What Now Coach?

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I always thought it was strange

But now I wonder if I am one

One of those people who needs a life coach

I could use some organization

I often feel overwhelmed

And God knows I’m far from perfect

My mental health is not good

And neither is my physical health honestly

I just don’t think I can leave it up to me

It has taken me nearly 54 years to decide

I am not the best person to run my own life

It is a very sobering thought

Maybe the realization should be

That it is just not worth it

But I am not even strong enough for that

I think I’ll just go back to bed

Tomorrow will eventually be here

And with it maybe a little hope

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Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – coach

Tired and Empty

Nothing

That is what I feel late at night

Nothing

That is what I have to hold

Nothing

That is what my days are

Nothing

That is my life

Nothing

…nothing left to fight for

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Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – nothing

Do You Dream In Color

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For Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – pizzazz

Fandango’s Friday Flashback – April 17th

It is once again time to go back in time to find an old post from my archives of posts for FFF and share something that may be new to you.  This poem was first posted on April 17th in 2017 here.  It was for a daily prompt of climbing.  I hope you enjoy it!

Uphill

It is an uphill climb

The daily struggle called life

You have to keep moving forward

Or you will lose your momentum

Rocks and bushes will try to slow you down

But obstacles are no match

For sheer determination and survival instincts

The ultimate view from the top

Will be worth the journey of strife

So whatever you do

Just keep climbing…

Customer Service Please

Can I turn my life in

Can I get an exchange

Something more my size

Something easier to handle

I have felt so lost

I have dealt with pain

Now I want peace of mind

Now I wish for happiness

Please let me trade in

Please let me start over

I am so tired in this life

I am sick of being used

Can I please turn in my life

Can I please get an exchange

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – exchange

Tab B Goes Into Slot A

Sometimes I wish

Life came with a manual

A chance to get it right

Only an instruction away

But life is too unpredictable

And changes on a whim

One day it is full of sunshine

The next is wet with rain

And one day you can be happy

The next feeling close to insane

So takes life’s ups and downs

And try and enjoy the ride

You never know where it will go

And when it might end

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – manual

No Ransom

I am tired of things the way they are

Still terrified to change anything

My life has been kidnapped

By this damned disease

Any time I start to feel better

It backfires on me

But I am getting stronger inside

And soon I may have what it takes

To turn things around

To put ME first for once

No matter how many down days I have

I know the good will return

It is just so easy to be jaded

By the days that are hard

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – jaded

The Sunny Side of the Street

This weekend Fandango at This, That and The Other  was nominated for the Sunshine Blogger Award… setting his own rules he opened up the questions involved in the award to everyone.  I think that I qualify as anyone and will take a stab and the questions.  Let me get my sword out…

1) What is the most important thing in life for you? My daughter is my world!

2) Do your friends and family support you in blogging (or any other passion of yours)? They know about it and am glad it makes me happy, but they don’t read it. My other passions… I do photography and crafting – they like what I come up with at least.

3) What is your favorite flavor in ice cream? I am partial to butter pecan/praline pecan but the mood strikes me for mint chocolate chip sometimes too.

4) What would be your dream job? Any one I could do… being unable to work really sucks at this age.  Really miss the interaction with people.

5) Who is your favorite actor, or author (if you don’t watch movies)? I like too many to list… it kind of depends what movie genre we are talking about.  I love Joe Hill as an author!

6) What are your ambitions for the next year? To try to get back outside more to take photos and take walks, that is one exercise that usually doesn’t leave me hurting for days.

7) How do you think the world is going to cope with environmental changes? It doesn’t look good.  There are so many things happening already that show how out of whack things are.  As long as people keep their head in the sand about it, it will only get worse faster.

8) What would be your ideal holiday? For a celebration it is Christmas, for a vacation I would love to go to the mountains.

9) How has your way of thinking changed with age? I appreciate the little things more and have learned life is short, let people know you care about them before they are gone.

10) Which season describes your personality? The depression in me wants to say fall as things are all dying.  But I think I have learned to embrace life a little better due to my illnesses so the hope of spring and new life, new opportunities is what I want to be seen for.

Thanks Fandango for letting me play along!

Seven Years

The image in the mirror

Does not reflect

All that I am

 

The image in the mirror

Only tells you

Half the story

 

The image in the mirror

Is someone

Lost and alone

 

The image in the mirror

Shows me

Life is fading

 

Turning to black

An ugly existence

Stares menacingly back at me

 

I make a fist

And smash the glass

To end this dreadful life

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – reflect

A to Z Challenge – Zest

Z is for Zest

No, I am not going to tell you about soap.  It is something I try really hard to hang onto on bad days like today has been… a zest for life.  I have hurt and felt worthless and a burden most of the day.  But I have tried to take care of myself and do what is best for me.  Every bad day can be balanced out with good ones.  You just have to remember you will make it through the bad to the good.

I also learned a little something when I battled cancer and there is no way you can face a disease like that and not crave life affirmations.  So good days or bad there is always something worse that could be happening so hold onto the good you can find and LIVE life.  Even if you have to take part of a day off to do a little self care… climb back on the horse and do something fun, new or unexpected.

I have enjoyed this A to Z Challenge, I hope you have too and learned a little about me.  Now for one last time… follow my A to Z challenge:

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