keeper now.

I am grateful my boyfriend got the first part of his loan taken care of and can now pay off his bills.  If that had not gone through I would be looking at longer than the first of the month to be driving him around.

I need to close my eyes and clear my head.  Tomorrow looks to be a long but hopefully a fun day… I’m keeping my fingers crossed any way.  Find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 236

Seven months are gone now and surprisingly I am still plugging along with this challenge to post about my happiness and gratitude every day this year.  August brings the state fair here in Iowa and lots of heat and humidity.  It is the time to see the back to school shopping start with kids dreading it and parents loving it.  As I continue my challenge I hope you will take a minute to reflect on your day too.  You can even share your happiness and gratitude here in the comments or on your own blog.  There is good in every day!

It was back to more seasonable weather today so no windows open for me.  It still wasn’t horrible, but too humid to leave the windows open.  So I stayed shut in to my apartment most of the day.  This however is Thursday and my weekly visit with my therapist.  And as I was running short on sleep since I stayed up late watching the soap with my daughter last night… I did one thing that I hate.  I started crying during our session.  Talking about my grandmother and my former mother-in-law the tears began to come.  I was just too tired to fight them back down like I usually do in front of others.  I must have been teased or something when I was young because I have always been afraid of crying in front of others.  I know it is actually good for us to cry and get the emotions out… I just feel very isolated when I cry which only adds to the discomfort.

So lack of sleep, tears and then a bit of bad news on my boyfriends loan put the day in the bad day category.  We had so been hoping to take another loan from his 401K to get him a used but reliable car to drive and they denied it.  So now it is a talk to the bank and if there is no luck there maybe see if we can finance it through the car dealership.  Like my boyfriend said tonight… it is our turn to catch a break.

So finding some good in the day has been more of a challenge.  But I have to say there is always something.  And knowing we are struggling but we have a roof over our heads is ahead of some others out there.  A good friend of mine was homeless for a while so I have seen that side of it and it and am grateful to have a place to call home.  Where I can be comfortable enough to cry on occasion.

As for the happy part of the day. It was some planning coming through for me.  I have been thinking of what to do for my grandmothers 100th birthday and I think I have the card design in mind now, so I just have to put it together.  That makes me happy… creating things.  I also wrote a poem about a friend I miss terribly and writing always helps the day along as well.

I need to end this and get a better nights rest than I did last night.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 235

Seven months are gone now and surprisingly I am still plugging along with this challenge to post about my happiness and gratitude every day this year.  August brings the state fair here in Iowa and lots of heat and humidity.  It is the time to see the back to school shopping start with kids dreading it and parents loving it.  As I continue my challenge I hope you will take a minute to reflect on your day too.  You can even share your happiness and gratitude here in the comments or on your own blog.  There is good in every day!

Today was another nice day with the windows open, although it did turn rather humid as the night went on.  Since we live on the ground floor we need to lock up all the windows at bed time so we just went ahead and turned on the air conditioner to get some of the humidity out of the air.  Was just on the phone with my daughter and apparently it has started raining a little… wonder if it will cool it off or just make it more sticky out?

I feel a little better than I did last night.  Less tension in the house and that helped.  I got a thank you card and letter sent out to a friend.  I am grateful for some help he gave me and know a card can’t express my gratitude but it is a start.

Tomorrow the cable repairman is supposed to fix our cable… so tonight I was watching what was on the DVR in case that gets wiped out in the process.  My daughter came over and we watched more of the soap.  It always makes me happy when she is here.

I need to be up in less than three hours to take my boyfriend to work so I hear my pillow calling my name.  Find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a great night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 234

Seven months are gone now and surprisingly I am still plugging along with this challenge to post about my happiness and gratitude every day this year.  August brings the state fair here in Iowa and lots of heat and humidity.  It is the time to see the back to school shopping start with kids dreading it and parents loving it.  As I continue my challenge I hope you will take a minute to reflect on your day too.  You can even share your happiness and gratitude here in the comments or on your own blog.  There is good in every day!

It was a really nice morning.  Had the windows open once again with lower temperatures so I was able to hear the birds singing today.  I spent the morning next to the window beside my desk while I made two cards.  I still have a couple to make… one for my grandmother’s 100th birthday.  It is about 2 weeks away.  I used to visit at least once a week when I was working, but haven’t been able to go as often now.  It makes me real sad to see how she just “gave up” after she broke her hip.  She used to be such a strong woman; both of my grandmothers were.  I am trying to get with my sister to do something special for her on her birthday

I did a little writing after making the cards this morning and it was like something flipped in me around that time and I began to have anxiety over this beautiful day.  My mood dropped and by the time I picked up my boyfriend I felt pretty low.  I tried really hard to listen for the birds singing as that made me happy this morning, but it was turning into a losing battle.

The night kind of fell apart over, of all things, the volume of the TV.  My boyfriend has trouble hearing it and with a headache I was not giving it much volume.  Tonight my moment of gratitude was when I could finally turn it down after he had hiked the volume greatly.  My head is still pounding and I think the only thing that will help it is sleep so…

Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 233

Seven months are gone now and surprisingly I am still plugging along with this challenge to post about my happiness and gratitude every day this year.  August brings the state fair here in Iowa and lots of heat and humidity.  It is the time to see the back to school shopping start with kids dreading it and parents loving it.  As I continue my challenge I hope you will take a minute to reflect on your day too.  You can even share your happiness and gratitude here in the comments or on your own blog.  There is good in every day!

Another week is underway and it started out with a lot of Mother Nature… an eclipse, clouds and rain.  It was also the last day of my boyfriend’s vacation.  Now it is back to waking up early and making his lunch.  But only until he can find a car we can afford to buy.  He has spent most of his vacation on the computer “window shopping” for something in the area.  With any luck by the end of the week we can find a new car for him.  Then the last week of August I can sleep in again!

Today’s word prompt challenge was a little bit tougher than normal.  All I could think of is the cat of an old friend of mine who is named Lurch.  He has difficulty walking and he literally lurches from side to side.  But no matter how I tried, I could not come up with a poem to do him justice.  But it did bring back good memories of time spent with my friend and her fur babies and that made me happy.

I was grateful today to be a witness (by way of TV only) to the wonders of Mother Nature.  It too brought back memories of making shadow boxes in school to take home and use to see the 1979 eclipse.  Even with the clouds today it did get darker and it was neat to see others across the country who were able to witness the phenomenon.

I should try to sleep so I am ready to be awake bright and early tomorrow.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day!