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My head is pounding

And so is my heart

It feels like it could explode

One beat after another

Each stronger than before

Sounds begin to garble

Words no longer recognized

I have tunnel vision

And the air is thin

Not now please

Not again

But I have no control

Anxiety reigns again

Taking over my body

Twisting how it works

My heart too fast

My breathing rapid

And a million thoughts a second

Occupy my brain

All while I feel blinded

Numb really

To the world around me

I have no choice

I must just ride out the storm

Pray no dangers lurk

Because right now

I would never see them

Trust in my surroundings

I will make it to the other side

I may be exhausted

But I survived

One breath at a time

*****

Written for Fandango’s One Word Challenge (FOWC) – anxiety

Over and Over Again

I have been busy helping my daughter and her fiance paint and clean their new house the last two days and I was so tired after all that work, I came home and went right to bed and then slept a good deal of the day today.  So, since I am behind by two days I will impart on you the words of the great choreographer Martha Graham –

” Practice means to perform, over and over again in the face of all obstacles, some act of vision, of faith, of desire. Practice is a means of inviting the perfection desired.”

 

For Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – practice

Exhausted

Like a dying cell phone

I am drained

Too many things to do

Not enough time

Just like that battery

I need a recharge

But sleep doesn’t help

And medicine is temporary

There is no solution

I just have to wait it out

Hoping soon I will rebound

And be able to live again

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – battery

Happy and Grateful – Day 179

June brings warmer weather and the start of summer. Hopefully it brings many ideas from my muse too. I continue to write for my challenge to find the things that make me happy and grateful each day this year. Please feel free to join me in this challenge with comments about your happiness and gratitude or start your own blog. There is always something good to find in each day.

I’m exhausted!  The day has been filled with much too much on very little sleep.  So I will probably keep this short and sweet so I can close my eyes…let’s just hope they don’t close before I post this.

I had shopping to do for my Dad today, taking and picking up my boyfriend from work, coffee group for my Dad, and dinner for my Dad… phew!  I got through it all, but it was kind of staggered throughout the day so it wasn’t all at once.  And I did take a short nap in there too.  I am grateful I had the energy to get it all done.

We had some thunderstorms roll though this afternoon… I am also grateful we did not have any tornadoes as there were some sighted in the state with this system.  I just hope the rain knocked some of the humidity out of the air for tomorrow, but I doubt it.

Today I got an email from a very close friend.  She was like a big sister when I was growing up.  She had to move back home to California and I have missed her ever since.  She has been having some health issues and I sent her a letter last week and she replied with an email I was so happy to get.

Ok, the Sandman is here with a BIG bag of sand threatening to knock me out so I should go.  Hope everyone had a good day!