A to Z Challenge – L

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The letter L …

I would say this is as important as food, clothes and shelter.  I have been lucky in my life to have been able to love and be loved both.  I admit that I often lead with my heart and that is not always the wisest thing to do.  However, it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside to see those I care about happy and that is what it usually comes down to.  I love with a vengeance and find it very hard, if not impossible, to shut that off once it is there.  A couple of my past loves are still a very big part of my life.  I love them and want to see them happy.

I am not sure it is as strong on the flipside though and that is a place where I struggle with my depression.  I don’t always feel that love is returned as easily as given.  I think it is just my insecurities, but I just don’t feel it most of the time; it often just feels like going through the motions day to day.  Here again though that is a product of my depression.  But there are plenty of people and things for me to love and I do so with all my heart.  My L gratitude is love.

My Wish

If I had one wish
I would want this…
To be comfortable
In my own skin
Take the pain away
Take away the fears
Leave anxiety behind
And shake the depression
No more casting doubt
And shadows upon myself
Living with hope
And not inward hate
A chance to stop
Always blaming me
For maybe just this once
I could be happy
Being me

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – comfortable