Happy and Grateful – Day 214

Seven months are gone now and surprisingly I am still plugging along with this challenge to post about my happiness and gratitude every day this year.  August brings the state fair here in Iowa and lots of heat and humidity.  It is the time to see the back to school shopping start with kids dreading it and parents loving it.  As I continue my challenge I hope you will take a minute to reflect on your day too.  You can even share your happiness and gratitude here in the comments or on your own blog.  There is good in every day!

It was a nice day again today.  This cooler weather is sure a nice surprise in August.  With any luck maybe I can get to the park one of these cooler days just for a little bit.  Until then I have to settle for a bird song or two through the windows, some sunshine in the car and a slow walk between building and car.

Today was a bit of a sad day.  One of the people my dad has coffee with was showing signs of dementia today.  Trying more than once to drink coffee from a salt or pepper shaker.  I was reminded of my mother-in-law and her battle with that horrible disease.  Made me grateful that my Dad is relatively healthy for his age.

I had a small moment today that made me happy.  Really a pretty silly thing.  We recently upgraded our phones and I lost all the “work” I had done on a sim game I played.  I finally heard back from the company that makes it and got my account restored.  So I am back to playing my bakery again.   …like I said pretty silly but I was up to level 99 and hated to start over from scratch.

I should call it a night.  Be sure to look for your happiness and gratitude today.  (((HUGS))) to everyone!

In The Mirror

Standing with a towel

Wrapped around my body

I wipe the mirror of its condensation

I peer through the foggy air

Straining to see myself

The distorted image faces me

Like half a shadow

Only showing part of me

Not the whole picture

It is like my own view

Not quite sure of myself

Not knowing who I am

Like in this foggy bathroom

Eventually the view will clear

And I will see my future

Clearly before me

I only have to believe

Happy and Grateful – Day 213

Seven months are gone now and surprisingly I am still plugging along with this challenge to post about my happiness and gratitude every day this year.  August brings the state fair here in Iowa and lots of heat and humidity.  It is the time to see the back to school shopping start with kids dreading it and parents loving it.  As I continue my challenge I hope you will take a minute to reflect on your day too.  You can even share your happiness and gratitude here in the comments or on your own blog.  There is good in every day!

Happy August everyone!  I guess today is a special day for me… WordPress told me happy anniversary today.  It was 4 years ago I joined the blogging community.  Although I was very limited in the first year or two I blogged, I have certainly gotten into the swing of things now.  In 4 years I have had over 10,000 views, nearly 5,000 visitors and I am nearing the 700 mark for posts.  I have more than 250 readers (whom I love dearly!) and like to think I have the potential to touch somebody’s life for the better.  Whether it be someone who needs to know they are not the only one with depression or a poem that touches someones heart or a picture that makes someone smile… I hope this blog not only is therapeutic to me, but can help others too in some small way.

Obviously I am grateful for WP… but it is all possible because of the readers.  It I hadn’t been visited, viewed and read by you none of this would have happened.  I THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart.  So my gratitude goes to every reader I have today.

It really was another nice day out, but I didn’t have too much time to enjoy it.  I did have a couple of errands to run so I just walked really slowly between my car and the building to enjoy the nicer weather.  I had some paperwork my sister had to sign and notarize so I got to chat with her for just a little bit, was good to see her as it had been a while.  I always love going to her office because she has so many fun knickknacks to look at.  She added a baby Groot, a USB powered butterfly and a USB fan.  She has the cat clock, a chinese lucky cat, many plants, a couple of rubber duckies, some other bobble heads… it is a fun place to work!   I was happy to see her and her office today.

Well it is getting late.  Need to read a few more posts and call it a night soon.  Once again thank you all for keeping my blog alive and important to me.  Have a wonderful day/night.  Find your happiness every day!

 

Crashing Down

I stare at the mirror

Wondering who she is?

What right does she have

To be here now?

I look around the room

At the items on the counter,

Toothbrush, cologne, deodorant;

An organized mess surrounds.

A part of me want to sweep it all

Off onto the floor.

See them all crashing down

Like the life I am stuck in.

I look into the mirror again

And see the tears have started.

I am so numb I didn’t even notice.

I am overwhelmed

And desperate for some peace.

Disgusted by what I see

And the thoughts I have;

I turn around and leave the room,

Quietly turning out the light

On the room and myself.

Happy and Grateful – Day 212

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning.  It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life.  It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night.  I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day.  Join along in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always good in every day.

A little bit warmer today, but still not as warm as it usually is.  I am not complaining about it at all.  We have a couple of days coming up forecasted only with highs in the 70’s, that is amazing for August.

On this final day of the month I wonder how it went by so fast.  I remember hearing that as a kid and not having a clue what they meant.  Now I understand.  The older you get the faster it seems to move.  And I will tell you as soon as I became a parent I swear it moved at least twice as fast as it had been.

Speaking of children… my daughter and her significant other celebrated one month being together and he bought her flowers.  Awww!   So she called me on the phone not just to tell me but to ask for a vase to borrow.  So when she was done at work she stopped by and we got to visit for a little while.  That always makes me happy.

As far as my gratitude goes today… I am grateful for my doctor.  I can “talk” to him 24/7 by writing basically a letter to him throughout the week and giving it to him to read while I settle into the office for our visit.  Today’s stress got to me and I wrote it out to him.  I used to have a friend I could talk to like that, but he has “moved on” and doesn’t seem to have time for me… can’t say I blame him.

Well before this post goes to a dark depressing place I need to stop.  I am in need of sleep and the depression finds ways to sneak into life easier when I am tired and worn down.  I hope your week started off well… be grateful and find your happiness.

rough draft – less than perfect

i try to move the words around

in some important way fashion

but no matter how i try

it always seems substandard

the writers muse is just not with me

the pen is like a stranger

the paper stares stark white

X

and blinds me in it’s glare

so i try and try over again

but i still can’t get it right

i wish there was a way

to cure this block tonight for me