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I believe the most important thing about a vacation is to relax and get away.  Then explain to me why after a five-day getaway I am just exhausted?  I know, I know… did I forget I have a chronic illness?  Did I really think a shopping vacation would happen without a lot of pushing through the pain and SLEEP?  Oh well, I did have a good time at least.

We were celebrating my niece turning 30 and so a girl’s trip was necessary.  We shopped the Mall of America in Minnesota enjoyed an adventure in an escape room, saw sharks and fish of all kinds at the mall’s aquarium, and enjoyed some really good food and drink… Margaritaville was by far my favorite!  But one thing in the back of my mind kept bothering me, I was sure I was forgetting something.

Oh, my goodness!  I never posted an “I will be away for a bit” post… I am such a scatterbrained!  So, I am here tonight to apologize for not giving you a heads up at least.  And to tell you I am once again behind and need to try to speed up the catch-up somehow.  So, I am letting you all know if I mark like on your blog it will mean just what it says… I liked your post (and I read it).  If I have a little time here or there I will comment, but I am really far behind again. I appreciate your forgiveness and patience in all of this.  THANKS! And as always (((HUGS)))!

Broken Chains

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Your birthday is tomorrow

And all I can think is

Can you imbibe in heaven

Has that demon finally

Climbed off of your back

Can you enjoy the freedom

Of not being chained

To unending intoxication

Can you truly feel

Joy again

Laugh out loud

Be at peace

As I continue to miss

The life we once had

I dream for you

A loving embrace

And the happiness

That you lost for years

Will all be within your grasp

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – imbibe

Mumbles … Scream

I scream, you scream, we all scream for ice cream!  Ok, so maybe there was no ice cream but there was cake!  I missed posting last night as it was my birthday, and I was fortunate enough to spend it with those I care about.  It started with a few posts on Facebook, I got serenaded on the phone by a dear friend, got special gifts in my Animal Crossing game, had dinner and played cards with my daughter and her fiancé, and then went back to spend the late evening with another friend in Animal Crossing.  It was a wonderful day.  One of the best ones I have had in a while… but I think it was because I only took half of the new med I have been struggling with.

Today it was back to the regular dose and I slept off and on through much of the afternoon.  And I know sleep is not far away tonight as I took my meds earlier for a morning scheduled doctor’s appointment.  I just really hate the way this med makes me feel and it has really done nothing for my anxiety.  Today my boyfriend came to give me some cabbage to chew on while he was putting together a large salad for dinner… I saw his hand and was terrified I was looking at spider legs and freaked out.  Yeah, my anxiety is still alive and well.

So, I have one more week of this shit.  Then I will see my doctor again to discuss my lack of progress, actually I think things have gotten worse.  If there is not a change of some kind I really will scream. BUT in the meantime, I will remember having a good day on Saturday.  After all I finally got the elusive blue rose in my Animal Crossing game! 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – scream

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The Perfect Gift

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It is your birthday honey

I have something for you

I know it is not the wrong size

I don’t have to worry about the color

It is a one-of-a-kind gift

You can return it though

I have to use personal delivery

You can have more than one

It comes from the heart

I cannot gift wrap it

It doesn’t cost a fortune

And I give it to you freely

So open up your arms

Let me give you a hug

And we will see

Where the gift leads us…

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – delivery

Mumbles …prompt

I have not been very prompt with the daily writing challenge I do. I fell way behind when Dad was in the hospital and I am still a week behind. But I had plans for this day’s post. It was going to be my challenge to work in a birthday post around the word for the 17th… but I am not feeling good for my chances with “prompt” as the word of the day. I am just going to make this two posts in one basically then. One about how I am still trying to catch up, and one about birthdays. …please stay with me for a while.

Most of my computer time used to be in the evening and night. Now with being at Dad’s overnight I am having to sneak in moments during the day to work on the prompts. I still have to do my day to day things (cleaning, errands and the necessary resting that comes from fibro) and try to fire up the brain to write at a time of day that I have not done much writing for awhile. I have faith I will get this done.

I am still going through your posts one by one trying to get to the next challenge. I am hoping that by mid November I am back at home and a little more caught up. Dad sees a neurologist soon and has another sleep study planned… if we can knock out some of his confusion and memory issues things will be better. If we can’t and that is just the new norm, we have to come up with something more permanent to do for him.

