Happy and Grateful – Day 191

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning. It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life. It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night. I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day. Join along in the comments or on your own blog. There is always good in every day.

Today was another drive into the city for a doctor appointment.  I think I may have found the perfect appointment time.  I was between towns for most of the lunch rush and out of the city well before off work rush hour.  I hate driving in all that traffic.  I was grateful to make the trip without incident.

My boyfriend also saw his doctor today and I took my Dad to the clinic for a blood test.  It was doctor day I guess.  But everyone seemed to check out ok so I was happy about that.

Sinuses are killing me tonight.  I think I will try some nasal spray and then head of to dream land.  The hour plus car drive takes a lot out of me.  Hope you all have a good night or day depending on where you are.  Stay grateful!

Happy and Grateful – Day 171

June brings warmer weather and the start of summer.  Hopefully it brings many ideas from my muse too.  I continue to write for my challenge to find the things that make me happy and grateful each day this year.  Please feel free to join me in this challenge with comments about your happiness and gratitude or start your own blog.  There is always something good to find in each day.

Happy first day of summer!  Now the days grow hotter and shorter.  And it was a hot one today.  Back near 90’s again today.  At least the humidity wasn’t really high.  I only had to be briefly in it as I went to the local mall to buy the dress pants to go with the shirt and light sweater I got Saturday for the wedding this weekend.  At least they are saying nice temps for that day… although they keep going back and forth on rain chances.  Last I heard it was a 30% chance.  No one wants rain on their wedding day.

But today was pretty mild and that was good as I was having issues with my anxiety.  I was shaking so bad when I went to try on the dress pants I was afraid I might rip them.  So once again I had to take a Lorazepam.  I see my meds doctor this week and we will see what she thinks we should do.  The stress is pretty high right now so we may just keep meds where they are.  I am grateful she is a pretty easy to get along with doctor.  And best of all she LISTENS!  I hate seeing someone who seems rushed and only half paying attention.  I am grateful to have this doctor – really all my doctors I have now are pretty good, I am lucky and I know it.

The rest of the day was pretty routine.  Was close to napping tonight before dinner, but my boyfriend came away from his computer and we started talking about dinner and I got my second wind.  I went to my Dad’s to fix him dinner with no problems.  And now I am relaxing with my laptop while the day comes to a close.  It is good to have just an “ordinary” day sometimes, it makes you appreciate the good ones more.  I guess my happy for the day was a guilty pleasure.  When I was at the mall I got a cup of pretzel bites with a little cheese sauce…. yummy!  I may only get them once or twice a year so it is not like I eat them all the time.

I should go read a couple more posts and then call it a night.  Have to take my boyfriend to work again in the morning.  I wish you all happiness and gratitude for the wonderful things in your day!  Good night.

Happy and Grateful – Days 138 and 139

May has arrived and I hope it brings lots of Spring cheer with it.  I am in my fifth month now of taking time to acknowledge the things that make me happy and grateful every day… almost half way to my goal of a full year.  If you want to join in on this challenge please add your thoughts in the comments or start your own blog.  There is a lot to be happy and grateful for!

Have I mentioned before how I hate fatigue and fibro?  It hit me last night and has stuck with me all day.  I ache and an exhausted even though I have napped multiple times today.  We had a cold front move in and with it a bone chilling mist and wind… feels more like fall than spring.  So once again I find myself posting two days together and asking for forgiveness.  If I could have it any other way I would!

Yesterday I had to take my Dad into the doctor.  One of his x-rays came back with indications of maybe an enlarged heart.  So back to the cardiologist.  He was not convinced of the fact, but gave Dad a prescription to try to ease his shortness of breath.  It is very frustrating for him having had this problem for quite a while now and getting shuffled from one doctor to the next never getting anywhere with a reason.

But we got the appointment done and I ran a quick errand and then came home to nap a bit.  I took an anxiety pill and made it to the nights Al-anon meeting to try to grab a little peace of mind.  So I was happy to work the meeting into my night and grateful there were no major problems according to the doctor.

Today has been such a tired day.  The only thing I accomplished was loading the dishwasher and taking a check in for the electric bill.  I then went to the garage to see if they could fix my car, since the check engine light was on.  They hooked it up and reset things for me saying it may only be a little dust around the air filter.  Surprisingly enough there was no charge for that and I went on my way.  Time will tell now if it worked or not.

