Happy and Grateful – Day 313

November brings a chill in the air and the start of the holiday gatherings of family and friends.  I can’t believe I am down to the last two month of my challenge to find happiness and feel gratitude every day.  I hope you join with me in the comments or your own blog in this challenge.  No matter how small there is always a little good in even the worst day.

It was a cold day today.  Right around the freezing point most of the day with a cold wind blowing.  A good day to stay inside.  And that is what I did for most of the day.  I fought fatigue a good portion of the day and succumbed to two naps.  But I was grateful to have a day with not much planned where I could take the naps.

I was feeling a little better than I was last night, but still missing my friend.  It is getting close to the holidays and at one time he was going to be here for the holidays, but that changed and I wish I could see him again.  I worry I never will see him in person again.  As he will not be coming back here and I don’t have the money or energy to travel.  I am glad we still keep in touch somewhat through phone and texts.

Tonight’s happy moment … I have a hard time with this one tonight.  I am going to go with one I don’t know if I have used before or not.  With the upcoming winter they are talking about the homeless and the coming cold…. I am happy to have a roof over my head and I can afford the heat to stay warm.  Having known someone who was homeless for a while I know circumstances can come up and it all can vanish too easily.

Now I am going to finish watching the end of the musical Chicago and hope to get to sleep soon after.  Please remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day.

Happy and Grateful – Day 202

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning. It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life. It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night. I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day. Join along in the comments or on your own blog. There is always good in every day.

For us there was a little bit of relief today… it rained.  It was not much but it was enough that it was about 10 degrees cooler.  The grass is still brown and we need a lot more rain, but it is a start.

I paid today for being up so late last night.  I took about 3 naps and still fought my eyelids from closing.  I am definitely going to be sleeping earlier tonight.  I was however grateful to be able to take the naps I did today.

Tonight I let my inner child out.  The movie Matilda was on TV and there is something about that movie that just makes me happy inside.  I really needed it tonight.  I will take my happiness where I can get it!

Now I will try to escape a little bit in a book and soon drift off to sleep.  I hope you find something to be grateful for in your weekend.

Happy and Grateful – Day 201

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning. It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life. It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night. I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day. Join along in the comments or on your own blog. There is always good in every day.

Temperatures hit 100 today with excessive heat warnings.  I only was outside for the bare minimum time.  The heat is bad but when the high humidity is added it makes it hard for me to breathe.  It is just like walking into a wall of heat outside.  It is supposed to be about 5 to 10 degrees cooler tomorrow… wish it was 15 to 20 instead.  Oh well, we take what we get.

Today I heard from a good friend.  I was grateful to get a phone call from him.  He has recently moved and been busy so it had been a while since I talked to him.  It was good to hear his voice again.

I got another surprise… my daughter stopped by after work tonight.  She brought me some coffee and we visited while she did some laundry.  It always makes me happy to see her.  She has a 48 hour work week so I was really surprised she stopped.

Now my boyfriend needs a ride to work in just 4 hours so I should try to get a little rest.  I hear my pillow calling my name.  Hope you find your happiness today!

Happy and Grateful – Day 200

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning. It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life. It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night. I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day. Join along in the comments or on your own blog. There is always good in every day.

The oppressive heat and humidity continues.  My Dad skipped his coffee group today to avoid being out in it.  I felt with him being in his eighties that was a wise decision.  My boyfriend however wanted to go to the outdoor shooting range for some special target practice today.  Heat index in the triple digits and he wants to be outside… not me.

I did do something for me while he was at the range.  I attended another Al-anon meeting.  I really like the people who gather on Wednesday nights but haven’t been able to make it to many of the meetings.  I am so grateful to have the meetings to go to when I can.

I did get a chance to talk to my daughter briefly today.  Seems like it has been a while since I have seen her so a chance to talk to her is good.  It always makes me happy to talk to her.

My eyelids are drooping, so I am going to call it a night.  May you find happiness and gratitude in your day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 199

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning. It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life. It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night. I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day. Join along in the comments or on your own blog. There is always good in every day.

Like so much of the country we are in a time of high heat.  They issued a heat advisory that starts tomorrow and lasts through Saturday.  Not my ideal time of the year.  But I make due with what I am given.

Today I spent a little time reading.  My daughter recommended a book for me to read.  So far it has been pretty good.  It made me happy to take the time to read a little today.  I don’t take enough time to do that.  But part of that is because I have problems with concentration and short-term memory with my fibro flares.  It gets very frustrating reading the same page over and over before I get it.

It was a great dinner we had tonight.  My boyfriend fried up some hamburger with taco seasoning and we set up all the fixin’s and made tacos.  It was so good, right down to the homemade guacamole!  I am grateful that he likes to cook and does so most nights.

Well I am going to keep this short tonight… pretty tired and hope to get to sleep soon.  I hope you find your happiness everyday!  Please watch out for the heat and try to stay cool!

Happy and Grateful – Day 198

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning. It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life. It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night. I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day. Join along in the comments or on your own blog. There is always good in every day.

Today I wanted to run away… and in a small way I did.

I had to take my Dad to the eye doctor and when we stepped back out into the 90°F weather, started the car and cranked on the A/C… there was nothing!  No fans, no cold, no hot, nothing.  My boyfriends car is out of commission, so I can’t have my car in the shop for a repair right now.  I was devastated.  After I dropped off my Dad I “ran away” to the park.

I got out and pounded the pavement to the flower display took my camera out and started looking for peace and beauty.  Halfway through my pictures I realized my camera had low batteries and was taking very shaky pictures, so I switched to my phone.  I walked a little further to the other small garden area and took some more pictures before I melted onto the nearest bench.

