Happy and Grateful – Day 364

One of my favorite months is upon us. I love the wonder of the holidays.  How it can light up young and old alike.  The weather is (usually) starting to change the world white and frosty.  And the promise of a new year is just around the corner.  This is the final month of my attempt to find the things that make me happy and grateful every day for a year… I have mixed emotions that it will be ending.  Please join me these last few days and post your happiness and gratitude in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always some good in the day no matter how small.

Next to last day… and as a side note, I may be late on my last post.  My daughter will be here for a night of games so it not only is going to be waiting for midnight, but also waiting to see who wins the battle.  LOL

Today was bitter cold.  The furnace has run almost nonstop and it still feels a bit cooler in here.  But that is winter in Iowa.  Tomorrow is supposed to be the coldest day with possible record-breaking lows.  I am grateful to have the warmth and comfort of a home… I know they said on the news the homeless shelters were full tonight.

I did get to come closer to being caught up with my reading on WordPress.  If I make it much later after I post this I hope to read more.  I am happy I found the time to read today.

One last call for ideas on what I could do this next year now that my Happy and Grateful is nearly done.  I am pretty sure I still want to post nearly every day… I would be lost without my writing.  Any ideas?

Ok… time to dim the lights and read myself to sleep.  Remember to find you happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day and PLEASE celebrate New Years Eve smart… don’t drink and drive!

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A Brief Taste of Life

almost had you

I almost tasted freedom

I almost lived life fully

But my demons got in the way

You left

I became trapped

And the world passed me by

Now I have almost given up…

Happy and Grateful – Day 363

One of my favorite months is upon us. I love the wonder of the holidays.  How it can light up young and old alike.  The weather is (usually) starting to change the world white and frosty.  And the promise of a new year is just around the corner.  This is the final month of my attempt to find the things that make me happy and grateful every day for a year… I have mixed emotions that it will be ending.  Please join me these last few days and post your happiness and gratitude in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always some good in the day no matter how small.

Snow is pretty… pretty annoying too.  We got about 3 inches, which really isn’t much but it is one of the first all day snows we have had and it is cold… and only going to get worse.  This is Friday night and there is a wind chill advisory until Tuesday.  Ugh!  But I had to go out today… needed my prescriptions refilled and had a gift to return (wrong size) and then my daughter offered to take us out to lunch.  So I was out in the thick of it.  I was grateful there was not the freezing drizzle they had in some areas at least.

Now if you have read my blog you know I worry… about everything.  That is the nature of anxiety and depression.  But I was happy to hear from my daughter via a text message that she arrived at work ok (about a 20 to 30 minute drive away).  Often she forgets when I ask her to let me know so I was happy she didn’t.

All the tension from my first winter driving of the year has left my back in knots.  So I sit on a heating pad and took my pain meds and hope to sleep soon.  So forgive me if my writing does not make sense, I am not thinking quite clearly.

Only two more posts…. but a year worth of awareness has been great.  I hope you find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 362

One of my favorite months is upon us. I love the wonder of the holidays.  How it can light up young and old alike.  The weather is (usually) starting to change the world white and frosty.  And the promise of a new year is just around the corner.  This is the final month of my attempt to find the things that make me happy and grateful every day for a year… I have mixed emotions that it will be ending.  Please join me these last few days and post your happiness and gratitude in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always some good in the day no matter how small.

I have a tough week ahead of me.  I have homework from my therapist to do.  Writing down my pain (physical and emotional) in a diary.  It is part of acceptance therapy he is working with me on and as often as I have painful thoughts these days I will be writing all day long.  It is going to be tough to do, but I have already noticed some changes since we started this workbook and we are only 60 pages into the 200 page book.  So I am going into this week hopeful and scared at what I will learn about myself, but determined to get it accomplished.  For these last few days I hope I can do both.  I already had to note my sadness as I wrote my poem for “cozy.”

Besides seeing my doctor and watching the snow pile up… I did take my Dad to the clinic.  I was grateful the main roads were mostly clear of the snow and I didn’t slide around too much.  Now we are in for another system of about 3 more inches…only 81 days, 10 hours and 30 minutes until spring.  But who is counting?

I did relax a bit tonight and watch a movie with my boyfriend.  He got the new Kingsman movie for Christmas and we watched it.  It was good but it was another one of those movies with whispered dialog, so you turn the volume up but get BLASTED out of your chair when an action scene comes up.  I just sat in the quiet after it was over happily hearing nothing but the soft hum of the furnace running.

Ok… I am STILL behind on reading posts.  Let’s see how far I can get before my meds kick in tonight.  Please remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day!

 

Happy and Grateful – Day 361

One of my favorite months is upon us. I love the wonder of the holidays.  How it can light up young and old alike.  The weather is (usually) starting to change the world white and frosty.  And the promise of a new year is just around the corner.  This is the final month of my attempt to find the things that make me happy and grateful every day for a year… I have mixed emotions that it will be ending.  Please join me these last few days and post your happiness and gratitude in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always some good in the day no matter how small.

Today has been a day to try to recover.  Still fighting fatigue and tonight the pain is pretty moderate.  But the worst part is the depression.  I often feel this let down after the holidays.  I get so wrapped up in the festivities, that when it is over I crash hard.  Plus we had bitter cold and snow tonight… my least favorites.  I would love to sleep in tomorrow and curl up with a book, but Dad has an appointment in the late morning and I have one late afternoon.  So I try to focus on the good and am grateful that I know this wont last forever.

I did receive another card in the mail today and that made me happy.  It was from a friend I used to work with.  It is always good to hear from my friends.

I will keep this post short.  I have already slept some tonight and now it is time to grab my blanket and curl up for the night.  The winds have at least died now some, but it is still going to be below zero.

Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day!