Happy and Grateful – Day 189

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning. It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life. It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night. I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day. Join along in the comments or on your own blog. There is always good in every day.

Today was another day of doing very little except worry and deal with my depression and anxiety.  I escaped for a little in a letter to a friend dealing with the heat in Louisiana.  It was good to get lost in “happy thoughts” of a letter… I can sure paint a pretty picture when I want to… it made me happy.

I was also grateful the lines of communication are open.  My boyfriend has been kind of upset the last few days and I finally got him to talk about it today.  It comes down to his car troubles and what to do about it.  It is an old car, but it is a convertible.  It has been starting to need more and more repairs, but we have already put in a new engine, transmission and ragtop.  So where do you draw the line that it is not worth putting more into it and give it up?  He fell in love with the convertible but is now maybe regretting it.  We talked about it a while and are going to just look and see what is available in the used car lots and then worry about the next step.  I am glad he opened up.

The apartment is quiet, my boyfriend is already asleep and I should follow suit.  I am still pretty wired so sleep will not come easy, but maybe with my nighttime meds I can relax soon enough. Remember to find your happiness everyday!

 

Happy and Grateful – Day 167

June brings warmer weather and the start of summer.  Hopefully it brings many ideas from my muse too.  I continue to write for my challenge to find the things that make me happy and grateful each day this year.  Please feel free to join me in this challenge with comments about your happiness and gratitude or start your own blog.  There is always something good to find in each day.

It was a long day today.  I had my phone call with the new lawyer and I think we are back on track with my disability claim.  I have so many numbers and procedures floating around in my head it is a bit overwhelming.  But he is sending me paperwork to look over, it may make more sense in black and white.  I am happy he thinks we can progress further.

Then this afternoon my boyfriend called saying he needed a ride home from work, his car battery was dead.  For some reason the lights were on even though they were switched off… sounds like an expensive wiring issue.  So we managed to get the car charged and home.  Now we will see about repairs.

The anxiety and stress of the day has left me tired and hurting.  So it is another night of muscle relaxers and pain meds.  I have had to rely more on my meds and I really hate it, but in the same moment I am grateful that I have them when I need them.  But they do make me tired… so it is time to close the laptop.  Be grateful! 🙂

Happy and Grateful – Days 138 and 139

May has arrived and I hope it brings lots of Spring cheer with it.  I am in my fifth month now of taking time to acknowledge the things that make me happy and grateful every day… almost half way to my goal of a full year.  If you want to join in on this challenge please add your thoughts in the comments or start your own blog.  There is a lot to be happy and grateful for!

Have I mentioned before how I hate fatigue and fibro?  It hit me last night and has stuck with me all day.  I ache and an exhausted even though I have napped multiple times today.  We had a cold front move in and with it a bone chilling mist and wind… feels more like fall than spring.  So once again I find myself posting two days together and asking for forgiveness.  If I could have it any other way I would!

Yesterday I had to take my Dad into the doctor.  One of his x-rays came back with indications of maybe an enlarged heart.  So back to the cardiologist.  He was not convinced of the fact, but gave Dad a prescription to try to ease his shortness of breath.  It is very frustrating for him having had this problem for quite a while now and getting shuffled from one doctor to the next never getting anywhere with a reason.

But we got the appointment done and I ran a quick errand and then came home to nap a bit.  I took an anxiety pill and made it to the nights Al-anon meeting to try to grab a little peace of mind.  So I was happy to work the meeting into my night and grateful there were no major problems according to the doctor.

Today has been such a tired day.  The only thing I accomplished was loading the dishwasher and taking a check in for the electric bill.  I then went to the garage to see if they could fix my car, since the check engine light was on.  They hooked it up and reset things for me saying it may only be a little dust around the air filter.  Surprisingly enough there was no charge for that and I went on my way.  Time will tell now if it worked or not.

In spite of the fibro I still found some joy.  I was happy not to have to have any repairs done today.  And grateful I had the time to rest through my flair.  I hope tomorrow finds a little less pain and fatigue as my daughter has plans to take me somewhere for the afternoon, but it is a surprise where.  …now it is time to sleep again!  Yawn!