Is it so much to ask for,
Is it so much to want,
To be loved by someone
Who has a passion so infinite
The flames would never die out.
A passion insatiable
But only for me.
That I would work endlessly to quell
And beg to have quench me.
Only he knows what I want,
what I crave,
what I need.
…but why can’t he see
That passion in me?
The specific details are hard to recall
But you were there and that started it all
It started a heartbeat deep in my soul
When you took my hand and we went for a stroll
I remember we walked
I remember we talked
But what was said and where we went
I don’t recall during this event
All I know is we were close and you held me tight
My body reacted on that special night
And I saw you in a different light
And I loved you with all my might
When you did what you do
I felt brand new
Now my love is forever deep inside for you
And it all started with a dream from out of the blue
I have undertaken a challenge this year. I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel. No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment. Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day. Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog. Let’s find some fun!
I must apologize for taking almost a full day to write this.. I knew what I was going to write half-way through the day, but laundry, pain and fatigue kept me from writing much. But I am here now and yesterday was a wonderful day… at least a couple of hours of it was. I met two wonderful women I worked with for lunch and we sat and talked for about 2 1/2 hours. It is always good to see them. One of them is nearing the stage in her life she may have to move a couple of hours away to take care of her ailing mother. Right now her brothers are helping out some but eventually she will need more around the clock care. It will be hard to see her move but at least she will be a days drive away to still visit when able.
I am grateful I still have friends from work I can communicate with and still have a small bit of a “social life” to enjoy. It was a very happy few hours of talk and laughter. I need more days like that. Unfortunately I can’t afford them very often and they both still work so coordinating schedules is sometimes a challenge. But it made this Friday a good day!
My heart floats high
Like a childs balloon
Whenever I get the chance
To talk to you
It’s like a marvelous dream
In my mind again and again
Whenever you text
That I’m in your thoughts
And my soul is ignited
With emotion so deep
Whenever you say
You love me
But I stand firmly on the ground
And know I am wide awake
Whenever you need me
The way that I need you
I have undertaken a challenge this year. I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel. No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment. Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day. Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog. Let’s find some fun!
Day 5 was when 3 and 4 caught up with me. I did still have to take my Dad to a doctor’s appointment, but for the evening I was pretty much a zombie. That is ok. My body gets to a point where it is very convincing and I have learned to listen to it. My boyfriend is great when the fatigue gets the best of me. The only trouble is I get behind on my writing. I should not even be writing this now, but my friends I am supposed to meet for lunch know I tend to run a little late. LOL So I was happy last night to have an evening of rest and recovery. Grateful that there was nothing I had to do to interfere with my recovery.
His eyes are mesmerizing
His gaze inviting
I know I shouldn’t
But I am tempted
His hands are gentle
His touch electric
I know I shouldn’t
But I am tempted
His words are magical
His voice hypnotic
I know I shouldn’t
But I am tempted
His life is carefree
His attitude freedom
I know I shouldn’t
But I am tempted
… I can’t betray him
I can’t escape
I know I won’t
But still I am tempted
I have undertaken a challenge this year. I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel. No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment. Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day. Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog. Let’s find some fun!
Timing, fate, karma, a guardian angel… however you want to look at it, it came together for me. I had another appointment out-of-town. I dread the drive there, I dread the drive back. The timing of this appointment put me right at the start of rush hour traffic on the way home.
I was almost out of the worst of it and headed to the highway for a straight shot home, when I looked into my rear-view mirror. I happened to see a deer fly through the air and another one turn back around instead of crossing the road. Just maybe two car lengths behind me was where this happened. I had just missed being the one to face the deer head on.
I can gladly say I have never hit an animal with my car… in this area there are plenty of deer to contend with. I have seen deer in many rural areas, but this was the first time in a very busy area of town I have seen deer.
Bottom line was I got lucky on the trip home. It could have very easily been me in that spot at that moment they crossed the highway. I am happy I do not have car damage that needs to be fixed, or injuries that need to heal. And grateful my trip home was a safe one.
Sometimes I think about crossing the line
The line of right and wrong
The line of good and bad
Sometimes I feel alone in this life I have
Loved but forgotten
Needed but not wanted
Sometimes I dream of a moment with him
A moment of passion
A moment of pleasure
Sometimes I want to escape
To where I can start new
To where I matter
Sometimes I think about crossing the line…
I have undertaken a challenge this year. I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel. No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment. Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day. Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog. Let’s find some fun!
I am late posting this… darn fatigue! But it was a busy day yesterday spent on the go and my fibro body takes only so much and then screams, “STOP!” I just need to learn to write sometime before the stop and hope my happy and grateful moment has occurred.
Yesterday was a trip out-of-town to see my fibro doctor. For some reason the hundreds of doctors here in town don’t want to treat fibromyalgia. It is very frustrating. But I have had some concerns over a new problem with my knee. My mind tends to over think everything… even a new pain. The doctor seems to think it is just arthritis setting in but took an x-ray to be sure. I feel better about that.
Just knowing I have a doctor than listens to my worries and does what needs to be done makes me grateful to have found her. I am happy to have someone who believes in fibro that I can see… there are still doubters in medical field unfortunately.
Doctors are not people I want to see everyday, but I am so grateful I have some good ones in my life. Cancer, fibromyalgia, depression all have led me to some of the good ones in the profession. Don’t get me wrong I have had the ones that aren’t so understanding – the doctor who diagnosed me with fibro but wouldn’t tell me, the doctor that said my fatigue was “sleep intoxication”, and the one who refused to see me since I was only making payments on the bill.
I hope you all have been lucky enough to have good doctors. And if not, I hope you have the strength to keep looking until you find that good ones. (((HUGS)))
When the silence hits
It cuts to the bone.
There are no more angry words
No more tears
No more smiles
No more laughter
No more moments of tenderness
…just utter silence
Stillness
Solitude
Emptiness
Loneliness
Since you’ve been
Gone.
Leigha Robbins 