I scream, you scream, we all scream for ice cream! Ok, so maybe there was no ice cream but there was cake! I missed posting last night as it was my birthday, and I was fortunate enough to spend it with those I care about. It started with a few posts on Facebook, I got serenaded on the phone by a dear friend, got special gifts in my Animal Crossing game, had dinner and played cards with my daughter and her fiancé, and then went back to spend the late evening with another friend in Animal Crossing. It was a wonderful day. One of the best ones I have had in a while… but I think it was because I only took half of the new med I have been struggling with.
Today it was back to the regular dose and I slept off and on through much of the afternoon. And I know sleep is not far away tonight as I took my meds earlier for a morning scheduled doctor’s appointment. I just really hate the way this med makes me feel and it has really done nothing for my anxiety. Today my boyfriend came to give me some cabbage to chew on while he was putting together a large salad for dinner… I saw his hand and was terrified I was looking at spider legs and freaked out. Yeah, my anxiety is still alive and well.
So, I have one more week of this shit. Then I will see my doctor again to discuss my lack of progress, actually I think things have gotten worse. If there is not a change of some kind I really will scream. BUT in the meantime, I will remember having a good day on Saturday. After all I finally got the elusive blue rose in my Animal Crossing game!
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – scream
“I said, ‘what about our past’ and he didn’t miss a beat saying, ‘I have moved forward.’ Can you believe that he was so callous?” Beth said as she reached for her coffee cup. “Is he so conceited to sit around and think I am pining over what could have been? I mean I know I had the hots for him in my younger days, but I have moved on in a lot of ways too. I just don’t blab it out to him so callously.”
Hannah set her cup down and said, “My brother has no tact. He never has and never will. I am sorry he was such a jerk to you. Want me to beat him up for you like in the old days?”
“Hannah, I think the days of you kicking his but ended after he hit puberty in high school. He has always been a bit on the buff side. But I do appreciate the effort.”
The two women sipped their coffee in silence until Beth began to chuckle. Hannah asked, “what is so funny?”
“Oh, I just thought about the days I would have killed for a kiss from him. So glad I grew up and over that.”
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – callous
As near as I can tell, it is an Edna Buchanan quote that says “Friends are the family we choose for ourselves.” I have always believed this. I value friendships very highly. As I write this I have done so many rewrites because I can’t find a clear way to express how important they are to me. I think the most important thing is to let them know how you feel about them… life happens and you won’t always get the chance to say it.
The traffic has not been heavy
It was lighter than I would have liked
But still a fair share
Have walked in and out of my life
The memories are mostly good
But the losses are hard
The footprints behind
Leave a permanent scar
And there are those in question
Whether they will stay or go
Who seem to be stomping
Both to and fro
It hurts me with the back and forth
Just make up your mind
Keep the traffic moving
Or you will get left behind
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – traffic