A Square Peg In A Round Hole

From early in my youth
I felt I didn’t belong
The shy one afraid to speak up
Terrified I would get things wrong
And everyone would see and judge
All eyes on me every day at school

Now it’s my body that makes me an outcast
Not fit to work anymore
Diseased and unwanted
Unable to be present in life some days
It makes me wonder
If it is even worth it to try

I sit alone in the dark and remember
Past pain I received when I tried
And I ponder my decision
To get up yet again and attempt life
When I am just so tired and broken

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – belong