Gravy, the word conjures up comfort food in most people. But it sent me squealing tires, fast as can be back to the past. A word my ex used to use at least once a week. He worked for a printing company and would get big jobs that once they were set up were just “gravy” or super easy to run. I hadn’t thought of that term in years. Why did it drag me to the past today?
Last month was the anniversary of his death and this month is his birthday. Plus, you throw in holidays that are missing someone. And no matter what, in spite of the divorce, he was still a friend of mine. Someone I care about, never really stopped loving him but HATED what the bottle had done to him.
So, here I am in the past with all those old questions, worries and what ifs. It is a trap I fall into too often. When you are married to someone for 20 years it is hard to walk away. But I had to for my own peace of mind. The alcohol killed what was once so beautiful. The lies and self destruction were too much.
On a side note to gravy, I had been getting a little closer to caught up and then the holiday came. We had two Thanksgivings and I fell back to more than a week behind. BUT I will catch up hopefully before Christmas. I am ahead of schedule on my Christmas cards so I should only need one more day for that to be done. Bear with me. And I hope everyone has a great weekend! (((HUGS)))
Written for Fandango One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – gravy
“Don’t undermine my authority,” she yelled at him. “You agreed last week she would not get a job and now you took her job hunting all weekend? Need I remind you I have full custody and can keep her from you.”
“Don’t threaten me. She made valid points and promised her schooling came first.” He continued, “I tried to call you, but it just went to voicemail. Were you out with HIM again?”
“Listen, I deserve to finally have a life, since you never took me anywhere.”
“Let’s not go to the past again. This is about Tina’s future and I know she is a good student and will pull back if work takes too much time.”
“You just want to make me look like the bad guy.”
“You do a good enough job of that yourself.”
The front door slammed and Tina said, “Just let me work, I’m so sick of listening to the two of you fight. Let me be the adult neither of you is being.”
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – undermine
It was an ambiguous response. He never was very clear what he wanted or what he meant. So she once again asked him, “Did you get the job or not?”
“They told me it was down to me and two other candidates. They will let me know, hopefully by Friday. No later than next Wednesday.” he said in a halfhearted way.
“Thank you for saying it clearly. I sure hope they see the potential in you.”
“Well I gave it my all either way. Either I fit the job title or I don’t, nothing I can do about it now.”
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – ambiguous