Never Healing

The feeling is the same –

My heart has been ripped out.

I didn’t think I would ever again

Feel a duplicate hurt like that.

It had been different every other time

Coworkers, friends, family…

But I grew closer to him

Right towards the end.

And I did NOT want him to go!

The pain of losing your parents

Is like no other.

9 years now she has been gone

And almost 8 months now for him.

And I still want to talk to them

Every single day,

And it rips that wound back open.

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – duplicate

Weekly Song Challenge – Numbers Game

 

Fandango has opened up this week’s song challenge to anyone who wants to do it… me, me, pick me!  So, I am going to give this a try.

The rules…

  • copy rules and add them to your own post
  • link your post back to Laura’s  post where it all started
  • post the three music videos
  • tag two people anyone who is interested to do the same

 

1. Post a video of a song by a band with a number in their name.

2. Post a song by a one-hit wonder.

(I must say I had never seen this video that I can recall.  Maybe this is why they were a one-hit wonder?)

3. Post a video of a song that has a number in lyrics and/or title.

(now this is maybe bending the rules a little, it is not a video per-say but this is one of my favorite songs… it was my first dance at my wedding)

Mumbles … Upbeat

Upbeat… no, no, no.  I don’t want any more beat or pound or slam or drop.  Sorry folks I got a whopping big 3 hours of sleep last night before I had to get up to let the construction team in the house… we are in the process of getting new windows.  The house is 99 years old and still had the original windows (aluminum storm windows were added about 45 years ago).  Many had cracks in them and gaps… this is going to save us a lot in heating and cooling bills in the long run.

So, forgive me for not doing a very upbeat post.  I am still up and I am beat!  Does that count for upbeat?  How about this…

Understanding

Patience

Brings

Energy

And

Truth

Not much but it is a little something, all my little brain can eek out tonight.  One and a half more days of noise… I hope my nerves can take it!  Now it Is time to sleep!  Good night!

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – upbeat

Give In A Little

When I first saw the word for the day I instantly thought of Diamond Rio’s Meet In The Middle. And yes, it was obviously made in the 80’s.  Enjoy the video then take a look at the poem I came up with…

You moved away

I cried night and day

You said you’d call

That was last fall

But now you’ve returned

And your single I’ve learned

So if I give some space

Will you come to my place

Giving in a little bit

Our love may still fit

Meet me halfway

I want you to stay

Lean on me just a little

We can meet in the middle

Our love is still hot

Don’t tell me it’s not

With an embrace and a kiss

We will be in pure bliss

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – middle

Nothing To Notice

If I get up and leave

Will anyone notice

The people around me

Are in their own little world.

I could just slip out

Through the back door

No one would notice

I just don’t matter anymore.

Take a walk in the night

Being sure I’m not noticed

I will disappear into thin air

Just a shadow you can’t really see.

If I were to vanish

Cease to exist

Become one with the wind

Would anyone notice.

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – anyone

Random Facts About Me

This is a list of questions that migrated from Facebook to Word Press to share a little insight into who you are.   Not an award, no rules, just 23 questions.

Here we go…

  1. Do you make your bed every morning?

Yes, kind of… I sleep in my recliner so if I use a blanket I fold it up.

  1. What was your first car?

The first car I drove was a HUGE station wagon, whose size terrified me.  The first car I bought was a Chevy Chevette.

  1. What two grocery items do you never run out of?

Coffee and toilet paper

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  1. At what age did you start doing your laundry?

Laundry was my sister’s  chore and had got to do the dishes.  So about the time she moved out I had to take if over… probably 16 years old.

  1. If you could, would you go back to high school?

The learning part of high school I didn’t mind.  The clichés and bullies were what would leave me saying no way.

  1. Can you parallel park in under three moves?

NOPE!  I hate parallel parking and avoid it like the plague.

  1. A job you had which people would be shocked to know you once had?

I was a paper carrier for the local Tribune for about 2 years.

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  1. Do you think aliens are real?

It would be arrogant of us to assume we are the only life force in the entire universe.  And there are too many unexplained things in the world.

