Today has been a challenging day. This would have been my Dad’s 84th birthday. He has been gone almost a year now and I miss him so much. Tonight, my boyfriend and I played a few games of cribbage. Dad taught me how to play. I think that is one of the things I miss most about him. We would play cribbage, scrabble, do jigsaw puzzles and trivia games. It is that and some of the most basic things I miss. I haven’t done if for like 40 years, but I remember as a kid getting his coffee ready in his thermos every night before he went to work on the grave-yard shift.
Simple everyday things can bring back floods of memories. One of the things I miss a lot is how he would raise one eyebrow at you in question of what you just said or did. He would shake hands with someone, and I could see the tightness of his grip whenever he did so… he had big strong hands.
But it is not just Dad I am missing tonight; I miss my Mom too. She has been gone longer and it still hurts as bad. Tonight’s prompt I am writing for triggered a flood of memories about Mom. I have had long hair most of my life. And when I was growing up, I can remember many a day sitting still (or trying to) while Mom would brush my hair to get all the rats out. I would often beg her to stop when my hair was a particular mess, but now I would give anything to have her brush my hair once more.
I never knew how badly it would hurt to be without my parents. I fear I took for granted the time I had with them. But I do little things like the cribbage games tonight, to try to keep the happy times fresh in my mind. Have you ever lost someone you were close with and felt you should have spent more time with them?
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – brush