I have tried to find a way to express the fond memories I have been reliving today thanks to the daily word prompt, but cannot get it down in a poetic flow today. So I am combining the daily prompt with my 100 Days of Happiness today.
Growing up we would travel the 3 hours every summer to spend time with out grandparents. They had an amazing house that they actually built themselves, including digging the ground for the basement. But I remember many summers in the front yard playing next to a beautiful weeping willow tree.
We would run through a sprinkler and seek shade under the willow. It would be the home base for a game of tag. The tree was even a guard of sorts that protected us from the busy corner of the street it was on. It became the out-of-bounds area for throwing frisbees to however many family members we could get to play. It was also the perfect back drop for some family pictures through the years.
Every time I see a weeping willow my mind goes back to that special one in my youth I will always think fondly of. No weeping tonight, only gentle smiles from memories recalled.
Today has been a struggle. From the friend who has been absent for a week now – in my run away mind I have gone through all the worst case scenarios as to why he is out of contact; to the pain and fatigue my fibromyalgia has left me with today I, am finding it hard to find happiness.
I have thought all day about what to write and keep hearing those negative voices that tell me not to bother, I can’t finish the challenge, I can’t be happy about anything, etc. But tonight as I was writing something for my therapist to read at the next appointment we have on Thursday it came to me… writing today is my happiness.
To have the chance to write my concerns down and let my head have a rest from them for a little while really helps me loosen the grip on the pain and anguish I feel. Even if it only lasts a short time, the outlet of writing helps me sort through things in a way nothing else can.
So I want to thank my readers for being there to “listen” to my ramblings… I hopefully will have something a little more upbeat tomorrow. In the mean time I am off to try a meditation to help me find some sleep. I hope you know I appreciate each of you taking the time to be my audience. (((HUGS)))
Watching a smile spread across someone else’s face can often be contagious. That was evident today as I listened to my daughter talk about the concert she traveled to Chicago for. She was almost a glow with happiness as she recalled the events of the night and it was hard not to smile just listening.
Maybe I was returning to my youth when I would attend many concerts (I love live music). I saw more than a dozen performers in my younger day traveling to four other states to see certain acts. There is just something about live music that can fill you with such energy.
No matter if it was my love of music or my love for my daughter, I was definitely touched by her enthusiasm when she told her story. I couldn’t help but feel a tug at the corners of my mouth and smile with happiness for her and the nostalgia of youth.
Today’s moment of happiness is a no brainer. My daughter traveled to Chicago over the weekend (first time there) and anytime she travels any distance I worry. She and a friend went to see a little of the city and to go to a concert. It sounds like she had a great time, even though she was left with a strained voice after shouting at the show.
When she returned this morning I breathed a sigh of relief. I am a big worrier, always have been… just like my mom was. Maybe there is some genetic connection there or just me learning the behavior from her. All I know is that text message at 6am was enough to give me a smile and ease my mind. Glad she had a good time… even more glad she is home.
Today I had a craving filled. The return of autumn often means the return of some real good comfort foods that warm the belly. I am happy to have a boyfriend that enjoys cooking and helping a lot in the kitchen. For dinner it was all his show as he made some good homemade chili that simmered and temped us with its aroma all day. My recent craving for it just grew and grew as the day went on until the blissful happiness of that first spoonful. The flavor you can only get from home cooking and that extra little kick of spice that warms the tongue long after the bite is swallowed satisfied me for the night. Now comes the craving for seconds!
music tied to memories
tug at my heartstrings
creating its own symphony
that fills me with peace and harmony
Sometimes there is that one song that comes on the radio and can make you laugh, cry or smile wide… today was that day for me. I had a flashback to a happy time and thought of a friend I have lost touch with. Kind of a sadness at the end of the song, but it did bring a smile to my face when it was on. I have a lot of songs I relate to people or times and music is a huge part of my life… I thank my parents for my love of all musical styles, but that is a whole different blog on music love. Here is hoping you can hear that song that always makes you smile with memories of happiness today!
This is a test, this is only a test.
If this had been an actual friendship
You would have gotten something in return.
Instead you gave and gave with nothing to show for it.
In the event of a real friendship
The give and take is equal,
The love shared is returned,
And never are you ignored.
Please remember to protect your heart
And never leave it open for others to break.
Take shelter in your own self-worth.
Don’t let others turn you ugly from their point of view.
Remember you are worth so much more…
This has only been a test.
Today was another day of celebration and family. My Dad treated the whole family to dinner at Olive Garden while we celebrated the two youngest family members September birthdays. It was good food, good company and conversation. As the family ages and moves on these gatherings are harder and harder to plan where everyone can get together without work, school or other conflicts. It is wonderful to have the memories to cherish with both the young and the old. I hope you all can be in your families embrace as often as possible. (((HUGS)))
Today started out pretty good, but turned rough in the end. I had another “fibro fog” morning and forgot to take my morning meds. Still … I felt good enough to take in another beautiful fall day and walk the short path to my doctor’s office for my weekly session. Just that little five minutes of fresh air and sunshine made me feel almost normal. The rest of the day my back began to plague me and I developed a horrible headache. I still have fibromyalgia and can have the day turn around on me fast, but I try to hold onto the good that was there before hand. That walk was short (and it no doubt helped fuel my allergies), but I moved and got a dose of sunshine. That is enough to make me happy for the day.