Love Again

No one is ever alone please call if you need help…

She sat in the corner of the bar.  The sign outside had said Gambit.  It made her think of the old X-men comic books of her youth.  She was way past her youth now though, but she needed a drink.

The same glass was in her hand that was there an hour ago after she first came in.  It was a salty dog.  She liked salty dogs; they were a drink introduced to her by her dad.  But he wasn’t here anymore.  Nor were a lot of other people.  Family members had died and friends had disappeared. She felt very alone.

She had come into the bar to find some courage.  Or maybe to talk herself down, she really wasn’t sure which it was.  She only knew she felt like she was at the end of her rope.  She was alone most of the time and it was taking a toll on her mentally.  She felt more and more useless and unwanted.  Today she felt like she might not just drive by that big tree on the corner.  Maybe she would take it on at top speed.

She was convinced no one cared anyway.  She was just a burden on society.  Not able to do her part to contribute.  Just a walking diseased body that was growing more and more unhinged.

Just then she got a text message.  It was simple and not convincing her of anything, but it made her feel a little less invisible.  It said, “Hey beautiful, how are you doing?” She knew he didn’t really need her anymore, but for that brief moment she felt wanted.  Maybe if she sweet talked him, he would again love her.  After all she still loved him.  And for once that day she felt she might make it through the night.

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – gambit

Don’t Bite The Hand That Feeds You

You were down on your luck

I helped you up

I gave you food

Money and

A phone

In many ways I supported you

So I was taken by surprise

When you seemed to block me

From being a part of your life

You grew quiet

And distant

And always had an excuse

Finally I just felt like screaming

Don’t bite the hand that feeds you

You just might damage it forever

 

Written for Fandango’s February Expressions (FFE) #19

In A Bad Place

I want to make one thing clear

I want to live

But I have these thoughts

They are dark and scary

They call to me

Late at night

When I am alone

They say things

I know are not true

But I get taken in by their voices

The danger is of no concern

The escape sounds so good

A chance to stop the pain

The sadness

The fear

I fight many nights with my thoughts

but I am afraid one night

the voices may win

and I will escape quietly into the darkness

and no one will notice or care

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – clear

Climbing Up From Rock Bottom

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Step by step I climb the stairs on the hill

Closer and closer to memories of you

So many emotions of times we shared

Among these trees

The leaves all watching

Two people who thought they were in love

Two people who were wrapped up in each other

Two people who burned out too fast

And left behind in the flames of passion

Stood me broken hearted

Alone and still in love

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – stairs

Thank You

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Because you took time for me

I opened up

Because you laughed with me

I became free

Because you told me you cared

I trusted you

Because you shut me out

I cried for you

Because you left me alone

I blamed myself

But because you hurt me

I will forever be wiser

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – because

Tired Of Waiting

Take me to a paradise

Hold me in your arms

Tell me you love me

Show me all your charm

Take me to places

Together we haven’t gone

Lately I have felt

Forgotten and alone

Take me anywhere

As long we’re together

Just show me a sign

I still inspire pleasure

Take my hand in yours

Lead me into passion

I’ve got to know you feel

More than just compassion

Take me to a paradise

Or I may find another

Who knows what really thrills me

And makes me their only lover

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – paradise

Empty

I have lost my ambition
My motivation is gone
I’ve got nothing left
So thoroughly exhausted
I need to find a reason
To continue on this path
It seems so endless
With no hope in sight
Will you help me
Stand by me
Give me your hand
Guide me along
Because I feel so
Alone

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – ambition