The mirror tells the tale
Of a hard battle
I finally may have won
Fighting with the image I see
Was where I used to be
Now I embrace me
The in between
And all that is right and wrong
I am no longer afraid
Of the face that stares back
After years of struggle
I am learning to accept me
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – mirror
I have undertaken a challenge this year. I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel. No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment. Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day. Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog. Let’s find some fun!
I stayed in bed today… probably for too long. I just was so tired. I fought the fatigue and didn’t go back to sleep, but I didn’t get the energy to move for quite a while. I hate when days start off like this. It makes it seem like I am fighting from behind to catch up all day. Add in the fatigue and I never get ahead or even break even. So I am trying to learn to just accept my limitations on these kinds of days. But acceptance is not easy.
I limited what I did today down to the necessities, no extras. I postponed a trip to the store for a day with more energy. I hate the way fibromyalgia robs me of so much energy but I am getting better at recognizing it and adjusting. At least the pain level was not higher along with the fatigue this flare.
I can be happy in the way I am learning to deal with my illness even if I hate it. I am grateful that I have medicine that helps and the ability to work things around my flares. I hope this is a short one and I am back on a more positive day tomorrow.