I cut through a couple of short cuts and made it back to my car drenched in sweat.  Put the key in the ignition and crossed my fingers.  It worked!  The air conditioner came back on.  So I am a little confused on what my car is actually doing.  But for now it works.  And for that I am grateful.

The internet was then out when I returned home (which is why my Monochrome Monday – From The Back  post was late going up) so I did a little photo work.  I was happy, even in the heat, to see the flowers today and “pound out” the frustration with a short walk.  The day was not a total loss.  I got to see this…

 

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Happy and Grateful – Day 197

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning. It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life. It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night. I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day. Join along in the comments or on your own blog. There is always good in every day.

This was another hot day… one in a long line in the forecast for the next week or more.  It is doing nothing for my mood or peace of mind.  I’ve been struggling with depression again and the light at the end of the tunnel feels so far away.  But I know that is just the negativity that comes with the depression.  I am trying to do all I can to at least keep a demeanor of being “ok.”

It was a day indoors again.  This time I did not leave the apartment at all today.  I just can’t tolerate the heat with the high humidity.  So it was a day of music for me.  I caught Purple Rain, The Temptations, and am currently watching/listening to Across The Universe on TV.  I am always grateful for the places that music can take me.  It can tap into the feel good emotions and help make a down day a little better.

My happy moment would have to be the time I spent writing today.  Poems, a letter and here on my blog.  It makes me feel a little more connected to the world.  It also helps me deal with the tough stuff by getting it out of my head.  I want to thank all of you that read my ramblings and don’t run and hide.  I have had enough friends do that in my life.

I am going to take my negative thoughts and work on another poem.  I may post it later.  I hope sleep comes soon… at least I am not thinking then.  Try to find your happiness every day… it is there no matter how small.

Happy and Grateful – Day 164

June brings warmer weather and the start of summer.  Hopefully it brings many ideas from my muse too.  I continue to write for my challenge to find the things that make me happy and grateful each day this year.  Please feel free to join me in this challenge with comments about your happiness and gratitude or start your own blog.  There is always something good to find in each day.

Today was a scorcher.  Highs in the 90s and the heat index was around 100… it was HOT!  And I had things I had to do.  So I pulled my jeans up, tugged my shirt down and set after getting them done.

Thankfully most of the errands were just quick drop offs, but I did have a half a dozen things to get at the store for my Dad.  I am just grateful I had the energy to get through it all.  I will probably be running short on energy tomorrow, but there is only Dad’s coffee meeting to worry about.

Tonight I chatted a bit with my daughter and she made me laugh… that is always a good thing.  I can usually count on her to turn my spirit around when I am down, or at least try.  She continually makes me happy to be her mom.

But tonight I am very worn out, so not a lot of chit-chat on my blog.  I am ready to curl up and get some rest.  Let’s hope I will be able to uncurl tomorrow morning.  LOL!

Happy and Grateful – Day 162

June brings warmer weather and the start of summer.  Hopefully it brings many ideas from my muse too.  I continue to write for my challenge to find the things that make me happy and grateful each day this year.  Please feel free to join me in this challenge with comments about your happiness and gratitude or start your own blog.  There is always something good to find in each day.

Another scorcher today… dew point was about 70° most of the day.  I think they say 70 – 75 is humid, 75 and up is tropical.  It certainly felt sticky out there today.  So I stayed indoors most of the day.  I did venture out with my boyfriend to the grocery story around the block to pick up some things for dinner.  It was after 6 and not as warm as the noon day sun at least… I was grateful for a little breeze blowing too.

We had another quiet night finishing up season 2 of Banshee.  I went to see my Dad for a bit and got him some dinner.  Made sure his AC was still working well, I would hate to see him try to go without it in this heat.  I was happy to see he was feeling a little better tonight than the last couple of nights.

Now the day winds down and the anxiety beats at my head… I really hope I get some good news tomorrow from one of the lawyers I contacted.  BUT, for now I can do nothing about it so I hope I can just stay in my day and get some rest.  Wishing you all a good night!

Happy and Grateful – Day 134

May has arrived and I hope it brings lots of Spring cheer with it.  I am in my fifth month now of taking time to acknowledge the things that make me happy and grateful every day… almost half way to my goal of a full year.  If you want to join in on this challenge please add your thoughts in the comments or start your own blog.  There is a lot to be happy and grateful for!

Happy Mother’s Day to all the moms out there, the dads who fill both shoes and those who wait to be a mom.  I had a nice day.  My daughter came over with “breakfast in bed” for me – a bag of bagels and an iced coffee.  She also had some flowers for me… now the trick is to keep the cat out of them!

The mercury is starting to inch up a little higher outside.  We had temperatures in the 80’s today and the humidity was up.  We decided to tough it out today, but will turn on the air tomorrow before it gets too hot.  I am going to be uncomfortable enough I don’t want to be hot too.

Jumping ahead just for a moment… I am making no promises about my posts tomorrow night.  I may try to get to them early, but don’t know if I will have time.  I have to prep for a colonoscopy scheduled on Tuesday.  Been through one before (10 years ago) so I know the test is a breeze, the prep is no fun!  So depending on how things go tomorrow I may not post until Tuesday night.  I will try to squeeze it in though.

Back to today… I was happy to see my daughter.  She can always make me smile.  And I was grateful for a day where I could eat what I wanted (not looking forward to a clear liquid diet tomorrow).  Now to get some sleep as I know it will be hard to sleep tomorrow night.  Good night!