To educate is to teach, to learn something,
But how does one educate themselves?
I need to learn not to expect so much.
I need to accept others don’t care like I do.
I need to stop expecting a “how are you”
Because it just isn’t happening.
I need to stop hoping for a call “just because”
It is not something they will do.
I need to cram for this test called life
For it is not the lessons I thought I would learn
His voice was loud and sudden
It caused me to jolt back to reality
I was daydreaming again
Wishing for things like
Tenderness, romance and touch
Sincerity, kindness and maturity
Sobriety, awareness and presence of mind
But these days my dreams seem impossible
As he drifts further away
He is asking about dinner
And I sigh and answer him
Back to my reality
Where I feel so forgotten…
like an invisible force
the unseen pull
drags me to you
even though I shouldn’t
even though it’s a wasted dream
I still come to you
you to love me