**Trigger warning**
This week we look back to my daily prompt post from 2017 … this is a post I did about my history and worst of times. I want to mention again there are options and places to go for help… there are others who have been through it, you are not alone. For this week’s FFF …
Out and Away
At the height of my ex-husbands drinking and my lowest moments I often thought the best option for me to get away from all the mess was to drive straight into a tree off the highway… thankfully I had a friend who saw how deep I had fallen and helped pull me back up.
Being in a household with a heavy alcoholic is hell, total isolation, guilt, shame, anger and a million more emotions all bottled up and shaken well and often. But the thing to remember is you are never alone. There are millions of ways to break free and get help that don’t have the disastrous results of this poem. Reach out, find help, you are NOT in this battle alone.
Al-anon http://al-anon.alateen.org/
Suicide hotline http://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ 1-800-273-8255
I was aware of the snow
But I left anyway
I had to get out
I had to get away
The house reeked of alcohol
Again you had too much
I had to get away
I had to get out
I felt the tires lose traction
And the impact with the tree
I had to get out
I had to get away
Unconsciousness turned the world grey
Maybe this was my escape
I had to get away
I had to get out
Saying goodbye to the life I knew
And hello to eternal peace
I got out
I got away