In spite of the fibro I still found some joy.  I was happy not to have to have any repairs done today.  And grateful I had the time to rest through my flair.  I hope tomorrow finds a little less pain and fatigue as my daughter has plans to take me somewhere for the afternoon, but it is a surprise where.  …now it is time to sleep again!  Yawn!

Happy and Grateful – Day 121

May has arrived and I hope it brings lots of Spring cheer with it.  I am in my fifth month now of taking time to acknowledge the things that make me happy and grateful every day… almost half way to my goal of a full year.  If you want to join in on this challenge please add your thoughts in the comments or start your own blog.  There is a lot to be happy and grateful for!

Today was … you guessed it – cloudy and rainy and cold.  In other words icky!  I guess I am glad that is all it was, no tornadoes, no floods and no snow.  Some places were not as lucky.  It still didn’t help my mood today as if anything could have cheered me up today.

My friend is headed “home” on Wednesday and I had to say goodbye to her today.  I am worried she is headed back to a messy situation and I am afraid for her.  She promises me if things are still or get bad she will hop in her car and come back here.  I want to believe her.  So today I gave her a hug and fought back tears telling her goodbye.

In spite of the tears there has to be good.  This starts a new week and my doctor is back from his vacation so I can finally talk to him about my friend returning South… I just have to hold on until Thursday.

I am still holding onto the hope that all this rain is bringing some beautiful flowers our way soon.  Now in the next few days I can hope that it will warm up and be sunny enough to take some pictures of them.

So I am happy to be looking forward to my therapist session on Thursday (and feel a little better knowing if things bother me too much my doctor is back and I can always call to talk to him before hand).  I am grateful the weather is starting to break up tonight and will bring sun and clear skies by morning.

Happy and Grateful – Day 82

As March begins I continue with my goal to find happiness and gratitude every day.  There is at least some small thing that can bring a smile and give you a moment to be grateful for.  Please join me in looking for the good moments of the day … it would be great if you would share them in the comments or on your own blog.  Be aware of the little wonders of the day!

Today was a regroup and recharge day.  I have been going since Monday and it caught up with me.  Some of you may have noticed my H&G post was a little late for yesterday.  I had it all written but fell asleep with my laptop open before I could post it.  The fatigue won again!  But I took it easy today and feel pretty good tonight.  I still have stress… always stress and fatigue, but I am moving forward instead of standing still.

My happiness for the day had to be some words of encouragement from my therapist.  He reminded me of the power I do have over my own decisions and it is ok to trust them.  Now if I could just figure out what my decisions are!  But I am grateful it was once again nice enough to walk that block there to the clinic.  Some areas of the state had thunderstorms this afternoon but it only rumbled a little here.  Now if the grass would just green up and the trees would fill with some leaves maybe I would have something to look at on the walk there.  …it’s coming, slowly but surely I know it is!  Hope you all rest well…*yawn* time to read a little and wind down for the night!

Happy and Grateful – Day 68

As March begins I continue with my goal to find happiness and gratitude every day.  There is at least some small thing that can bring a smile and give you a moment to be grateful for.  Please join me in looking for the good moments of the day … it would be great if you would share them in the comments or on your own blog.  Be aware of the little wonders of the day!

I have been a bundle of nerves today.  We are having our apartment inspected tomorrow and I have gone through a million things they could find wrong with it in my head.  I have never been a neat-nick but I try to keep things clean, although a little cluttered.  Like my table beside me – I know where everything is in each pile, don’t mess it up.

My mom was never one to do a lot of house work.  She had me and my sister to help with dishes, dinner, laundry, trash and vacuuming… there wasn’t much more to do.  So needless to say I tend to take after her a little, plus since I have gotten fibro there are days I just can’t bend over to fill the dishwasher.  I can’t get my arms to hold up a load of towels to fold.  There just isn’t the energy some days.

So this inspection tomorrow has me on edge and in some kind of perfect planning it was my weekly therapist visit today – the day before the inspection.  I of course talked to him about my fears.  Fears of something being wrong, “strangers” in my apartment, us getting a long list of things to do we cannot handle or afford… I am really good at cooking up fears.  But like I said the timing was perfect with my doctor’s appointment.

Once again I find I am grateful to have someone to talk to about what I obsess over.  I am grateful he will listen and impart his own wisdom to the situation.  I am was happy it was just warm enough to walk to my appointment without my winter coat today.  (The snow comes tomorrow night again)  One of my biggest fears… the day my doctor decides to retire!

