
I don’t want to smile
But I do
I don’t have it in me to laugh
But I do
I don’t feel like sunshine today
But there is not a cloud in the sky
I do try to stay positive
But I can’t
I do practice staying calm
But I can’t
I do take all my medication
But still I am not well
I don’t want to cry
But I do
I don’t want to ache
But I do
I don’t want to bring everyone down
But my depression is intense
I do what I can to be happy
But I can’t
I do try lean on others
But I can’t
I do everything I can think of to be normal
But my illness always has other plans
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – laugh
This is such a moving poem of struggle against depression and pain.
Thanks Sadje. Some days are more struggle than others.
You’re welcome! I can imagine.