The Letter

Dear Me,

I didn’t mean to hurt you

And lead you down this path,

But my emotions were all tangles up

In thoughts about the past.

I didn’t mean to jeopardize

The future you had planned,

In the heat of the moment,

It just got out of hand.

I could say it was a mistake

That won’t be made again,

But I can never be sure

Of anything again.

Anyway, I have to go now

It is time to face the truth

And hope that things will fall in place

Not crash right through the roof.

So, I write to ask forgiveness

And hope you will comply

Because I can’t live without you,

Signed lovingly, Myself and I

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – anyway

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Upon The Wind

Release your inner turmoil

Let the emotion seep out of you

Like ink from the pen of a poet

Scribbling out his frustrations and desires

Free the hesitations that hold you back

Let them run wild

Like horses across the plains

Racing towards their freedom

Discharge your dreams upon the wind

Let them climb into the future

Like eagles flying high

Soaring over their lands

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – release

Pure

I turn to you

And I smile ear to ear

Nothing was funny

But sitting with you

I experience pure bliss

 

I turn to you

And take a deep sigh

I am physically spent

Because lying with you

I experience pure desire

 

I turn to you

And don’t know what to do

Delirious with emotions

Knowing life with you

I experience pure love

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – delirious

Turn Back Time

You have a way
Of taking me back
To the days of our youth
And our young loves first bloom
The things you do
Resonate old feelings
And stir deep emotions
Inside of my heart
A simple note
A single rose
A trip to where we shared
Our very first kiss
Your thoughtfulness soothes me
And rekindles old flames
So every day is new again
With you by my side

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – resonate

Mumbles… Assay

Foghorn_Leghorn

My mind is muddled tonight. Assay is not a common part of my vocabulary and all I can think tonight is that would be the way to phonetically spell out Foghorn Leghorn saying “I say” with his thick southern accent. So instead of writing I am thinking about cartoons of my youth.

Truth be told I just feel pretty disconnected tonight. Had a cold shoulder reaction from a friend and my daughter both the last two days and I am just a little fed up with it. I care, I care a lot and maybe that is a character defect instead of a good thing. But to a certain extent you expect others to care back at least a fraction of what you give out. I have had too many “friends” be there and then on the flip of a switch be gone. I don’t get it. I don’t understand how you can act like a good friend and then up and turn silent… no text, no calls, no emails.

To my fault or credit, once I care about someone, I care forever. I spent nearly 30 years missing a friend from grade school… we finally found each other through Facebook about 3 years ago. But in that time I never stopped saying she was my friend. I still cared and wondered where she was and if she was happy.

In the past 5 years or so I have had 4 people I considered good friends go silent… how can you do that to a friend. If something is wrong bring it up, have a fight or something, but just becoming distant to NOTHING is so rude and HURTS LIKE HELL.

Well I am just rambling and spewing forth a bunch of pain…you have better blogs to get to. I do thank you for reading. I hope there are a few who made it this far tonight. For you I send wishes for a wonderful night/day!

All Filled Up

Strong emotions get bottled-up inside of me

I need a way to funnel them out

And free my mind and heart

But just when I start to feel at ease

Another wave washes over me

And I am drowning in a sea

If only I was able to control what I feel

Taking it little by little instead of all at once

Maybe I could handle some kind of acceptance

Until then I roll with the rhythm of the waves

In and out like a wild ride

Keeping it all inside

Happy and Grateful – Day 264

The kids are all in school, there is a growing crisp in the air.  Football games and shorter days fill the weeks.  It is September.  I have accomplished another month of acknowledging my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join me as I continue my goal of one year on this journey.  Please join in with your happiness and gratitude in the comments or your own blog post.  No matter how bad the day is there is always something worthwhile in the day.

Today was a roller coaster day.  I just felt very up and down emotionally.  I met with my doctor and felt pretty good afterwards, but it did not last.  Felt better when my boyfriend came home but now I have crashed again.  …wouldn’t be so bad if I liked roller coasters.

I am still going to dig to find the good.  Today I was happy to hear from my daughter that she will be spending the evening of her birthday with us.  We will treat her to a dinner out and open gifts.  I didn’t know if she wanted to plan something with her friends or not so it was good to hear that she will be here that night.  Hard to believe she will be turning 23 already.

Now for my moment of gratitude… or actually my collection of gratitudes.  Since I saw today was World Gratitude Day I thought maybe I would do more today.  Some things are a daily thing but they are very important.  Home, food and clothing.  My family is my world… and that of course includes my cat.  I have friends I would be lost without.  I have a very good life…

There are things that I wish for, but all in all I have what I need right now.  And on days like today I have to remember that.  What are you grateful for on this World Gratitude Day?

Time to listen to my drooping eyes and close them.  Remember to feel your gratitude and find your happiness.  Have a good night/day!