Like a business website
I want to see clearly
An overview of my life
Able to see the past usage
Of all my energies
Able to know where
My time has been spent
Able to know my connections
And which ones are the best
But the closest I can come
Is a journal format I found
To highlight my days
And see where I need to change
So I write daily to try to improve
And better my fife instead of just lose
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – overview
I always thought it was strange
But now I wonder if I am one
One of those people who needs a life coach
I could use some organization
I often feel overwhelmed
And God knows I’m far from perfect
My mental health is not good
And neither is my physical health honestly
I just don’t think I can leave it up to me
It has taken me nearly 54 years to decide
I am not the best person to run my own life
It is a very sobering thought
Maybe the realization should be
That it is just not worth it
But I am not even strong enough for that
I think I’ll just go back to bed
Tomorrow will eventually be here
And with it maybe a little hope
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – coach
Nothing
That is what I feel late at night
Nothing
That is what I have to hold
Nothing
That is what my days are
Nothing
That is my life
Nothing
…nothing left to fight for
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – nothing
It is once again time to go back in time to find an old post from my archives of posts for FFF and share something that may be new to you. This poem was first posted on April 17th in 2017 here. It was for a daily prompt of climbing. I hope you enjoy it!
It is an uphill climb
The daily struggle called life
You have to keep moving forward
Or you will lose your momentum
Rocks and bushes will try to slow you down
But obstacles are no match
For sheer determination and survival instincts
The ultimate view from the top
Will be worth the journey of strife
So whatever you do
Just keep climbing…
Can I turn my life in
Can I get an exchange
Something more my size
Something easier to handle
I have felt so lost
I have dealt with pain
Now I want peace of mind
Now I wish for happiness
Please let me trade in
Please let me start over
I am so tired in this life
I am sick of being used
Can I please turn in my life
Can I please get an exchange
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – exchange
Sometimes I wish
Life came with a manual
A chance to get it right
Only an instruction away
But life is too unpredictable
And changes on a whim
One day it is full of sunshine
The next is wet with rain
And one day you can be happy
The next feeling close to insane
So takes life’s ups and downs
And try and enjoy the ride
You never know where it will go
And when it might end
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – manual
I am tired of things the way they are
Still terrified to change anything
My life has been kidnapped
By this damned disease
Any time I start to feel better
It backfires on me
But I am getting stronger inside
And soon I may have what it takes
To turn things around
To put ME first for once
No matter how many down days I have
I know the good will return
It is just so easy to be jaded
By the days that are hard
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – jaded
This weekend Fandango at This, That and The Other was nominated for the Sunshine Blogger Award… setting his own rules he opened up the questions involved in the award to everyone. I think that I qualify as anyone and will take a stab and the questions. Let me get my sword out…
1) What is the most important thing in life for you? My daughter is my world!
2) Do your friends and family support you in blogging (or any other passion of yours)? They know about it and am glad it makes me happy, but they don’t read it. My other passions… I do photography and crafting – they like what I come up with at least.
3) What is your favorite flavor in ice cream? I am partial to butter pecan/praline pecan but the mood strikes me for mint chocolate chip sometimes too.
4) What would be your dream job? Any one I could do… being unable to work really sucks at this age. Really miss the interaction with people.
5) Who is your favorite actor, or author (if you don’t watch movies)? I like too many to list… it kind of depends what movie genre we are talking about. I love Joe Hill as an author!
6) What are your ambitions for the next year? To try to get back outside more to take photos and take walks, that is one exercise that usually doesn’t leave me hurting for days.
7) How do you think the world is going to cope with environmental changes? It doesn’t look good. There are so many things happening already that show how out of whack things are. As long as people keep their head in the sand about it, it will only get worse faster.
8) What would be your ideal holiday? For a celebration it is Christmas, for a vacation I would love to go to the mountains.
9) How has your way of thinking changed with age? I appreciate the little things more and have learned life is short, let people know you care about them before they are gone.
10) Which season describes your personality? The depression in me wants to say fall as things are all dying. But I think I have learned to embrace life a little better due to my illnesses so the hope of spring and new life, new opportunities is what I want to be seen for.
Thanks Fandango for letting me play along!
The image in the mirror
Does not reflect
All that I am
The image in the mirror
Only tells you
Half the story
The image in the mirror
Is someone
Lost and alone
The image in the mirror
Shows me
Life is fading
Turning to black
An ugly existence
Stares menacingly back at me
I make a fist
And smash the glass
To end this dreadful life
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – reflect