  1. Can you drive a stick shift?

No, can’t do that either.  My ex-husband tried to teach me in his Triumph Spitfire and I could not get the hang of it.  My daughter can.

  1. Guilty TV pleasure?

There is really not a lot I watch no matter what.  Don’t record any shows on a regular basis.  I would say the soap opera The Bold and the Beautiful.  Like any soap though you can miss a week and still know what is going on as slow as some story lines run.

  1. Tattoos?

Technically three… two are just radiation field dots (to like up the radiation treatment machine to the right place every time they zapped me.  The other is one I got after my ten year survival from breast cancer.

Digimax A50 / KENOX Q2

  1. If the world ends do you want to be one of survivors?

If there CAN be survivors… I assume the question is more like would you live on a space station.  And it would be better than standing on a planet that no longer sustains life.

  1. Sweet or salty?

Definitely sweet, got a huge sweet tooth.

  1. Do you enjoy soaking in a nice hot bath?

Being of a certain size, I don’t fit well into a tub.  And if I am going to be in one I want everything (except my head obviously) under water.  Going on a little get away with a private whirlpool I plan to use for a good soaking.

  1. Do you consider yourself a strong person?

No, but my therapist keeps telling me I am.  Still don’t believe it.

  1. Something people do that drives you nuts?

Don’t put carts back… in the store, in the parking lot.  And when they get them close but don’t take the LITTLE effort it takes to push them in.  Really bugs me!

  1. Do you have any birthmarks?

A mole on my chin and a birthmark on my arm that is like a brown rectangle.

  1. Favorite childhood game?

Used to play tag a lot. Loved legos and Barbies.  In my teen years the Atari was all the rage.

  1. Do you talk to yourself?

Who do you think is asking me these questions?

  1. Do you like doing jigsaw puzzles?

Yes.  I used to do puzzles with my Dad… one of many things I really miss.

Image result for jigsaw puzzle pieces

  1. Tea or coffee?

Both, but I suppose coffee is number one.  Do love a good chai tea though.

  1. First thing you remember wanting to be when you grew up?

A movie star/singer.

  1. Favorite game now?

Just one?  Right now I play a lot of Words With Friends, spend some time running a virtual bakery in Bakery Story and Animal Crossing Pocket Camp – all on my phone.  But love the card game Shanghai Rummy too.

Ok… now it is your turn.  Join in the fun a share a little about you.

Fandango’s Friday Flashback – September 13

Ah, it is that wonderful time again. No, not Friday the 13th, or the full moon, or the Harvest Moon.  It is time for another FFF.  Today I chose a poem from two years ago originally posted here.  It was for a daily word prompt – disobey.

I Will Not Disobey

I will not disobey

The wishes of my heart

Today is the day

I make a brand new start

I will not disobey

The musings of my mind

I will take the time

Always to be kind

I will not disobey

What I promise myself

My feelings I will never

Just place upon a shelf

Too much hurt and pain

Were bottled up in the past

Now I plan a future

Where happiness can last

Repeat That

You speak the words

I try to keep up

But it’s hard to assimilate

What you really mean

Are you saying

That you still love me

That I alone

Can meet your needs

I have dreamed of this day

And want it to be true

But I need to know

Do you mean I love you

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – assimilate

Never Pleased

He came to the counter with an arrogant swagger.  The clerk started to say, “Good morn-“

“Can I speak to a manager?”  he interrupted in a brash manner.

The hotel clerk said, “I am the current supervisor on shift.”

“Well all I can say is this is the most sub-par room I have ever stayed in.  I’m surprised I am not leaving with a hundred bedbugs!”

“Is there anything we can do to make the rest of your stay more pleasant?”

“I doubt it.  There was a racket from the pool first thing this morning and I woke up after only 4 hours of sleep.”

“Do you want to move to a quieter room?”

“That would be too much of a hassle for me.  Just know I am leaving a terrible review when I leave.”  And he stormed off towards the free breakfast bar.

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – brash