He Said She Said

He said I’m going for a walk

She said no, we must talk

While the child is asleep

This pain will not keep

He said she was laughable

She said he was culpable

He said he tried

She said he lied

He said he loved her

She said are you sure

He wanted to stay

She moved away

And standing in the dark                          

A boy and his dog Bark

Alone and so scared

He felt no one cared

They had been in the heat of the moment

And left the child with the torment

That he had been bad

He was incredibly sad

And he cried all night long

For what he thought he’d done wrong

And the husband and wife

Had ruined his life

With the words they had said

When they thought he was in bed


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – culpable https://fivedotoh.com/2020/07/08/fowc-with-fandango-culpable/

(photo by June from Pexels)

A Ring And A King

I took the phone and dialed

The number of my child

We had a talk

Then I took a walk

Because the weather was kind of mild

 

And while I was walking

A royal hawk was squawking

I was too close to his nest

Where his child did rest

So I bowed a farewell to the king

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – child

Mumbles … Tantrum

I was one of those lucky parents… my daughter never really had a fit or threw a temper tantrum. I am not sure how it came to pass, but my daughter was really a very good child. I can only recall one outburst she had on the way into a restaurant and I just held her until it passed and then she was fine and we went in to eat.

I recall one time as a toddler, her being insistent on doing something she wasn’t supposed to (I can’t even recall what it was) and after multiple warnings I gave her a small slap on the back of her hand. Oh, the look on her face was like I had just killed her best friend! She was so shocked and stunned. Then after she thought about it for a minute, she began to cry. Of course I had instantly felt bad but had to keep a straight face and explain through the tears that it was not allowed. She never did it again.

We had the standard talk with her about not putting anything into the VCR (do you remember those? ) and one day she walked right up to her Dad and confessed to putting something into the VCR. Of course we couldn’t punish her for telling the truth.

Even in her teenage years she was a good child. Did good in school and had her little circle of friends that would come by. Aside from the one who tried to eat us out of house and home, they were all pretty good too.

She has made my life so special and I couldn’t have asked for a better daughter. No notes sent home from school, no visits from the police, no late night calls of distress of any kind and never a tantrum. Yep, I am truly a lucky one.

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – tantrum

They Grow Up So Fast

She runs full force into a puddle
Splashing and laughing out loud
She rushes out the door
To take her first trip to school on the bus
She bursts thru the door
Telling me she made the cheer squad
She lets out a little scream
Letting me know she was just asked to prom
…so much energy
So much joy
I try to soak in every moment
Because too soon she will move
So excited to start her own life
Being less a part of mine
That is the way it must be
And I will be proud of the woman she’ll become

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – energy

Is Mommy Ok

She attacked the room
Like a wild savage
Throwing things
Ripping papers
And screaming
I couldn’t say for sure
What she actually did
I only heard it
While cowering in my bed
Covers tight around me
While mom ended her bender
In a fit of rage that night
I never will forget
The pain and fear I felt
Only ten and afraid
But worried about my mom…

Happy and Grateful – Day 44

This is February and I am well on my way to attaining a goal I set for myself.  I am trying to post every day with happiness and gratitude that I have encountered that day.  There is always something no matter how small it may seem that we can be grateful for and even just a shared smile can make you happy if only for a moment.  Please try to find those moments for yourself too…  if you’re up to it I would love if you would share them too in the comments or your own blog.  Being aware can really turn a day around!

I have struggled today.  I feel I hurt someone unintentionally, my boyfriend has been really distant and I forgot my morning meds again.  Not a great day.  And by tonight I am really feeling the effects of it all.  I keep fighting tears, even though I know I should just let them fall… maybe after I get all my emotions out one way or another.  Right now we work on happy.

So on days like this it is really important to find the good, the happy moments.  I had that moment when I was taking my Dad to the clinic for a blood draw.  Walking to the lab I have to go past pediatrics and this little boy, couldn’t have been more than 18 months, 2 years at most… he stopped right next to me, looked up puzzled and then gave me back the biggest grin when I smiled at him.  That was a moment of true happiness.  I am grateful for simple pleasures like that today and everyday.  There is something about a child’s smile, most of the time it is so honest and precious.  I hope someone smiled at you today and made your day better too!  🙂