Record With a Skip

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I am not a stranger to troubles, and I am far from impervious to pain.  I sit here on a higher pain day glad my feet have stopped “burning” finally.  I took one of my pain pills and massaged my feet a while… something finally helped.  I have clouded thoughts of emptiness after two really fun weekends with a visiting friend so now when she is gone back home, I feel pretty empty again.

I am still working on catching up… I know I sound like a broken record, record, record.  But I am really trying.  I have been busy with therapy and doctor visits.  Now my cat is going to the vet for tests.  And there are the usual trips to the store a couple of times a week.  With the heat of summer, I am just wiped out!

So just to touch base I am still at it.  If I get a couple of posts in a day, I will feel good about gaining a little ground. If I don’t, I will hope to at least get one done to not lose any ground.  Maybe by next weekend I will be updating less than a week behind instead of more.  But it is what it is…

I hope everyone has a good week and happy blogging!  (((HUGS)))

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – impervious

Mumbles … Elucidate

Elucidate … let me explain.  This is the word I am supposed to write for but I really don’t have it in me right now.  Still not adjusting to my new meds; I feel like a zombie most of the day.  Tomorrow the whole family will gather here for dinner and birthday celebration (4 birthdays within about a month and a half).  Followed by a friend from out of state visiting on Monday for lunch.  I have cleaning to do and I am already wiped out.  Still have to wrap the presents too.  Something has to give so this is a poor excuse for a post… maybe I can make it back on later and do better with the next word.  Right now it is time for dinner.

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – elucidate

Over and Over Again

I have been busy helping my daughter and her fiance paint and clean their new house the last two days and I was so tired after all that work, I came home and went right to bed and then slept a good deal of the day today.  So, since I am behind by two days I will impart on you the words of the great choreographer Martha Graham –

” Practice means to perform, over and over again in the face of all obstacles, some act of vision, of faith, of desire. Practice is a means of inviting the perfection desired.”


For Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – practice

Happy and Grateful – Day 262

The kids are all in school, there is a growing crisp in the air.  Football games and shorter days fill the weeks.  It is September.  I have accomplished another month of acknowledging my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join me as I continue my goal of one year on this journey.  Please join in with your happiness and gratitude in the comments or your own blog post.  No matter how bad the day is there is always something worthwhile in the day.

I can breathe a sigh of relief… I am done!  My Dad wanted me to shop for birthday presents for both my daughter and niece.  He gives me a dollar target and sends me on my way.  My niece has a lot of online wishes, but my daughter has more things she wants that I can actually pick up in store.  But I have been navigating the internet to find some good deals for my Dad and think I am finally done.  Not only did I have items that were out of stock, but I had to watch delivery dates as I am pushing my luck with a celebration planned for the 30th.  But I got it done and the latest delivery date possible is one of my daughters gifts set to arrive between the 26th and 29th.  I am very grateful that task is done.

As I sit here thinking back on the day I try to find my happiness… it was kind of a rough day.  I came back from taking my boyfriend to work and napped.  Then tried to track down the last of the online gifts.  Picked up my boyfriend.  Checked the mail and found a possible problem with my insurance I have to straighten out (called and left a message for my agent) tomorrow.  Got dinner for my Dad.  And then it was time for dinner for us (a team effort tonight)… it was a busy day.

So I am having a Killian’s to relax a bit.  I would have to say my happy moment today was when my boyfriend got his email confirming his 401K loan so he can get his car.  Knowing that the check is on the way is a big relief.  Now it is simply a waiting game to see how soon he gets it.

Time to slip off to dreamland… oh if only I could sleep well enough to have a dream!  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 221

Seven months are gone now and surprisingly I am still plugging along with this challenge to post about my happiness and gratitude every day this year.  August brings the state fair here in Iowa and lots of heat and humidity.  It is the time to see the back to school shopping start with kids dreading it and parents loving it.  As I continue my challenge I hope you will take a minute to reflect on your day too.  You can even share your happiness and gratitude here in the comments or on your own blog.  There is good in every day!

It was a busy day today… I hope I don’t pay for it tomorrow.  It started with taking my boyfriend to work at 6:30 and I returned home to sort out some pinto beans for our beans and cornbread dinner.  I tried to channel the ghost of my ex-husband and he made great beans like his mom.  I was only the observer in that dish.  I think I did the dish alright.  Everyone who ate it seemed to think it was good so I was grateful for that.

I finished a letter for a friend and mailed it, took my Dad to his coffee group, picked up my boyfriend, picked up a handful of items at the store and delivered some of the dinner to my daughter and Dad… phew! Like I said a busy day.  But I got through it all with little pain.  Fatigue was really high and I did nap after dinner.  I just hope the activity does not bring aftermath pain tomorrow.

I think the moment of happiness was when I got a couple of messages from my daughter that she approved of how I made the beans, greens and cornbread.  I am sure it will never be as good as her Daddy made, but it made me happy to get her seal of approval.

Now in the quiet time of the night I think of two friends and worry… one’s husband had a heart transplant surgery last week.  The other is in a volatile situation with someone who should be her EX-husband and their son.  I haven’t heard from either of them the last couple of days and I am worried.  So I babble a little longer here and get some of the fear out on paper.  I am sure everything is fine but it just makes me aware of how far apart we are when I can’t just hop in the car and go she them.

I will stop babbling now.  Let you all get on to another blog to read or your own writing to do.  Thanks for stopping by!  Find your happiness today!  Have a great night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 73

As March begins I continue with my goal to find happiness and gratitude every day.  There is at least some small thing that can bring a smile and give you a moment to be grateful for.  Please join me in looking for the good moments of the day … it would be great if you would share them in the comments or on your own blog.  Be aware of the little wonders of the day!

Today was a pretty quiet day, but it got a little busier tonight.  My boyfriend had a meeting to go to tonight.  Just when he got home we had a visitor stop by.  She left and we did the unhealthy thing running short on time and got some fast food for dinner.  After dinner it was pretty much time for him to shower and go to bed.  I was waiting for my daughter to stop by at 10… it was closer to 11 when she was able to get here.  We had a nice little 5 minute chat.  She left and I had to still go see my Dad yet tonight.  When I got done there I swung by the post office to mail a package and the self-service station was unavailable due to maintenance… bummer!  So now my package has to wait until noon tomorrow.  Phew!  That was a lot to get through in just a few hours!

So the good of the day… since the visits have been fewer lately, even if it was just a short moment, I would have to say it was seeing my daughter that made me happy today.  And in retrospect I am grateful that I had a quiet day to save my energy for everything that happened tonight.  Now I think it is time to try to quiet back down for the day.

Day 85 – 100 Days of Happiness

It finally happened… my daughter had a day when she didn’t have to go into work until late and she had no other plans.  We were able to sit and relax and have coffee and lunch at a leisurely pace today.  She filled me in on all the latest happenings at work.  I enjoyed her company and stories.  With not being able to work it is good to still hear about some of the day-to-day happenings.  And I have met most of the people she works with and they are a good bunch of kids.  It probably wont be until next year now when we get to do lunch again… she has 3 different Christmas parties to go to, work and a social life.  Ah to be young again and full of energy!  🙂