Master Magician

don’t lie to me
this was just an illusion
you seeming to care
when you had no intention to
you came in and stole my heart
apparently to be by my side
but that was just for show
one minute you’re there
then the next you have
vanished

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – illusion

Mumbles… Assay

Foghorn_Leghorn

My mind is muddled tonight. Assay is not a common part of my vocabulary and all I can think tonight is that would be the way to phonetically spell out Foghorn Leghorn saying “I say” with his thick southern accent. So instead of writing I am thinking about cartoons of my youth.

Truth be told I just feel pretty disconnected tonight. Had a cold shoulder reaction from a friend and my daughter both the last two days and I am just a little fed up with it. I care, I care a lot and maybe that is a character defect instead of a good thing. But to a certain extent you expect others to care back at least a fraction of what you give out. I have had too many “friends” be there and then on the flip of a switch be gone. I don’t get it. I don’t understand how you can act like a good friend and then up and turn silent… no text, no calls, no emails.

To my fault or credit, once I care about someone, I care forever. I spent nearly 30 years missing a friend from grade school… we finally found each other through Facebook about 3 years ago. But in that time I never stopped saying she was my friend. I still cared and wondered where she was and if she was happy.

In the past 5 years or so I have had 4 people I considered good friends go silent… how can you do that to a friend. If something is wrong bring it up, have a fight or something, but just becoming distant to NOTHING is so rude and HURTS LIKE HELL.

Well I am just rambling and spewing forth a bunch of pain…you have better blogs to get to. I do thank you for reading. I hope there are a few who made it this far tonight. For you I send wishes for a wonderful night/day!

Too Young

You showed interest in me

And seemed to care

Right when I felt

There was no one there

And I will forever be

Owing you some glory

For having the nerve

To listen to my story

Even though you left

You’re still in my heart

After helping me

To make a fresh start

I still will thank you today

For all that you did

I realize now

You were just a kid

Too young then

To be a part of my life

Too timid to handle

My pain and strife

But I’ll always miss your guidance

Beyond your years

You had a way

Of taming my fears

You’d Think I Would Learn

To educate is to teach, to learn something,

But how does one educate themselves?

I need to learn not to expect so much.

I need to accept others don’t care like I do.

I need to stop expecting a “how are you”

Because it just isn’t happening.

I need to stop hoping for a call “just because”

It is not something they will do.

I need to cram for this test called life

For it is not the lessons I thought I would learn