turn around don’t drown

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the day I found you

was a dark spot

in my life

and you made me

feel wanted again

i can never repay

what you did for me

how you held me up

when I thought

i would surely drown

how you made me see

i could turn around

and start over again

i am forever

In your debt

for helping me

no longer be afraid

of the person

in the mirror


Written for Fandango’s Dog Days of August (FDDA) #7 – found

Distance

He held my hand and gave me hope

Then he showed his true colors

Little by little his cynical side began to show

He distrusted everyone, including me

He began to think I had other things in mind

And he put a lot of space between us

I greatly missed the friend I had

And asked him why so distant

His answer was more distance

And I became all alone again

**

One day he stopped to see me

And gave me what he’d borrowed

I felt like this was the final goodbye for some reason

He stood there at a distance and softly said goodbye

I fought back tears and desperately wanted a hug

But he turned around and walked out the door.

And I never saw that cynical man again.


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – cynical

No One

The tears well up
Hanging on the edge
Of lashes already damp
I feel my breathing
Becoming more rapid
My heart is beating
A Morse code plea for help
No one can hear it
No one notices
No one is here
No one cares
While I struggle to live…

Just venting some frustrations tonight.  Better to have the thoughts out of my head onto paper (or the screen as it were) than roaming around my brain for hours.

Day 73 – 100 Days of Happiness

I cried again today… not for sadness though.  It was a more or less humbling moment.  My boyfriend and I have been in sad financial ways for some time now and I have been very worried about Christmas.

I grew up with Christmas always being a time of giving and I LOVE to buy stuff for other people and see the joy it brings them.  Strapped for cash though that is hard to do.  We have been saving change, taking pop cans to the redemption center, using coupons when possible… all the tricks we can think of to save.  Today my sister and father surprised me with a check to use for Christmas shopping.  It was all I could do to stop the tears from flowing right away.  I am so lucky to have family that understands what I am going through and is there to help where they can.

So one worry has been lessened. And happily I was able to take advantage of a Black Friday sale and get a shirt for my daughter at half price almost.  Now if I can get organised for Cyber Monday I can do some more shopping and then it will be a happy Christmas once again.