Now October 17th… best day of the year! Ok, so maybe it no longer holds that place of honor it held as a kid, but I still enjoy my birthdays. I went through cancer 15 years ago and can honestly say birthdays are not bothersome to me, they are a blessing. I have fought to stay here on this earth so I am kind of proud of each of my 52 years. I know… gasp! Shock! A woman admitting her age older than 29… it is unthinkable. I am a true believer in age being a state of mind. Sure there are some really bad fibro days where I hurt and ache so much I swear I am 100, but I do occasionally get those days, or at least moments that I feel like I am in my twenties again. Those days are precious and make the rest of them bearable.

This year, as is usual, I spent the day with family. We went out to eat and I watched my boyfriend eat a heart attack on a bun… no seriously this burger was called The Defibrillator. It was a half pound of hamburger, onions, lettuce, tomato, sauce and topped with cheese curds. He said it was really good, but only got through half of it in one sitting. The company was great, the food delicious and it almost felt like a “normal” day, until I had to go back to Dad’s and stay the night with him again.

In my family we have almost always had at least a big family dinner on birthdays, do you have any special things you do on your birthday still or is it just another day? I grew up with it being a super special day and I strive to keep that magic alive for those I care about. I still mail birthday cards and letters for those far away. I get together with friends to celebrate too. As a matter of fact this week I am joining two friends to celebrate my birthday and one other this month. I feel you have to have some days that are special… shouldn’t one of them be the anniversary of your birth?

To all you October birthdays (especially the Libras as they are the best… LOL) I hope you have an extra special day! It is after all the best month of the year!


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – prompt

Happy and Grateful – Day 303 and 304

The month of October is upon us.  Fall is in full swing with the leaves gathering on the lawn… maybe a pile or two to run through even.  The evenings are getting dark earlier as the days grow shorter.  And a few of us look forward to a good scare with Halloween coming this month.  Everyday has at least some small portion of good in it.  I am looking for that good with this challenge to find my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join in with the challenge by commenting or writing your own blog… let’s find some goodness today.

Monday was an ok day… it was a little difficult as it would have been Mom’s birthday but I stayed pretty busy so I didn’t dwell on it as much.  We went to the store and restocked the cupboards and refrigerator.  I was happy to get some more fruit to snack on, much better than the left over Halloween candy.

Then after the store we had a creative time in the craft room.  My boyfriend finished mounting a peg board for me to organize some of my supplies on.  I was grateful he did that for me.

Today was all about comfort.  I started some old-fashioned comfort food simmering on the stove around 2pm when I had all the veggies cut up for the homemade chicken noodle soup.  I was grateful to have something that would wait while I helped my Dad out with trick or treaters at his house tonight.  It was Dad’s comfort of not getting up to answer the door whenever the kids came looking for goodies.  We only had 23 kids and 4 sorority sisters looking for canned goods donations.  But I was happy to help Dad out and see the cute costumes.  I would have to give the best costume to the mother daughter combination of spider (daughter) and spider web (mom).   It was a pretty good way to end the month.

Now I sit with some music playing softly and hope for sleep soon.  Sorry the fatigue got the best of me last night, but I am winning so far tonight.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 290

The month of October is upon us.  Fall is in full swing with the leaves gathering on the lawn… maybe a pile or two to run through even.  The evenings are getting dark earlier as the days grow shorter.  And a few of us look forward to a good scare with Halloween coming this month.  Everyday has at least some small portion of good in it.  I am looking for that good with this challenge to find my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join in with the challenge by commenting or writing your own blog… let’s find some goodness today.

It has been a lovely fall day.  I sat here by the window, had some coffee, listened to the birds sing and read though some blogs today.  It was a nice relaxing afternoon.  Then I went with my boyfriend out-of-town to meet my daughter for dinner tonight as it was my birthday.  We had a fabulous dinner at Olive Garden complete with left overs to eat later this week.  I was happy to spend the evening with two very special people in my life.

After dinner my daughter had to go back to work and we drove home.  We did stop to see my Dad and visited with him awhile.  He and my sister had a couple of birthday gifts for me so I opened them up.  I was so grateful for the gifts.  They gave me a new tool to use in my card making so I can not only cut but emboss cards too.  I can’t wait to try it out, but it will have to wait a day or two while I find room for it on my shelves.  It was a wonderful end to the day.

