Stumped

This one has me stumped.  I have tried poems and stories and I don’t like where any of them are headed.  Maybe I am just having a lackadaisical day after a busy week of doctor’s appointments and pool therapy.  My flare is finally starting to wan a bit, not gone but better.  The pain, fatigue and depression really can wear me out and zap my enthusiasm.

But I am still determined to get caught up within a day or two by the end of the month.  So I hope to post at least twice a day and I can get back on track.  I hope all of you readers in the United States have a wonderful Memorial Day weekend.  Thanks for having patience with me!

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Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – lackadaisical

Happy and Grateful – Day 64

As March begins I continue with my goal to find happiness and gratitude every day.  There is at least some small thing that can bring a smile and give you a moment to be grateful for.  Please join me in looking for the good moments of the day … it would be great if you would share them in the comments or on your own blog.  Be aware of the little wonders of the day!

Today was a little bit better day… but I think I over did it and will pay tomorrow.  I still enjoyed myself so it was worth it.  My daughter and I went to the theater to see La La Land.  It was good.  I wont ruin it for anyone but the music was good and there was dancing… I really would like to hope its success will help musicals make a comeback.

My daughter and I then ran a couple of errands and stopped to get some coffee.  She has been busy with work so I have not seen her as often as I would like so it really made me happy to spend the afternoon with her.  I was grateful the flare had finally subsided a bit to let me enjoy the time.  Now if I can just move when I wake up tomorrow… LOL. (I have to laugh or I might just want to cry)

Happy and Grateful – Day 28

I have undertaken a challenge this year.  I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel.  No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment.  Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day.  Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog.  Let’s find some fun!

I woke up today in a full fibromyalgia flare.  I was just out of 7 hours of sleep and I felt like I had been awake for three days straight.  Add in the head to toe pain and body aches… it was not looking to be a great day.

I did what I had to do to take care of me.  I took a couple of naps today and dug out my pain pills… I hate to take them very often because I don’t want them to lose their effectiveness.  I used my heating pad and put off the laundry one day.  I am hoping to get to sleep earlier tonight and with any luck the fatigue wont be as bad tomorrow.  It doesn’t always work that way though.  If it is still bad I will nap some more and adjust what I need to.

I am happy I have some things that can help ease the pain when I am hurting, I have the freedom to nap when the fatigue is bad and chance to rearrange things I don’t have the energy to do.  I am grateful there is always a chance tomorrow will be better… that is a hope I have to hang onto.

Happy and Grateful – Day 21

I have undertaken a challenge this year.  I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel.  No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment.  Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day.  Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog.  Let’s find some fun!

I stayed in bed today… probably for too long.  I just was so tired.  I fought the fatigue and didn’t go back to sleep, but I didn’t get the energy to move for quite a while.  I hate when days start off like this.  It makes it seem like I am fighting from behind to catch up all day.  Add in the fatigue and I never get ahead or even break even.  So I am trying to learn to just accept my limitations on these kinds of days.  But acceptance is not easy.

I limited what I did today down to the necessities, no extras.  I postponed a trip to the store for a day with more energy.  I hate the way fibromyalgia robs me of so much energy but I am getting better at recognizing it and adjusting.  At least the pain level was not higher along with the fatigue this flare.

I can be happy in the way I am learning to deal with my illness even if I hate it.  I am grateful that I have medicine that helps and the ability to work things around my flares.  I hope this is a short one and I am back on a more positive day tomorrow.