I write when I am happy
I write when I am hurt
I pour out my feelings in words
To make the day complete
There are days though
When I feel someone else take over
And the words spew forth
Full of anger, pain and hate
I study the words and wonder
Thinking I couldn’t possibly feel like that
But there are the words
Written right in front of me
Today I hated myself
And tomorrow I fear the same
If I can’t slow down
This awful pain
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – study
I’m a pretty easy-going person
I have a lot of patience
And I can tolerate a lot
But I do hate one thing
It is not your inability to quit
it is not the shell of your former self
it never was you
but the demon that controlled you
forced you to lie
forced to keep drinking
forced you to walk away
the demon that ended your life
I hate that alcoholism
Took you away forever
From a daughter that needed you
And from me who still loved
The man drowning in the bottle
Written for Fandango’s Dog Days of August (FDDA) # 19 – hate
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If I had one wish
I would want this…
To be comfortable
In my own skin
Take the pain away
Take away the fears
Leave anxiety behind
And shake the depression
No more casting doubt
And shadows upon myself
Living with hope
And not inward hate
A chance to stop
Always blaming me
For maybe just this once
I could be happy
Being me
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – comfortable
There was a time
That I would have jumped
The minute you said to
There was a time
When I believed in you
When you were still unsure
There was a time
When the future looked bright
When we had little to show
Those days are gone
You have lost control
And I can’t stand the pain anymore
Those days are gone
You lie so much
And I can’t find peace anymore
Those days are gone
You spew hate
And I can’t feel love anymore
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – control
The news is full of hate these days
Leaving us full of sadness
I feel powerless as one to change things
If only we could unfurl a new flag
One of freedom, unity and respect
For the whole world to stand behind
But as long as there are egos in power
Peace and love are only hopes and wishes
In the minds of the few who still dare to dream
Leigha Robbins 