Mumbles… numbers and things

Good evening everyone.  I sit here after midnight trying to gather my thoughts into some kind of coherent writing.  I was told the other day from WordPress that I hit a milestone.  I have now had over 1000 posts now.  Does not seem possible, but then again with doing both a daily happy and grateful post and the daily prompts all of last year that was well over 700 alone.  So I am feeling somewhat prolific.  I would like to say they were all wonderful posts, but I am my own worst critic.  Some of the posts I would like to sort through, but I am afraid half of them would be deleted then.

So I guess this is a kind of thank you.  Thanks for the views and the likes on all my 1000… most of all thanks for the follows.  I still wonder what I write that is good enough to want to follow… a lot of it is just getting my thoughts and demons out.  I am glad you have come along for the ride.  Now I guess I try to hit another 1000 posts.

How is the weather where you are?  We are getting ready for an ice/snow storm to hit just in time for the morning commute tomorrow (well technically today since it is after midnight) and of course both my daughter and my boyfriend will have to drive through it.  I do have to go out but it is only a couple blocks away so I am not too worried about my drive time… I am already anxious about the two of them driving in it though.

I have lived my whole life in Iowa, you would think I would be used to these little storm warnings, but they really bother me any more.  And driving in snow and ice at night… forget it!  I have turned into a ‘fraidy cat and I am not afraid to admit it!

I should stop rambling for the night.  Get some rest so I can check in on my daughter in the morning and make sure it was a safe trip to work for her.  Then wait to get a text from my boyfriend that he has arrived at work ok as well.  I hope you all have a wonderful night/day!

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Mumbles… Viable

I never had to worry about whether or not my daughter was viable, she went to full term pregnancy.  I don’t think there could be a worse terror than having to give birth early with only the term viable being used to describe your child’s chances.

I worked for a while with a business that helped Children’s Miracle Network.  They work with a network of hospitals to help all children with injury or illness.  I had the fortune of touring my local CMN hospital and saw the things they did for everyone from preemies (they need special sized medical equipment and tools) to teenagers using video games to distract them from their treatments.  And we were there just after the completion of an all-inclusive playground on the grounds.  It was very eye-opening.

Each one of us has reasons to be thankful… my daughter is a HUGE part of that for me.  I have seen what could have been through others struggles and my heart breaks for them.  If only I could have that magic wand I have looked for all my life… then there would be no need to worry if a baby was viable or not.

Mumbles…

I realize this is a little late, but happy New Year to you all!  I took a couple of days off – I was sick on New Years night and wiped out the next day because of it.  So now I am trying to catch up on reading and I am still trying to wrap my brain around what to do.

I have contemplated Wordy Wednesdays, Talkative Tuesdays/Thursdays, Shorthand Saturdays/Sundays, and even Monologue Mondays… none of them seemed to fit right.  I don’t want to be chained down to a particular day.  Almost all the time I was growing up and was terribly shy I would be told to speak up and stop mumbling, so I think Mumbles is a good fit.

Don’t ask me where I am headed with Mumbles, I am not entirely sure yet.  I like to think of it as a conversation between friends.  Who knows where my mind may wander to, but I honestly hope you will continue to join me in this written journey.

I do plan to still do the daily word prompts this year, but will try occasionally to branch out from only poetry posts.  There were a couple of words that really threw me on poetic standings, but I can always find ways to write around a topic (I think).  So that will be a challenge to try some flash fiction, limit word writing and maybe even structured poetry besides haikus and limericks.

Forgive me tonight as I fill your readers or inboxes with posts trying to catch up to date on daily posts.  One other thing I want to ask of you… please share with me what you like and don’t like about my mumbles.  I welcome comments!

So I will try to speak up a little but listen closely because this year will be my year to mumble…

 

Happy and Grateful – Day 365

This has been a long year… but I made it to the end.  When I started out on my challenge to write a post every day for a whole year about what I was happy and grateful for, I never thought I would make it.  Some days were hard to find a happiness, some days I didn’t feel there was anything to be grateful for but I dug deep and always found something.

By far my daughter brought me the most happiness and gratitude during the year.  But if I had to guess second place I would guess things that come close to healing me (doctor, meds, etc).  Some days I resorted to the basic needs – food, roof over my head and warmth or cool surroundings for the season.  But I found something every day.

This final night of the year I was happy to have survived another year.  Happy to be surrounded by those I care about.  And happy to have enough to get by. My boyfriend, my daughter and I all got together to play cards and toast in the new year (raspberry schnapps and cranberry juice – YUM!).  I may not have won the games – my daughter won both that we played – but we shared a few laughs and had a good time.

Time to get sappy… my gratitude for the night.  I am grateful for all of you readers who have stuck with me.  I plan to stick around for a while longer, but will not be doing the Happy and Grateful posts anymore.  I hope it is something that is beneficial for me and entertaining for you.  I want to thank you all for reading.  I am still amazed I have more than the 10 people I thought might follow me.  Now at over 350 I am stunned.  I am absolutely speechless at the 16,000 views and wondering where the 7,800 visitors came from.