Happy and Grateful – Day 52

This is February and I am well on my way to attaining a goal I set for myself.  I am trying to post every day with happiness and gratitude that I have encountered that day.  There is always something no matter how small it may seem that we can be grateful for and even just a shared smile can make you happy if only for a moment.  Please try to find those moments for yourself too…  if you’re up to it I would love if you would share them too in the comments or your own blog.  Being aware can really turn a day around!

It looks like we have one nice day coming tomorrow and we are done with our warm spell.  I should have known snow would return soon.  In Iowa when the high school teams gather for the state basketball championships we almost always seem to get snow some where during the tournaments and the boys started playing this week I think.  SO I need to pull up some energy and get to a park tomorrow because I just didn’t have the energy today.

It has been a tough day.  Took Dad to the doctor and once again hit a brick wall on why he keeps getting dizzy.  So there are two more tests to take next week.  Does not seem to end.  And he is so frustrated with the doctors turning him in circles and passing the blame back and forth to different specialist… it gets old fast.  Add that frustration with another flare of my fibro and I was glad to see the sunset.

The nice thing about a bad day is that it will end… even many in a row will eventually end.  For that fact I am happy.  I am always grateful to work through the pain of the day, fight the fatigue,  and trudge through the fibro fog.  The term they use on some of the websites it a fibro warrior, some days it does feel like a battle.  But minute by minute I will win. Now on to that warm day tomorrow!

Happy and Grateful – Day 40

This is February and I am well on my way to attaining a goal I set for myself.  I am trying to post every day with happiness and gratitude that I have encountered that day.  There is always something no matter how small it may seem that we can be grateful for and even just a shared smile can make you happy if only for a moment.  Please try to find those moments for yourself too…  if you’re up to it I would love if you would share them too in the comments or your own blog.  Being aware can really turn a day around!

The fatigue got the best of me for the first half of the day.  I was so exhausted I talked to my therapist about it today and he mentioned a few things I had and some I hadn’t heard before to combat “normal” tiredness.  He did tell me he thought with the long week I have had my body was just needing some extra sleep to recover a little.

First thing is move.  I have heard that before and it works fine on those days the stiffness and pain from the fibro isn’t too bad.  Next is get some light… natural light being the best.  And he said to try cold… put a wash cloth with cold water on it on the back of my neck.  I have also heard a glass of cold water is more effective than a cup of coffee.  Or a nice crisp apple to eat first thing will wake you up.  I guess it gives me more options of things to try when I am just absolutely wiped out.  I am grateful he took the time to talk about my sleep with me.  I am happy I have such a good doctor that does not stay with a strict plan to follow each time I am there and we can talk about anything.  Do you know about any “tricks” to stay awake when all your body wants to do is sleep?

Happy and Grateful – Day 12

I have undertaken a challenge this year.  I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel.  No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment.  Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day.  Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog.  Let’s find some fun!

This was a day to try to mend a bit.  I made an error and had run out of scheduled appointments with my therapist last week… I really missed being able to talk to him.  So it was nice to get back to the routine of that weekly appointment.  He has been a good doctor for me to share anything and everything with.  He of course does not have any answers for me, but helps me find my own.

It is nice to know that I can weekly talk about those concerns I have and help get rid of some of the anxiety and depression I face.  I am happy this doctor is such a good “fit” and I am back on his schedule… happy and grateful.

Happy and Grateful – Day 10

I have undertaken a challenge this year.  I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel.  No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment.  Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day.  Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog.  Let’s find some fun!

Anyone who has been reading along with my journey to happiness knows I had a rough weekend followed by a fairly good start to the week.  But all the activity left me pretty fatigued again.  But I still had to take my Dad to a doctor’s appointment so I gathered all my reserve energy and went.  I guess the simple truth of the day is I am happy I was able to get my Dad to the appointment without incident – we had light freezing drizzle that left the roads slick.  Plenty of ice melt on the sidewalk to the car and there is a covered drop off door at the clinic so I did not have to worry about him taking another fall.

The doctor appointment was good.  All the lab work he had done last week came back clear except one test that indicated a possible bacterial infection.  So he is on a low dose antibiotic and hopefully on the way to feeling better soon.  I am grateful those tests did not show something worse wrong with him.  That is always good news to hear.