Happy and Grateful – Day 200

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning. It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life. It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night. I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day. Join along in the comments or on your own blog. There is always good in every day.

The oppressive heat and humidity continues.  My Dad skipped his coffee group today to avoid being out in it.  I felt with him being in his eighties that was a wise decision.  My boyfriend however wanted to go to the outdoor shooting range for some special target practice today.  Heat index in the triple digits and he wants to be outside… not me.

I did do something for me while he was at the range.  I attended another Al-anon meeting.  I really like the people who gather on Wednesday nights but haven’t been able to make it to many of the meetings.  I am so grateful to have the meetings to go to when I can.

I did get a chance to talk to my daughter briefly today.  Seems like it has been a while since I have seen her so a chance to talk to her is good.  It always makes me happy to talk to her.

My eyelids are drooping, so I am going to call it a night.  May you find happiness and gratitude in your day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 152

June brings warmer weather and the start of summer.  Hopefully it brings many ideas from my muse too.  I continue to write for my challenge to find the things that make me happy and grateful each day this year.  Please feel free to join me in this challenge with comments about your happiness and gratitude or start your own blog.  There is always something good to find in each day.

Today it got a little warmer, trying to prepare us for tomorrow’s heat and humidity,  It was nice weather to walk to my doctor’s appointment.  Good for having the windows open and hearing the birds once again.  A beautiful start to June!

I was grateful to take a little time for me tonight and make it to a Al-anon meeting.  It was good to see some familiar faces and be reminded of some of the principles of the program.  I am really seeing benefits again of working the program.

Tonight after work my daughter stopped to watch a couple of soaps off the DVR and do some laundry.  Seeing her always makes me happy.

At least tomorrow I don’t have to be up as early as I was today.  So I should only need 3 alarms not 4 LOL!  Have a good night (or day depending on where you are) everyone!

Happy and Grateful – Days 138 and 139

May has arrived and I hope it brings lots of Spring cheer with it.  I am in my fifth month now of taking time to acknowledge the things that make me happy and grateful every day… almost half way to my goal of a full year.  If you want to join in on this challenge please add your thoughts in the comments or start your own blog.  There is a lot to be happy and grateful for!

Have I mentioned before how I hate fatigue and fibro?  It hit me last night and has stuck with me all day.  I ache and an exhausted even though I have napped multiple times today.  We had a cold front move in and with it a bone chilling mist and wind… feels more like fall than spring.  So once again I find myself posting two days together and asking for forgiveness.  If I could have it any other way I would!

Yesterday I had to take my Dad into the doctor.  One of his x-rays came back with indications of maybe an enlarged heart.  So back to the cardiologist.  He was not convinced of the fact, but gave Dad a prescription to try to ease his shortness of breath.  It is very frustrating for him having had this problem for quite a while now and getting shuffled from one doctor to the next never getting anywhere with a reason.

But we got the appointment done and I ran a quick errand and then came home to nap a bit.  I took an anxiety pill and made it to the nights Al-anon meeting to try to grab a little peace of mind.  So I was happy to work the meeting into my night and grateful there were no major problems according to the doctor.

Today has been such a tired day.  The only thing I accomplished was loading the dishwasher and taking a check in for the electric bill.  I then went to the garage to see if they could fix my car, since the check engine light was on.  They hooked it up and reset things for me saying it may only be a little dust around the air filter.  Surprisingly enough there was no charge for that and I went on my way.  Time will tell now if it worked or not.

In spite of the fibro I still found some joy.  I was happy not to have to have any repairs done today.  And grateful I had the time to rest through my flair.  I hope tomorrow finds a little less pain and fatigue as my daughter has plans to take me somewhere for the afternoon, but it is a surprise where.  …now it is time to sleep again!  Yawn!

Happy and Grateful – Day 124

May has arrived and I hope it brings lots of Spring cheer with it.  I am in my fifth month now of taking time to acknowledge the things that make me happy and grateful every day… almost half way to my goal of a full year.  If you want to join in on this challenge please add your thoughts in the comments or start your own blog.  There is a lot to be happy and grateful for!

