You Asked… I Hesitated (FOWC)

Against my better judgment
I finally opened up
You had asked me how I was doing
And I just told you everything
I told you of the hurt and pain
Of the lies and loneliness
I told you how I dreaded home
But feared to be away
It was like a weight was lifted
You rescued me from the dark
You were there for me when I needed you
It awakened something in me
Some small hope
That life was far from over
And I am still grateful you asked
And took the time to listen

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – judgment

Put It All In The Past (FOWC)

Will I ever know the truth
Especially now that you’re gone
You would always talk about her
And you often worked late
It was easy for me to suspect
Those conversations were not all innocent
And those late nights were not lonely
But I think I need to let it go
Forgive you if you did
Dismiss it if you didn’t
It doesn’t change much
Just holds my heart in anguish
And gives birth to useless thoughts
So where ever you are now
Rest easy
The past is over and I can finally
Release you

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – suspect

Will You? (FOWC)

Will you continue to be my friend…
When I forget to call
When I miss your birthday
When I can’t come to dinner
Will you continue to be my friend…
When I have a panic attack at your house
When I cry over the phone
When I reach out in desperation
Will you continue to be my friend…
When I can’t leave my house anymore
When I anxiety makes me physically ill
When I stay in bed for weeks from depression
Will you continue to be my friend?

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – continue

Medicinal Ink (FOWC)

The sun sets and darkness spreads
Creeping into the corners of my mind
Loneliness begins to seep into my thoughts
As the pain of the day settles in my bones
My demons begin to awaken
It’s an all too often occurrence
As the waking nightmare is real
Nowhere to escape the agony
That fills my being
Both body and soul
I am alone and hurting
The only thing that gives me some release
Is putting pen to paper
Slowly scratching out the aching
With words of healing and happiness
Beginning the therapeutic recovery
If only for a moment or two of peace
It is restorative enough
That I can escape into brief sleep
Long enough to greet the sunrise of a new day

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – nightmare

More (FOWC)

You captured my attention
With your straight forward attitude
Never afraid of the truth
Willing to stand strong
Even if it was against the tide

Then you showed me
You had a softer side
A gentle nature you often hid
And I began to see
There was so much more to you

You appeared to be fearless
So strong it radiated from you
And you were enthusiastic
About your own plans
For a brighter future

You became my friend
More than a love
Always there for each other
Hand in hand and
Soul to soul

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – captured

Nothing Special (FOWC)

People have called me
Strong
Brave
Heroic
But I don’t feel
I deserve this kind of praise
No kudos for me
I did what had to be done
I just sat back
And let the doctors do the work
No I am not fearless
Cancer scared me to the core
And still haunts me
From time to time
I am human
And all I know is now
I am still alive

 

I often discussed this with a fellow cancer patient and we agreed we really didn’t DO anything, except follow doctor’s orders.  Sadly she lost her battle to ovarian cancer about 10 years ago.  She is still missed.  I will be approaching 15 years since my breast cancer diagnosis next month and I appreciate every day I get!

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – kudos

Less Than Perfect (FOWC)

Abandonment from Momma
The fist from Dad
His gifts of childhood
One bruise at a time
Dodging the temper
From an empty bottle
Knowing it would still come
Sooner or later
But he broke free
The tender age of 16
Learned about life
In the back of a bar
And the corner of the street
Worked hard
To pave his way
Living honestly
With kindness
Trying to find some peace
In a less than perfect life

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – temper

Try A Date, Test Fate (FOWC)

Marriage is not for the weak
The hardened or bleak
It takes love yes
But more not less
You really have to try
And sometimes cry
But if you’re estranged
It might be arranged
To go on a date
To look out for hate
And see if you’ll fight
For true love that night
And in the end
Still be a friend

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – estranged

Pledge of Words (FOWC)

I pledge allegiance
To the words
That fuel my passion
to write each day
and to the emotions
for which I’m known
One poet
With faithful muse
In literary wisdom
For all

(My apologies …. All I could think of was the pledge of allegiance and I tried my best to adapt it to a writer’s pledge but it is now 3am and I have not slept well the last few days. I feel like my brain is a dried up sponge. LOL)

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – allegiance