I hate to cry. I have been on the edge of tears for several days now and doing everything I can to keep from crying. I know that is wrong to do that… the emotions are there for a reason and I should act on them. I do all I can not to most of the time though. But today I had enough. Financial worries, chronic pain, anxiety, depression and my boyfriend being in a foul mood the last couple of days… it all took its’ toll today and I broke down.
When my eyes were red and tender. When my nose was stuffed up. When I had a crying headache…. things changed. I felt a heavy weight off my shoulders I had been carrying for a few days now. I felt life was not quite as desperate. I felt more free inside. I don’t know if happy is the right word or not, but I felt a whole lot closer to happy after i was done. I talked to a friend and he helped to calm me down some. I was now exhausted most of the rest of the day… but it was a pleasant tired.
I hate to cry, but sometimes it is just what is needed to make the day happy again. (((HUGS))) to all who need it… be happy.