It was another beautiful day today.  And the best part for me was getting to see my therapist again – he was back from vacation!  We had a lot to talk about and he once again tried to persuade me to get to an Al-Anon meeting… and tonight I did.

It was nice to work on my program tonight and try to refocus on me instead of stewing on my problems, or those things I perceive as problems.  I saw a couple of familiar faces and several new ones.  It always is good once I get past those doors… it is just trouble to get the time and energy to get there.

So my happy has to go to the return of my doctor.  And as always I am grateful for the love and comfort I feel inside the walls of any meeting I have attended in the area.  It really is an amazing fellowship.

Happy and Grateful – Day 33

This is February and I am well on my way to attaining a goal I set for myself.  I am trying to post every day with happiness and gratitude that I have encountered that day.  There is always something no matter how small it may seem that we can be grateful for and even just a shared smile can make you happy if only for a moment.  Please try to find those moments for yourself too…  if you’re up to it I would love if you would share them too in the comments or your own blog.  Being aware can really turn a day around!

I started back on a course of healing today.  My therapist had recommended a book to me a few years ago and while I started it I never finished it.  It is called A Gentle Path through the Twelve Steps and it is a workbook dealing with recovery for addicts and those affected by them… the later would be me. I was married to an alcoholic for many years and still deal with the occasional traumas that came with it.

I started out great with the step work of Al-Anon and thought I had things pretty well under control… but that was a mistake I made.  I dropped the meetings, my sponsor developed health problems and could no longer help me and I put the book on a shelf and forgot it.

Now with my boyfriend drinking again (he drank heavily before we started dating but stopped about the time we started going out) I need the steps and the program again.  Problem is my life with fibromyalgia.  I am usually so tired after day-to-day things I don’t have the energy to drive across town (15 to 20 min drive) to get to a meeting at the end of the day.  So I am pulling the book back out and starting over with it along with the help of my doctor.

I have reviewed steps one and two now and have been given the assignment of pages to read and work to do before my next week’s appointment.  I feel good about this.  I am happy I can work on this at my own pace at home.  I am grateful my doctor is giving it another shot with me.  Addiction affects so many people besides the addict… I heard it described once as a wet dog coming out of a pond and the water he shakes off is his addiction – everyone he shakes that water onto is touched by what he does.  It is time for me to grab a towel.

Day 83 – 100 Days of Happiness

I have sat here watching the cursor blink off and on for far too long with no clear direction in mind.  There are a lot of little moments of happiness but not any one thing that stands out better than the rest.

  • I took my car to the repair shop to get my door replaced… got a nice little Camry to drive until it is fixed.
  • The snow that fell yesterday all melted away today.
  • I got a book in on hold at the library I have been looking forward to reading
  • I made it to an Al-anon meeting and saw some people I haven’t seen for a while
  • I got a text from a friend I hadn’t heard from in a while
  • Finally made plans with my daughter to get together for lunch this week

All good things, but not one that stands out.  I could even add the adorable smile from a cute little girl at the library who was waiting with her mom when I walked in.  Happiness some days is all around us in small but wonderful doses.

Day 65 – 100 Days of Happiness

Things seem like they are falling apart lately.  Too many problems and not enough solutions.  My boyfriends way to deal with this was to start drinking again after being sober for 4 years.  It has brought back memories of my ex-husband and his battle with alcoholism.  Today I tried to find some peace the best way I know how (besides walking in nature) – I went to an Al-Anon meeting.  I used to go regularly for nearly two years.  Then I had health issues that kept me away.  I am hoping to settle back into a regular meeting time and find a little peace.  It was good to be in a room full of others who have similar issues.  We even laughed a little tonight and I really needed that.  So even in the middle of the chaos that is my life right now, I can still find some happiness in a day and I am so very grateful for that!