Happy and Grateful – Day 253

The kids are all in school, there is a growing crisp in the air.  Football games and shorter days fill the weeks.  It is September.  I have accomplished another month of acknowledging my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join me as I continue my goal of one year on this journey.  Please join in with your happiness and gratitude in the comments or your own blog post.  No matter how bad the day is there is always something worthwhile in the day.

Today was a pretty quiet day.  I did some computer work, watched a movie with my boyfriend and started some laundry.  And that was enough for me to handle for today.  The fatigue was trying to bother me again today and I have been pretty down, but I made it through the day.

Nothing big and exciting for the day, but I have to look at the big picture.  With so many people effected by the hurricanes, wild fires and earthquakes I am just grateful to have a place to call home today… with power and water that is safe to drink.  I have been through flooding and boil warnings for water so I know how precious water can be.

On the same note, I am happy those I know in the areas of the hurricanes and fires are safe.  I tend to worry about things like that.

I take a minute to pray that these disasters are contained soon with little injured. Now I need to close my eyes.  Find you happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day!

(just discovered I did not post this last night… hope you all forgive me for being a little late with this post)

Happy and Grateful – Day 236

Seven months are gone now and surprisingly I am still plugging along with this challenge to post about my happiness and gratitude every day this year.  August brings the state fair here in Iowa and lots of heat and humidity.  It is the time to see the back to school shopping start with kids dreading it and parents loving it.  As I continue my challenge I hope you will take a minute to reflect on your day too.  You can even share your happiness and gratitude here in the comments or on your own blog.  There is good in every day!

It was back to more seasonable weather today so no windows open for me.  It still wasn’t horrible, but too humid to leave the windows open.  So I stayed shut in to my apartment most of the day.  This however is Thursday and my weekly visit with my therapist.  And as I was running short on sleep since I stayed up late watching the soap with my daughter last night… I did one thing that I hate.  I started crying during our session.  Talking about my grandmother and my former mother-in-law the tears began to come.  I was just too tired to fight them back down like I usually do in front of others.  I must have been teased or something when I was young because I have always been afraid of crying in front of others.  I know it is actually good for us to cry and get the emotions out… I just feel very isolated when I cry which only adds to the discomfort.

So lack of sleep, tears and then a bit of bad news on my boyfriends loan put the day in the bad day category.  We had so been hoping to take another loan from his 401K to get him a used but reliable car to drive and they denied it.  So now it is a talk to the bank and if there is no luck there maybe see if we can finance it through the car dealership.  Like my boyfriend said tonight… it is our turn to catch a break.

So finding some good in the day has been more of a challenge.  But I have to say there is always something.  And knowing we are struggling but we have a roof over our heads is ahead of some others out there.  A good friend of mine was homeless for a while so I have seen that side of it and it and am grateful to have a place to call home.  Where I can be comfortable enough to cry on occasion.

As for the happy part of the day. It was some planning coming through for me.  I have been thinking of what to do for my grandmothers 100th birthday and I think I have the card design in mind now, so I just have to put it together.  That makes me happy… creating things.  I also wrote a poem about a friend I miss terribly and writing always helps the day along as well.

I need to end this and get a better nights rest than I did last night.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day!

Mountain Cowboy

Mountain cowboy

Hear the call of nature

Speaking your name

Whispering in the trees

Laughing with the river flow

Shouting with the mountain heights

 

Mountain cowboy

Know you are home

With the wind by your side

The sun on your face

Your horse next to you

A fire ready for night fall

 

Mountain cowboy

Remember those you leave behind

Forever touched by your spirit

Holding you deep in their hearts

Missing you every day

Loving you forever

 

Mountain cowboy

Ride off to your dreams

Straight into the sunset…

Respect

The word of the day… respect.  Does anyone have it anymore?  I have listened to a couple of friends fighting this weekend and I have come to the conclusion that neither one shows much respect for the other.  Old problems thrown back at each other when feelings get hurt.  Jabs taken at personal issues.  It has been a long list of things that in my mind comes thru as a lack of respect.  Yes, I get in fights with friends and family too, but I would like to think I take the high road and not throw salt into the wounds.  It is something I try to be very conscious of others feeling as I know how bitter bad words can taste.

I also work with the public… now there is an epidemic of lack of respect!  From very personal cell phone conversations in the middle of a family restaurant, to swearing at the park in front of young children, from paying NO attention to cashiers at the checkout to blaming the employees for being out of stock of a certain item… there are a MILLION examples of common courtesy being ignored or maybe never taught.  So often I see parents showing no respect to their children.  Yes, they are a child and should show respect to their parents, but how do they learn that respect.  You have to SHOW it.  I always spoke to my daughter as a human being (no baby talk) and really listened to what she had to say.  That takes time that a lot of parents these days don’t have.  I understand working long hours or two jobs, but what about the day-cares?  Do they have the staff to show respect to all the children at once?  Even when they get to school age there are a lot of great teachers, but it only takes one who shows no respect for the student to encourage the lack of respect back.

I was raised to be a part of what was going on around me.  It was not a case of speak only when you are spoken to, but it was like I had a voice.  Granted I was too shy to use it most of the time, but I knew they would listen if I spoke at the right times.  I get busy and ignore texts, let the answering machine pick up and all those other things at times… but I know I always get back to whoever it was (with the exception of telemarketer who never leave a message anyway… that is a whole different blog!) within a day.  Don’t turn your back on friends.  Don’t alienate family.  You don’t have to like them, you can be mad at them… but RESPECT them.

Understand we all have bad days and may need to say no.  We all make mistakes.  Not everyone knows you were up all hours of the night and got no sleep, or that you have been sick and don’t feel up to original plans that were made, or that you had a family emergency and you are stressed beyond limits.  Remember we all need respect… don’t assume anything.  Take the time to respect and talk to each other, but most of all listen.  That is where respect will grow.

…rant over.