I exposed my heart
Bared vulnerabilities
Only for your soul
You left me exposed
And shared with the world my pain
Leaving me naked
You didn’t care then
Don’t tell me that you care now
I’m exposed and raw
I exposed my heart
Bared vulnerabilities
Only for your soul
You left me exposed
And shared with the world my pain
Leaving me naked
You didn’t care then
Don’t tell me that you care now
I’m exposed and raw
He reaches out
To lovingly touch me
But I’ve been burned
And fear that touch
He lied
He cheated
And it is hard to forgive
Impossible to forget
He reaches out
But I pull away
Will he ever be enough again
Can I get past the pain
Do I even want to
He reaches out
And I am paralyzed inside
Maybe I am broken forever
Unable to feel his touch
Convinced he will only hurt me
But still he reaches out…
she was supposed to love you
you gave her your trust
she broke it with a touch
he was supposed to be your world
you gave him your trust
he drowned it with vodka
he was supposed to be your friend
you gave him your trust
he walked away forever
you are supposed to recover
be able to trust again
but now it’s all broken…
Once upon a time…
The world does not have fairy tales. It has the monsters and demons but never the happy ending. Why do we make almost all stories end happy? When was the last time you left a movie upset because the ending did not wrap things up in a neat little smile? There is always a message of hope or a future of possibilities waiting in sparkling rainbows. That is not real life.
Life seems more like a formula of one step forward two steps back. There is a new baby for a friend, while 4 others suffer the loss of a family member or close friend. One person I know gets a job, while two others still hit the pavement turned away door after door. Even something as simple as a great sale at the store on meat, but the price of bread and milk sky-rocket. Where is the balance?
As a kid teeter totters were fun, even the unexpected bump occasionally. Now the bumps leave me bruised and I am light headed from the up and down with no stopping. A merry-go-round brought smiles at 6 years old, now life’s unending spin leaves me dizzy with confusion and frustration. Back when life was full of innocence a roller coaster gave a small scare before the rush of wind in a free fall. Now life’s roller coaster emotions leave me in pain gasping for relief.
If fairy tales were real family would not rob each other, friends would never lie, lovers would not cheat and we would always help out a stranger. Sadly that is not reality… can I become a kid again?