Now I need to go through some email and then call it a night.  I hope you all find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day!

7 Days 7 Photos – A Black And White Challenge Day 5

As usual I want to thank Stella at Giggles & Tales for challenging me.  🙂

Seven days, seven photos rules

  • Black and while photos
  • Photos of your life
  • No people
  • No explaination
  • Challenge someone each day

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Today I would like to challenge Lukas at Through Open Lens.

Happy and Grateful – Day 273 and 274

As we transitioned from September to October I have been extra busy and got a little behind on my posts.  I hope I can manage to catch up in the next day or two.  I will read all the posts eventually I promise!

On Saturday we celebrated my daughter and niece’s birthdays as they are only 4 days apart.  It was not quite the party we had planned because my Dad was still having a lot of pain in his leg from the swelling that took him to the emergency room Friday night.  But we were all able to gather at his house and share some pasta for dinner and ice cream cake for the girls.  I say girls like they are still young… they are now 23 and 25.  We made a big point of reminding my niece she was now a quarter of a century old several times.  It was a day of some laughter and family.  It was a happy time.

I had some sad news from a friend just before the birthday party.  She lost her son to cancer.  It brought to light the same question I have had many times.  Why was my fight with cancer won, when so many others have not made it.  I once again felt grateful that I was one more year cancer free.  I may not know why I survived, but there must be some reason.

Sunday was in keeping with the birthday theme.  My boyfriend’s great-nephew was turning 4 and his parents arranged a surprise party for him.  He was definitely surprised.  By the time the stun wore off he had a great time.  His grandparents had gotten him a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles bike and helmet.  He rode it from his house to the park, less than half a block away.  We had gifts and cupcakes at the park and all the kids played on the equipment there.  By the time the day was over the birthday boy decided it was, “the best birthday EVER!”  It made me happy to see all the kids with smiles on, especially the birthday boy.

Sunday evening I checked in with my Dad again to see if there was any improvement in his leg.  He has been icing it with no reduction in the amount of swelling.  It is worrisome to me what he is going through.  He agreed to consider calling the doctor on Monday if it was not better and I was grateful for that.

Now I need to read some more posts and start work on today’s daily prompt.  Hopefully I can post later tonight before the fatigue from all the activity catches up with me.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good day/night!

Happy And Grateful – Days 268 & 269

The kids are all in school, there is a growing crisp in the air.  Football games and shorter days fill the weeks.  It is September.  I have accomplished another month of acknowledging my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join me as I continue my goal of one year on this journey.  Please join in with your happiness and gratitude in the comments or your own blog post.  No matter how bad the day is there is always something worthwhile in the day.

Sorry about the double up post but I needed a day to “recover” from the last few days and kind of crashed right after birthday celebrations Monday night.  I did do the daily prompt this morning … better late than never.

The post for last night is easy too.  I am grateful for that night 23 years ago when I went into labor and finally had my beautiful daughter who forever changed my life. And the happiness was of course sharing her birthday with her.  It was going to be her and her boyfriend, but considering he worked about 14 hours he wasn’t up to visiting.  She enjoyed her gifts and we had a nice dinner at Texas Roadhouse.

Today was about recovery.  Some stretching for my aches and pains, muscle relaxers tonight, and a nap or two along the way.  I would really like to take it easy this week, but have to take my Dad to a doctor’s appointment tomorrow and Thursday is my yearly mammogram – and even though I am 14 years past the cancer, I still dread what they might find again.

So tonight I started my posting early to hopefully get it all in before either my mind turns to mush from the meds or the fatigue wins out.  My cat is currently “helping” me write by cleaning my left hand as I type…she is such a mama cat always licking and cleaning me and my boyfriend.  Makes me feel sad we took away her ability to have kittens.  I would say this is one of those sweet moments of the day with her that can be considered my happiness for the day.

Now the gratitude comes from a break from Mother Nature.  The weather has returned to more seasonable temperatures and we were able to open windows up again today.  It looks like we will have a few days of fall before the warm air is set to return once again.  I am listening to the crickets serenading me outside my window… almost as good as bird song.

Well I am off to clear out some of my email and then get some sleep.   Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day!