Alone at a table in Village Inn, she began to write while she waited for her food. Helen was stressed and had to get away from her hectic home life for the day. She had just grabbed her coat and walked out the door. Now she was trying to write out the troubling emotions into some poems.
Her food arrived and she set her notebook on the seat next to her. Her mind was still swirling with thoughts and words. When only about half of her food gone, she pushed the plate away and moved her notebook back in front of her.
Our lives are hell
Reacting to each other
Never really talking
You’re usually drunk
Now I seek hope
With or without you
I must find peace of mind
She seemed pretty satisfied with this. She dated her notebook page and signed it. Thinking of a title she wrote Silent Hell above the poem. Another poem about her chaotic life. It would really break her heart if she knew this made the hundredth poem, she had written this year and it was barely March. She set the notebook back out of the way and slid her plate back in front of her and finished her lunch wondering if he even had noticed she was gone.
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – village
“…If it weren’t for bad luck, I’d have no luck at all. Gloom, despair and agony on me…” You have to be old like me to know that and you had to like a little country music and humor. That was a regular skit on Hee Haw. I think that part of the song sums up the week so far and it is only Wednesday.
Let’s start with the bitter cold of Monday. My boyfriend went to go pick up some meds… battery said, “Hell NO!” He tried my car and it started fine. We then tried to jump start the truck. “Hell NO!” So, we left to get the meds in my car and were going to address the problem Tuesday.
Tuesday came and went with no work on the battery problem. My boyfriend really wasn’t in the mood as he had worked the early morning part of his shift and then was fired on his way to lunch. I might add, that is after 23 years with this company.
Wednesday, he called the local Walmart that does battery repair… they were out of his battery. So was the other Walmart in town. Since he had half of his five-year warranty left, he wanted to stick with them so we ordered the battery online and supposedly will get it tomorrow. This was all done while I was finding out one of my best friend’s significant others was just diagnosed with cancer.
I am kind of afraid to sleep and see what tomorrow holds. I do talk to my therapist tomorrow and I do look forward to that release. This is just a few bumps in the road. I will keep going forward and do what I can to try to keep my boyfriend on the positive side of things. This is not a sad country song, it can end on a happy note, I just need to turn up the music.
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – luck
Anna went towards her car and was approached by her neighbor Ted. “Have you seen Mrs. Miller lately? I normally see her sweeping her porch after it snows, and she hasn’t been out since the snow stopped yesterday. She didn’t go on a trip that you know of?”
“No, not that I have heard of. Do you think she’s ok?”
“I don’t know, I may call and have a welfare check done on her. It is just not like her to leave snow on the porch more than an hour or two.”
“Well, I have a doctor’s appointment now, so let me know what you find out. I hate to think something has happened to her.” Anna got into her car and drove off.
Returning home, Anna saw Mrs. Miller’s porch was clear of snow. She got out and walked towards Ted’s front door. He opened the door before she got there. “Anna, it is not good news. Mrs. Miller had fallen last night and broke her hip. She just couldn’t get to the phone. They took her to the hospital and expect her to be ok after her hip is set.”
“The poor woman, on the floor so long in pain. I am glad you called to check Ted. You are a great neighbor.”
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – welfare
I saw this word challenge and instantly thought I had the ideal song… upon listening to it again (after several years since I’d heard it) I discovered the word planet is never used. So much for Children of the Sun…. back to the drawing board. Duh! It hit me like a ton of bricks. A song from even further back in my childhood. This one I knew have planet in it. So without further ado here is Schoolhouse Rock’s Interplanet Janet (and Billy Thorpe’s Children of the Sun just because I can!) –
This week we look back to my daily prompt post from 2017 … this is a post I did about my history and worst of times. I want to mention again there are options and places to go for help… there are others who have been through it, you are not alone. For this week’s FFF …
Out and Away
At the height of my ex-husbands drinking and my lowest moments I often thought the best option for me to get away from all the mess was to drive straight into a tree off the highway… thankfully I had a friend who saw how deep I had fallen and helped pull me back up.
Being in a household with a heavy alcoholic is hell, total isolation, guilt, shame, anger and a million more emotions all bottled up and shaken well and often. But the thing to remember is you are never alone. There are millions of ways to break free and get help that don’t have the disastrous results of this poem. Reach out, find help, you are NOT in this battle alone.