The Aftermath

the ice cream is melted and dripping

what is left of the cake is smashed

wrapping paper torn to shreds

the scene almost looks eerie

there are no people around

only empty memories left behind

another year spent frivolously

no hopes to hang dreams on

just another year stretched out before you

on the uncaring road of life

 

A Hand To Hold No More

Don’t make eye contact

just stare at the sidewalk.

He is walking this way

and the pain is still raw.

A love not returned

is a love that is lost.

But you swallow the pain

and pretend it doesn’t hurt

You dash into a doorway,

out of sight out of mind.

As he strides right past you,

you start to cry.

No one can shake you

the way that he can…

to this day it still hurts

that you can’t hold his hand.

Once Upon A Fragile Mind

The black tower surrounds me

Locking me deep into my depression

The fierce dragon of anxiety breathes

Fires of frustration and fear heating the walls

No brave prince comes to save me

No fairy godmother is here

My own lack of confidence keeps me chained

Afraid to take a step towards the drawbridge

Certain I can’t cross the moat

To ever find a positive destiny for myself

And break the spell trapping me here forever

The Player Of The Game

You used me

You made me care

You nearly had me fall in love

You were an expert in the game

 

You made promises

You broke them soon

You were only out for yourself

You needed me for just a moment

 

You never meant for anything to last

You shut off the friendship quickly

You used up all that I offered naturally to you

You have obviously done this before

 

You got your money

You got your needs met

You were only thinking of number one

You drew out the fool in me…

Behind The Curtain

Step right up folks,

don’t be shy.

See the girl behind the curtain.

She walks, she talks,

she gets used by her friends.

Treated like a welcome mat,

walked on again and again.

How does she do it

without losing her mind?

Witness her ability

to love without end,

even when she is stabbed in the back.

A once in a lifetime sight –

she gives beyond needs

to try to hold on to love.

Always giving more to others

than she does for herself.

Witness her crumble

as her heart is crushed yet again.

A real live woman

beyond the curtain,

who plays the fool day after day,

believing someday

she just might get what she gives.

The Blush Of Truth

To me it seems obvious

I know I blush when I talk to him

I laugh a little too easily at his jokes

my heart beat is so fast and loud when he is near

if our hands should touch I smile for hours

silly things remind me of him

he is on my mind all day long

and in my dreams each night

…but to him he only sees a friend.

Beyond Saving

Learning the truth was hard

I never imagined such an outcome

Less than fifty and unable to work

Unable to do so much I loved

Depression has robbed me

Fibromyalgia has assaulted me

Anxiety cuts me in two

Fatigue wrecks my days

The diagnosis of cancer was easier

I fought it and won

This monster has too many heads

The hydra has me down for the count

Not even Hercules can save me now