Introspective… a look inside myself
It should be good to reflect
On what I am all about
But instead my depression
Leaves me feeling negative
And finding all my faults
The demons all come out
Taunting me to find
One shred of someone decent
Others would like to know
But often I come up empty
And I still sit alone
Believing I’m not worth it
Not worth anything at all
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – introspective
As the sunlight fades
The shadows grow deeper
And my demons
Try to take over
Telling me I’m no good
No one cares
And I just bring pain
To those I love
I tell myself to beware
Those demons speak lies
Twist up my thoughts
And leave me broken
Tonight as the shadows grow
I must try to stay strong
Stronger than the darkness
That haunts my nights
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – beware
I can surmount the pain
I can defeat the feelings of despair
I can triumph over my demons
only if you are in my corner
only if you stand by my side
only if you give me your strength
together we will survive
together we will thrive
together we will live
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – surmount
Sign on the dotted line
Give me your soul
Turn your allegiance to me
And I will make your dreams reality
Imagine all you ever desire to be yours
All it costs it your eternal life
Sign the contract and you’ll be mine
But with so many riches beyond your fantasies
You’ll have wealth, fame and love from all
You’ll never be alone again
Or ache for love on lonely nights
All it costs is your eternal life
Sign your name in blood
And the deal is done
I promise you happiness
Trust me it’s true
You will never be denied again
All it cost if your eternal life
… I slowly sign
Beaten by my demons
Ready to surrender
Eager for a taste of happiness
Unwilling to live life in this pain
All it will cost me is my eternal life
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – contract
The sun sets and darkness spreads
Creeping into the corners of my mind
Loneliness begins to seep into my thoughts
As the pain of the day settles in my bones
My demons begin to awaken
It’s an all too often occurrence
As the waking nightmare is real
Nowhere to escape the agony
That fills my being
Both body and soul
I am alone and hurting
The only thing that gives me some release
Is putting pen to paper
Slowly scratching out the aching
With words of healing and happiness
Beginning the therapeutic recovery
If only for a moment or two of peace
It is restorative enough
That I can escape into brief sleep
Long enough to greet the sunrise of a new day
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – nightmare
In the dead of night
The darkness falls
Sending the masses home
Leaving a stark barren street
Echos of a distant train
Split the silence
A cat is on a silent prowl
Looking for food
And as you sleep
Dreams floating through
The madness comes to call
Sending you into nightmares
Where fate takes control
And you must meet
Your demons face to face
For the lies you told
Will always come after you
Sooner or later
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – stark
Let me live
In a primitive hut
On a deserted island
Away from the past
Let me live
A day in peace
Folded into seclusion
Away from my demons
Let me live
In the silence of solitude
On a hope and a dream
Away from your grasp
Through my fears and pains
Losses and gains
Just let me live
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge – primitive
“I can’t drown my demons, they know how to swim.”… words posted on Facebook today. Knowing the person who posted it I would be willing to bet they are song lyrics, but for me it is reality. And I am so tired of pushing them under the water only to have them pop to the surface again and again and again… Perhaps today I can write a few of them away. Expose their evil to the world leaving them a little weaker. Giving me more strength to hide behind the mask one more day. Maybe leaving a small legacy behind if the demons should finally win someday…
The demons scar my mind
with thoughts of worthlessness
with feelings of abandonment
with fears of isolation.
The demons control my days
filled with tears
filled with pain
filled with exhaustion.
The demons ruin my future
taking away friends
taking away faith
taking away hope.
The demons must be stopped
before I erode
before I vanish
before I die.
(Mental illness is a serious disease. I am seeking medical help and trying new things all the time to find a brighter future for me and my family. I strongly suggest anyone who has depression to get help. NO ONE is ever alone.. call someone, talk to others, get help. There is always someone available 24/7 at the national suicide hotline and limited hours with their online chat as well. 1-800-273-8255 and www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org Don’t let the demons win.)