Most of all at the end of this year I am in awe that I am now only 5 posts away from 1000 posts.  I know the Happy and Grateful along with the daily prompt poems this year account for the majority of that.  But I think I still have a little creativity left in me to share.  And for that I hope you will stick around and bear with me on this new journey.

As always I hope you remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  May 2018 be wonderful for all of you… HAPPY New Year!

Happy and Grateful – Day 364

One of my favorite months is upon us. I love the wonder of the holidays.  How it can light up young and old alike.  The weather is (usually) starting to change the world white and frosty.  And the promise of a new year is just around the corner.  This is the final month of my attempt to find the things that make me happy and grateful every day for a year… I have mixed emotions that it will be ending.  Please join me these last few days and post your happiness and gratitude in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always some good in the day no matter how small.

Next to last day… and as a side note, I may be late on my last post.  My daughter will be here for a night of games so it not only is going to be waiting for midnight, but also waiting to see who wins the battle.  LOL

Today was bitter cold.  The furnace has run almost nonstop and it still feels a bit cooler in here.  But that is winter in Iowa.  Tomorrow is supposed to be the coldest day with possible record-breaking lows.  I am grateful to have the warmth and comfort of a home… I know they said on the news the homeless shelters were full tonight.

I did get to come closer to being caught up with my reading on WordPress.  If I make it much later after I post this I hope to read more.  I am happy I found the time to read today.

One last call for ideas on what I could do this next year now that my Happy and Grateful is nearly done.  I am pretty sure I still want to post nearly every day… I would be lost without my writing.  Any ideas?

Ok… time to dim the lights and read myself to sleep.  Remember to find you happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day and PLEASE celebrate New Years Eve smart… don’t drink and drive!

Happy and Grateful – Day 363

One of my favorite months is upon us. I love the wonder of the holidays.  How it can light up young and old alike.  The weather is (usually) starting to change the world white and frosty.  And the promise of a new year is just around the corner.  This is the final month of my attempt to find the things that make me happy and grateful every day for a year… I have mixed emotions that it will be ending.  Please join me these last few days and post your happiness and gratitude in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always some good in the day no matter how small.

Snow is pretty… pretty annoying too.  We got about 3 inches, which really isn’t much but it is one of the first all day snows we have had and it is cold… and only going to get worse.  This is Friday night and there is a wind chill advisory until Tuesday.  Ugh!  But I had to go out today… needed my prescriptions refilled and had a gift to return (wrong size) and then my daughter offered to take us out to lunch.  So I was out in the thick of it.  I was grateful there was not the freezing drizzle they had in some areas at least.

Now if you have read my blog you know I worry… about everything.  That is the nature of anxiety and depression.  But I was happy to hear from my daughter via a text message that she arrived at work ok (about a 20 to 30 minute drive away).  Often she forgets when I ask her to let me know so I was happy she didn’t.

All the tension from my first winter driving of the year has left my back in knots.  So I sit on a heating pad and took my pain meds and hope to sleep soon.  So forgive me if my writing does not make sense, I am not thinking quite clearly.

Only two more posts…. but a year worth of awareness has been great.  I hope you find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 362

One of my favorite months is upon us. I love the wonder of the holidays.  How it can light up young and old alike.  The weather is (usually) starting to change the world white and frosty.  And the promise of a new year is just around the corner.  This is the final month of my attempt to find the things that make me happy and grateful every day for a year… I have mixed emotions that it will be ending.  Please join me these last few days and post your happiness and gratitude in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always some good in the day no matter how small.

I have a tough week ahead of me.  I have homework from my therapist to do.  Writing down my pain (physical and emotional) in a diary.  It is part of acceptance therapy he is working with me on and as often as I have painful thoughts these days I will be writing all day long.  It is going to be tough to do, but I have already noticed some changes since we started this workbook and we are only 60 pages into the 200 page book.  So I am going into this week hopeful and scared at what I will learn about myself, but determined to get it accomplished.  For these last few days I hope I can do both.  I already had to note my sadness as I wrote my poem for “cozy.”

Besides seeing my doctor and watching the snow pile up… I did take my Dad to the clinic.  I was grateful the main roads were mostly clear of the snow and I didn’t slide around too much.  Now we are in for another system of about 3 more inches…only 81 days, 10 hours and 30 minutes until spring.  But who is counting?

I did relax a bit tonight and watch a movie with my boyfriend.  He got the new Kingsman movie for Christmas and we watched it.  It was good but it was another one of those movies with whispered dialog, so you turn the volume up but get BLASTED out of your chair when an action scene comes up.  I just sat in the quiet after it was over happily hearing nothing but the soft hum of the furnace running.

Ok… I am STILL behind on reading posts.  Let’s see how far I can get before my meds kick in tonight.  Please remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day!